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Dinner was a gift from my friend. Both of us enjoy food with no cooking, dishes, and some company from time to time. He decided to go with clamps for his engine turning kit. I'm not sure that will work. Perhaps if a slow pace it taken, perhaps. He seems to be a bit ill. Me too. My diabetes is back, full throttle. I am not sure why he is ill, I just know it though.
Reading one of my blog roll blogs, I chanced upon test results. I decided to take that again. It seems I am still ENTJ. It advised conferring with a "feeling type" when dealing with huma... people. On personal matters. And I do. Among them my mother. She knows these things. It makes sense, and yes, I understand why I have always felt somewhat lonely. Most people don't want you to tell them the truth, they want only to hear what they want to hear. Both people and organizations want you to be on their side, if you are affiliated with them, regardless if they should or shouldn't be supported. Some even take extremely stupid stances in order to see who is a yes-man and who, those like me, tell them in simple terms to "blow". I have no difficulty spouting off or taking a walk from bad practices by people, groups, or organizations.
It seems this makes most people think I am a: know-it-all, blowhard, set-in-my ways guy; that I am aloof and insensitive; and that I am judgmental. While those things really can be seen as true, they couldn't be further from the truth. I do have high standards, and I expect others to tow the line, if not mine then at least theirs, period. I do look at many things, and state things simply and sometimes simply forcefully. Often that is merely a request for support or denial, then an explanation of why what I said is supported or not. Not important, just interesting. While not perfectly, it does allow me some understanding of those who have Aspergers, if to a much lesser degree I think. I do feel, much more, I just don't use it as relational tool, mostly. Emotions are mostly... a non-essential tool used to understand one's decisions or thoughts in the aftermath of events which don't necessarily allow for feeling during the events. Or some such. Though I wouldn't be rid of them I don't give them much weight.
Odd, I just thought, so many people use drugs to feel or experience life then end up feeling nothing. Some of us need very little to dull the pains and such. Emotional fish? :p
I have done something with some of the money I received. I ordered a Playstation 3. Yes, yes, I know. But a computer to play the games I want to play, top notch, cost somewhere between $3k and... well, I have seen $15k machines. They last about three to five years, if you upgrade things from time to time. Then they become paperweights. I still need a computer, a new one, but may have a nearly free one on the way. Never mind the details. It would be fine for emails, blogging, and such... until it becomes a paperweight too. I also ordered some games and extra bits as well. Yeah, I know. But I do need something to engage me, keep me awake, and possibly get me going a bit more.
Nothing wrong with a hobby. Enjoy your games.
ReplyDeleteAs for people who want a Yes Man, let them look elsewhere. Most anxiety comes from living an inauthentic life. I'm done with it.
Oh, I will! Thank you ma'am. (Even if you are younger than me, your station as wife and mother affords you the "ma'am".) I haven't played a "modern" game in... five years. This will be good, if I might overdo it a bit initially.
ReplyDeleteMost anxiety comes from living an inauthentic life. I'm done with it. Absolutely. Of course, when I am very tired (and when am I not, mostly), and now that I have shattered those bonds of political correctness and such, I might have a penchant for speaking my mind bordering on Asperger like freedom of information.
I say absolutely what I think, even about illegal immigration around Mexicans (a social faux pas among the social climbers, academics, and of course Mexicans). Or my notions of equality and such around women, or right with them. I know one professor who, after thinking back on it, I think seemed to have never heard a man say such things. She was absolutely shocked (though I think it intrigued her, too, weird.) I don't have a limiter at times.
Hmm, if you read here though, you know that.
It doesn't surprise me that you are another intuitive thinker. The Ilk are mostly intuitive thinkers, and it is one of the reasons I feel so at home there.
ReplyDeleteI am INTP/INTJ depending on when I take the test, but almost always nearly at 50% for the perceiving versus judging metric. If you read the Wikipedia entries for those, it describes me to a tee.
I can see how that description fits you. While we have not met in person, I am of the belief that I do know you, not every thing, not every step, but well. It fits.
ReplyDeleteWhat I also note, is that due to my illness keeping me from what I am, I end up being much more like your categories in the end (though with a much limited capacity to function, so just within that capacity). Especially the INTJ portion of your aspect. Well, that is my take.
I don't know about you but I really wouldn't change things. Well, not too much. Learn and adapt, of course, but not stray off my paths as they are. It seems we both seek a sanity in people that often just doesn't exist? Most people are simply the human animal. I expect them to do what they say and to say what is good (honor, faith, logic, truth, hope, faith, charity, and the others). Most people just "do" and "say" with no connection to the past or future? Something.
"People are supposed to make sense", yes. That line makes me laugh every time I encounter it in an INTJ/P type description.
ReplyDeleteThey manifestly do *not* make sense, which has been a thorn to me for so long. Game has helped me tremendously, because it systematizes so much of that which is illogical/irrational on the face of it, and turns it into something which *does* make sense. O happy day!
See, for me, I 'compensate' for people being illogical, when I am well. Much like, even if they have poor speaking or writing skills, I can usually get to the bottom of what they mean quickly, or complete my understanding with a few brief questions. But when I am ill, or tired, I simply cannot be bothered, at least with people not making sense. When I am too tired, I am like you (or you were). *where's my silver hammer!*
ReplyDeleteBang, bang, Maxwell's silver hammer came down... upon her head! (not literally mind you, even in my mind)
I can see where Game could change that for you. It allows you to tilt the board in your favor through their actions, much like the use of martial arts attempts to use a foe's energy against him. With so many men either becoming metrosexual or overly masculine, many men aren't that difficult to... manage with Game either, actually.
If they are willynilly, it is easy to sway them to willy or nilly as you desire, for good or ill. I like to think of it as a Jedi mind trick, and essentially that is what it is. If they are confrontational, use a red flag to get them where you need them. If they are passive, back them into the corner you choose. For each response there is a method. Save for assertive, but those people, or at those times, are generally more logical and you can go ahead and use reason. If you see they hold to reason mostly, make them an ally (or a good enemy, I like those too). Part of the reason I don't consider women equals is they are... programmed to lose this game, I think in order to find a mate.
Never mind, I am blathering again.