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I am finally warm! Almost a bit too warm. Of course, it is midnight. I'll leave the furnace going and pretty warm so when I wake tomorrow I might be able to warm a little quicker, or... something. I'm not sure it will help. In spite of the furnace being turned up to hot all day I am just now, in this last hour, finally warm. I'll do what I can though.
I could have people over to help me, and maybe all the way through the various projects, with a simple call. But I want to do this myself. Not out of pride, not out of hubris, not for this or that. Merely because I think I can. I want it done just a certain way. And I would like to do it at my pace. Oh, I am sure they would do a good job, very possibly (probably) better than what I will do. That... isn't the point. I need to do this. Plus, I hate being a burden.
Good night. If you talk to God, keep me in your thoughts to Him. I do the same. Even when I don't know your toils, troubles, doubts... He does. And I pray for many people, directly and indirectly. Even my enemies, and I try to usually not pray that they see wisdom... or choke. Usually. Sleep well.
Nice to see you back and trying again Doom. I understand fully when you say you want to do stuff yourself, there's a certain sense of pride and accomplishment that comes with it.
ReplyDeleteIt's more than pride though. It's more about having to deal with things. I must find a way. Not always will there be someone else to help.
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