Ah, increased medication.

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I kept wondering what has changed.  They doubled metfornin, a pill for diabetes.  As well, one of the more minor medications was actually increased four-fold.  I won't say those things are the reason for my general collapse, but they might be, or part of it.  Now, technically, they didn't increase that one medication four-fold.  As it turns out, I had thought I had been putting in 50mg, in this case.  After a closer examination I realized I had only been using 25mg tabs.  I had probably originally meant to use those up but ended up losing track.  I did go on 50 mg for four days, using up the 25 mg, doubled up.  Then hit the 100mg mark.  It might be enough to throw me off track for a bit.  I just never know.  The diabetes medicine?  Well, they all have exhaustion, it seems, as a side effect.  I am actually doing really well on the levels I am taking, according to them, even before swimming.  I shouldn't complain, but I do.  It's all I can do.

I should be honest about something.  I know very little about how the reaction between men and women really works.  I never have and never really will.  I used to simply call it luck, good or bad depending on the woman, or really the particular moment with a woman, as every relationship has it's ups and downs.  And I was, for lack of a better term, lucky.  I write what I remember, think, feel, but not what I know.  I truly know nothing.  I never targeted blonds, or this or that type.  Either I was interested, and believed she was, and things went from there or nothing happened.  There are some fine memories though.  I don't recall but a few that were a bit bitter.  Even those, and when they were fresh... it was more a pout.  A short spell that lasted until the next woman.  I can't say I didn't enjoy their company, just, not enough to ever marry I suppose.  Even then I was engaged four times.  Can't say I didn't think about it.  Just trying to be honest.

Bed time.  It is early but I am shot.  Up at 5:00 and change, down at 18:40 or so.  At least I am remembering the times now, or at least today.  That is the first time in more than a week that I have been able to remember.  Swimming tomorrow, if I can dig in and get to it.  Good night.