Too hot?

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I am just dragging through the days.  Of course, much of what I want to do is tied up.  I am waiting on this information, or that tool, or an appointment that I am going to have to concentrate to make.  I couldn't find a hinge.  Sure, I could use leather, rubber, or such, but that breaks down quickly and...  No, I'll just buy a tool for that tomorrow while I am out.  Everything is sort of up in the air on many things and projects.  Plus, it just seemed too hot to get to anything today.  Medicine has been going down on time and well, so it isn't that.  Must just be the heat and my inability to deal with it.  Or a mild low.

Tomorrow an appointment.  At least it isn't first thing in the morning.  It is fasting, but as I have mentioned, that isn't a problem.  I will be asking for a slight change in medication.  It might or might not go through.  I am hoping my doctor trusts me enough to try to mess with this.  It is difficult to keep on track, with the medical community.  It requires monthly visits, which is a pain even when the visit is close.  An hour drive, and with my condition, and hitting it just on time... is a trick.  I can focus a few times every three months, but regular appointments are difficult.  Either I don't see them coming or see them but I can't do a thing about it.  Still, it would be worth the risk, on my part.

There is a meeting tomorrow.  The first one I have been invited to attend in some time.  I haven't been receiving emails or phone calls.  I've been too busy to try to figure out the problem, and actually did mention it a time or two.  It may simply be that I am not welcome.  Which is fine.  So be it.  Whether I go tomorrow or not depends on if I have any gumption left after the trip.  That may not be possible.  My friend decided not to go with.  He seemed worried that this would upset me.  Not a bit.  Since he is in a wheel chair, he is more difficult to take along.  And trying to do double duty isn't fun either, an appointment then visiting a bunch of stores.  Still, it would have saved me a lot of money.  He'll just have to cover the cost, then we can go when he wants.  Well, his part of it. 

It is just 23:00 and I am ready for bed.  I even took a nap in the early afternoon.  I dreamed of eating a hamburger, something vague about sex but not sex itself, and that song Bound for Glory from the other day was playing in the background.  It wasn't environmental music, it was more like a music track over the scenes, like a narrator... just in there but not related to the pictures.  I don't remember details this time, just those general notions and the hamburger.  Got one for dinner, too, with an egg on it.  *grins*

Good night.