What a wretched horrible wonderful day.

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Huh?

You read me right. I did make it to my appointment. I did not sleep more than a few hours last night. When speaking with my mother yesterday I asked that, if she was awake early this morning, she call me to try and help me wake up. I set all three of my alarm clocks too. It took every ounce of everything I had to be up in time and then I was only 15 minutes early. I had to focus like a hawk and still missed the turnoff, but saw that I missed it this time and circled back. It almost looks like the area around the turnoff to the clinic has changed, as it just isn't recognizable. Either that or it has simply been too long of a time since I went there.

I had one of my best days there at the clinic. Not that my health is looking up. Blood pressure was 140's/80's, give or take. But diabetes might be back on the rise (which means I really need to kick my new/old diet back into high gear). The nurse and the doctor both seemed reasonable. No yelling, no drama, no weirdness. I only holler when I am being yelled at while being ordered to do things I can't do. Oh, even fully dressed, my weight was 284 (so that is coming down). I may have to try to drink water almost exclusively, with only a glass of milk a day (32 ounces though) and one sports drink a day (which is the only thing with which I can choke down the powder potassium, the pill form is impossible every way I have tried it). It was the attitude and friendliness that... took me back. It was like going in to see one's old time family doc, at his office.

After the doctor I went to the DWR Regional Office. I can't get a lifetime fishing license it seems. You have to be blind, in a wheel chair, missing a limb, or otherwise unable to fish to get it! They had a veterans special, $21 a year, the usual is $26. I wouldn't be buying one now in any case. He seemed rather surly about it all, the guy behind the desk. Why do people have to be so snotty about it? I was simply asking.

Next I went to the National Park there in Ogden. They were able to offer me the card that allows me to go into National Parks and some other places free of charge. It was quick and painless. I don't know, but I didn't feel welcome there either. I suppose, with all my arms and legs, people wonder why I should be getting disability? That is the place with the nice restaurant. I stopped in there and had a truly fine meal. There is not a thing they serve that doesn't taste like it was very carefully put together, cooked very well, and well taste tested before being served. Even their tea, unsweetened as that is the way for now on again, was a splendid delight. It cost no more than an Arbeys' meal, either. I had hoped to stop at the hospital in Logan to deal with the collection action by them against me but there was nothing left with which to do that. I was simply done after what I did, and the circumstances.

So, what is the "wretched", the "horrible"? Several times through the day, when I had to stand for a bit, I nearly passed out. Getting up and going was as difficult as one could imagine. My eyes are burning, my body hurts, I am tired beyond reason, but worse... at times I am grumpy. Oh, sure, you read here so you know me! Truth is, I try my darnedest to be kind in real interactions, even gentle. Doctors can get under my skin, same with some other professional types (though I count that as business and business can be rough), but only when they try to tell me what I know to be true is false or some such. Don't blow smoke up my ass because you have a degree. If you were taught something and I am experiencing something different, do not be quarrelsome. You lose any respect I might have had and the immaturity you show will only garner my disdain, regardless of how many degrees or years in college or your profession you have. And I WILL voice it. But to the working men and women of the world? I have only the deepest respect. Save on the road where... I can be a bit... tight, terse, impatient (praying and working on that though). Anyway, I have been somewhat unkind these last few days and that bothers me more than all the rest. Now you really do know more.

I have some visitors coming shortly. And I am going to try to last as long into the day, evening, as I can before sleeping. The drive was gorgeous though. The weather is rather warm, into the 40's I think. Clouds and sun are taking turns at dominance, and as the clouds spill over the mountains and the sun variously back-lighting this group or shining on this part or that of the mountains, the views have been a weather watcher and nature lover's dream.

Have a great day.