Nap.

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I was doing good, got up and going this morning, and was... waking up a bit when I got back home. I realized that I was in trouble then. All of my muscles ache a bit, along with a minor headache. It's nothing serious, but it was calling me back to bed. Whether this is from my heart, or simply because my muscles have been used more in the last week than in the last six months, I simply can't say. It has to be tended though. I knew that going back to bed that early would very possibly shift my day schedule. Just as taking a nap too late will. But not taking a nap, when it is needed, at the right time, can be just as problematic. A delayed or ignored nap can increase insomnia issues or even lead to a nearly systemic failure that stretches days, weeks, and longer.

I decided a trip to town, to get the correct size valve and a couple of elbows and pipe for the half inch pipe side might keep me going just long enough to have a proper rest. I also took some things in to my friend, I forgot the 9 mm cases when I took the rest of his purchases into his apartment. I grabbed a bite to eat on the way home, just... well, food helps all ailments.

Yep, it's time for the nap. I often hope, and sometimes it works, that I can outlast the need for a nap. They are risky procedures for me. At least this one, this time, I have... just about set up for the best chances for an optimal outcome. It is, quite often, all I can do. I can't change the chances, alter my state of being, or anything but do my best to mitigate risks.

Oh, I think I saw someone who may have read my post here. I just got a sense that, perhaps, my notions on heartbreaking were considered... braggadocios. The thing is I have already broken one heart, and recently. A woman, tall, about my age... I think she thought she had a chance. I hadn't seen her in a while, but recently bumped into her. Her words, mostly, were pleasant. But the venom dripping from her lips was not to be confused with anything but... hatred? anger? A woman scorned type of stuff. She must have heard that I am only looking for woman able and willing to bear children, and never before married at that. Oh, unmistakable. Is it wrong to... enjoy that? I suppose from their perspective my entertainment is pure evil. I've tasted that poison many times and it's almost as good as sex, to me. Well, I do stretch it a bit, but it is in the top tiers of my enjoyment. So, yes, I will break hearts. Just... so you know.

Nap time!