Gah? Bah!

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If it isn't one thing it IS another.  Lately things have simply been piling on.

The headache issue remains, if mostly in the background.  I have weened myself off aspirin, that was some serious dosing.  But the headaches still remain a threat.  Low and slow is the method to the ends.  My sleep has become a mess on top of it.  I don't think it was because of the headaches, or me pushing for days, it seems to be something else, perhaps the weather.  I'm working on it, but for the moment I am in freefall regarding when I sleep and when I am awake.  Disarray.  Oh, and my feet are swelling again.  I am simply trying to urinate more often but... that just isn't enough.  I'll have to figure out medicines.  If I can stay awake, if I am not in too much pain.  Gah!

On top of that my blogger bar disappeared.  I just kept thinking it would come back.  Without it I can't (or didn't think I could) sign in to post, if I can now comment.  Argh!  They are definitely having troubles making the internet killswitch work, or at least having troubles testing it, or something.  After a bit I found a work around.  Not a solution, only, while I was checking for solutions I found a place where I could sign into my account, and realized I could port to my blog from there.  Yes, I figured that out all by myself in all of about three seconds.  Still...  I could still be waiting.  It looks to be becoming a more common problem.  The suggestion is to update the template.  Sure, mine is old.  Like... almost first gen.  But... if it ain't broke...  Or... even if it is.  I think they break the old to try and make us use the new.  I just don't want to have to set everything up.  I'm barely staying out of diapers, if adult version.  I really... They don't do a good job with "new and improved".  That saying could go right in with "Hi.  We are from the government, we are here to help you".  *chucks in the circular file*

Ah well.  I have gotten a few very minor tasks completed.  And my "perfect game" is coming along... relatively as planned.  I have avoided the add-on portions that introduce huge buggy and laggy spikes into the game.  I may try those in the final bit, but... not until then.  One of the adds is good, three are buggy and laggy, one of the adds brings bugs and lag into the whole rest of the game.  Not worth the weapons and "experience". 

The electricity went out twice last night.  The first time was for a few moments.  The last was for several hours.  Sitting here at a dead computer in a pitch dark home, I realized I had taken the flashlight (the one I knew the location of off hand) back to the laundry room the other night.  So, without even a flicker of a glimmer, no moon and heavy drapes to boot, I made my way to the laundry room through this room, the living room, the kitchen, into the back area, past the steps down, and finally to the flashlight.  Actually the most trouble I had was finding the switch on the flashlight when I finally found it!  Hehe  Sometimes I am such a dork, just... a magical one in a way.  Half dead and more, in pain, not sleeping or eating well, but I can still find my way through my... busy... home in the pitch dark without really a thought.  Then I almost can't turn the damn thing on?  Yeah, cosmic humor all right. 

I had several ideas I wanted to write out, but in the blur of not sleeping I have temporarily or not lost them.  I have one, but it is too much work while I am too tired.  I thought with the lights being out and computer and game off I might be able to sink into slumber.  Nope.  When I can't sleep, doesn't matter what else, I simply won't sleep.  I just think just as if I was playing a game, only regarding real life.  Life is huge, you know.  Bigger than any game, bigger than science and much more real, way beyond Hollywood to capture or even mildly portray (if they were ever to give that a real go anyway).  And yet, in one moment, the lives of millions of people can be changed for good or ill, right into finality.  While... some will never understand moments because they are so busy trying to fulfill a very long life.  I have finally decided.  I am not slowly dying... I am slowly living.  Never... mind.

Good day, and unfortunately and again, good night.