Down late, up early, again.

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I still don't get that.  I was down at 1:00 or 2:00 again, but woke at 8:30?  Yeah, something like that.  At first I thought it would just be a Doom draining session.  I was deadset about going back to sleep.  I was, and remain, tired.  I simply could not figure my way back to sleep.  Oh, I suppose I could have with some sack work and just crawling back in.  But, then, I like being up in days and will hold onto them as long and well as I am able.  Sure, no physical alarm clock was involved, but some internal ones were.  Ugh.

Today?  Hmm...  I already reset the dishes to soak, and gave the big pots a rough wash.  I am hoping to finish those up, clean the litter pans out, take out the trash, cook another steak, and maybe start a small load or two of wash.  Will I get to any of it?  Dunno, but that is the goal.  Oh, and maybe soak a pot of beans so as to make chili, my way... hot as a furnace with half the places to go to escape it.  Yum!  I might even throw another shower in there somewhere, call to reschedule my haircut, and...  Twiddle my thumbs a lot too.  It will be a busy day, mostly twiddling thumbs though, even so.

No, no a prefect even little life.  But it is the only one in my locker.  The rest of them, or it, simply doesn't exist.  While I don't always know how, I do know that many handle my life for me, even in my solo seeming existence.  I don't know why, or how, I just know it.  If you ever stop and think, you will realize we are all carried.  You may think you are doing the bigger part of that.  All you have to do is change your environment, just a bit, to realize... you are only a small part of your own life.  What is Doom spouting off about?  Don't worry, just don't test me.  I'll not be made a fool of... not on some things.  It is okay to be unhappy about it, from time to time.  It is okay to be frustrated with life in general and confuse things.  It is not okay to stay ungrateful or become bitter.  Trust me.  Just enjoy your little perceptions, but know they aren't the whole of it, by far, even in your own life.  Trust a cripple to know, even if... even I don't fully understand.  In a word?  Magic.

Yes, I do see, and see you.  Oh, yes, you... all...  Remember, I am often invisible myself.  Oh, and thank you.  Good day.