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I am in a pickle, so to speak. I was using Coca~Cola to give me the juice I needed to see me to getting the things done that needed doing before, during, and after my lady friend's visit. I suggested I would quit using the stuff once she was gone. Well, sure enough, after I ran out of the last drops of go-juice I reluctantly but honestly stopped purchasing more. And, if the diabetes is not perfectly under control yet, I can feel my organs relaxing, softening, and returning to a more normal state (I think, anyway... some of them were becoming just a wee tight and causing some minor pain).
Diabetes? Yes, I have it and bad. But, so far, I am still healthy as a healthy horse and in a large way. My eyes have improved 3 times in the last 10 years, 6 of those years and two of the improvements being diabetic era, diabetes which is usually out of control at that. However, without something to help me go, I am back to slipping schedules, an inability to focus and push, self care and house care drops to sub-standard levels, and I am not able to even feed myself rightly. Those are bad enough, being a man, but there is bad and there is worse.
The Cola does not really "give me wings", it merely allows me to stay up long enough to have the potential to notice problems or dirty dishes and fix the problems or do the dishes. Ritalin was a step up from that, but the new doctor is dead set against that, without also taking the blood pressure medicine. And, here like Iowa, either neglect, incompetence, or outright avarice plays as a blocking item(s) in my care. I simply cannot afford to do private care at this point. Should I go back to the "sauce", knowing I am risking a great deal? Do I have a choice?
I am thinking about this, but I do not see a lot of options. I may, without touching an ounce of alcohol, still end up drinking myself to death just to be able to get a leg out of the bed more than a few hours at a time or even getting those feet on the floor more than a few days a week. It could be so simple. *grumbles* Oh, right, never go for that "government health care". It really is genocide.
Dear Fellow Diabetic,
ReplyDeleteIs it the sugar giving you energy or is it the caffeine?
High blood sugar exhausts me completely. Steady high blood sugar has led me to poor eyesight and an amputation.
Have you tried coffee or a good spice tea instead of cola? Might be worth a try. Spiced tea is my choice of energy booster. Hot or iced. Diet coke works, too.
Lulu
Thanks. I have tried coffee and tea. It is a sugar mixture, along with the caffeine, in my experience, which provides energy to act and more importantly so that I can act, stay awake. And, yes, as I said, I do worry. Living alone, if things go bad, it will mean death.
ReplyDeleteAs I said, my eyes have improved. They did exhaustive testing this last time, I think they are trying to understand why I am not being damaged by diabetes (averaging around 300+ with spikes over 650). There is simply no capillary problems, my feet are quite sensitive, and blood work comes back good (though something extra is showing up in my blood, something they think will cause heart problems, but hasn't, even with the long term and untreated/untreatable high blood pressure (10 years on that)). And, yes, the heart is still good. Impressively good. I bug them almost as much as they bug me.
I know, but the fixes (medicines they WILL give me) either don't work or they make the problem(s) worse by causing me to sleep even more than my primary disability already causes.
I feel like a T-Rex stuck in a tar pit. Freeing one limb only makes it worse. And the "doctors" are adding weight to me, all the while assuring the weight will fix the problem. Doctors have been eschewed for reason.
But thanks for the notion. I am looking for something that might help.
Here's a random thought tossed into the mix: ephedra--commonly known as "mormon tea". It is a mild stimulant, not unlike caffeine, but different than caffeine in some hard to define ways.
ReplyDeleteIt is a green twiggy bush that grows around these parts, but it ought to be available dried and ready to make into tea, or perhaps in capsule form, in health food stores or similar outlets.
Perhaps it can do for you what caffeine cannot, if you are unable to get your doc to put you back on Ritalin.
Er...ok I see upon searching that the FDA in its infinite STUPIDITY has banned the most common form of natural ephedra--Ma Huang.
ReplyDeleteThanks, idiots.
However it appears that for now, ephedra is still available in pill form as a body building and fat burning supplement. I found this site: http://www.dietpills-with-ephedra.com/
One other note, if your blood pressure is still out of control, this might not be such a good idea. Proceed with extreme caution...
ReplyDeleteHmm, I did a great big reply post here, D.C. I know it posted, not sure what happened to it. I think Google has real problems, more than they will ever let on. Their interwebs is not theirs, always.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I have begun a search for Mormon tea, locally. I have put out a few feelers, and if those fail, I will go to the local ladies in higher standing. I have a weak access to them. I suspect if I approach them humbly and kindly, they can be very good occasional resources. Further, my connections are trustworthy enough that I will have some trust in the community.
Being a heavy talker (and writer) has it's privileges. Oh, and being very honest, to the point of open access, is not a bad trait ALL of the time.