Back to gaming.

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Oh?  You didn't realize.  I had stopped gaming some time ago, months ago.  Basically when I fell the last time I simply didn't have enough going to even play Play Station 3 games.  And, since then, rising or falling as the case may have been, I had too many things on my plate.  In the end, I haven't yet gotten my tasks done.  And, I still simply can't get to those things.  I decided to begin playing some of the games I had beaten, to get what are called trophies in the games.  I am hoping gaming will... bring some passion, or stir something. 

I have completed all the trophies for two games in the last week.  If nothing else, the seeming impossible is less seemingly so these days.  I was surprised how easy some of them were, give or take.  Sure, some of the more difficult ones took many tries.  One trophy took at least an hour, possibly onto two hours, not counting time I had tried to earn it in the past.  Just sticking too it got it done.  I honestly wasn't sure I was going to get that one.  Some games, however, have trophies I won't win.  Heavy Rain, for example, has trophies I find morally reprehensible, so I won't work at them.  Yeah, it's just a game.  But I play like I live.  I really do.  Or, how I would live if I could f*cking walk!  Yeah, yeah, a bit grumbly lately, being down for so long recently. 

Medicines are being taken, I am eating a bit more, but I have only been able to get out of the house a few times in the last month.  Pretty much my trips were utilitarian.  I have seen my friend about once, and made the KoC meeting, but on both of those occasions I also did shopping that was vital.  I am physically weak.  Or, I should say, physically unable to work.  I am still strong.  I just can't seem to use it.  My mind is, for the most part, mush, too.  It is physical, my body isn't healing at all as it should.  A scratch from last month is still on my arm.  It is scabbed over, and not infected, but it simply won't heal.  In my prime times, I heal at twice the speed I have seen others heal.  But when the body isn't up to snuff, I simply don't heal now. 

More time?  Warmer weather?  I'm still pushing to do... anything... Gaming is at least something.  There is a sense of success.  And it doesn't take too much physical energy.  But I keep looking at my bathroom, and the pit.  I want to get to those!  I like working, I truly do.  But I have so much to catch up on just in my home that it will be a while, once I do get a chance, before I can get to real work.  Hmm, something odd.  The other day I woke during my sleep cycle to use the restroom.  Not flushing as long as it takes to actually flush, you have to hold the handle for about 3 seconds or a bit more, and my urine stayed in the bowl.  When I woke next, and went to use the toilet, I noticed that my urine, combined with '2000 Flushes' bowl cleaner, had turned the toilet water... pink?  How absolutely weird.  I really wonder what I am passing?  I have no idea what could make that dark blue turn to pink.  Just... weird.

Bah, I'm still good.  Just a little frustrated.  I did order fats for my food storage.  I am increasing my larder in other ways.  Bit by bit, I really am getting ahead this and that way.  Now if I could just get my feet back under me, get caught up, then out to do some home improvements.  It'll happen, probably.

Good day.