Baby steps.

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A shower and a shave.  Trash gotten out.  Dishes put to a fresh soak.  A few other very small things.  Just enough to show intent, I suppose.  Insulin didn't arrive, so I get to wait for it tomorrow.  I was hoping to try to steal my way into town tomorrow.  Depending on when, and if, the package arrives, I may yet.  A shower, again, first thing will make that more possible.

With the cat litter and trash out, I have been airing the cave out.  I really have to get the trash bin to the curb this coming Sunday.  I might be able to put one more sack in, without shoving, but...  Yeah.  Recycling shouldn't be a problem.  But it would be nice to get everything to zero again.

While waiting for the package tomorrow, I hope to finish the dishes and the laundry, and... put the tools up from the bathroom job.  No, I never did get those put up.  Bleh.  Small things, little plans, all good.  At this point, it's as much as I can do and hope.  I could blame gaming, but that just isn't the case.  I have been like this several times, off and on, most of the summer.  It's not medicine.  I've been pretty good with that unless I hit bottom otherwise.  It still amazes me that I can go cold turkey on that stuff, and usually just pick it right back up three days, even a week later.  I know I can't pick it up a month and a half after quitting, not easily.  I do know I can go about a week and an half.  Not sure where the cutoff is but I'd rather not figure that out.

Yes, medicine is ongoing.  Rather well, considering.  A few nights missed, a day here and there.  Given my condition, I'm actually impressed.  The insulin has gotten old.  There was some phone tag problems.  They couldn't catch me and I... couldn't respond.  Eventually it worked, if the package arrives.  I'll start a new vial at the beginning of the month, at a cut dose.  No choice.

Well... that's it in a nutshell.  I ought to do a post on Dark Souls, the game I am currently playing.  I initially had mixed reviews, mostly favorable.  I have a more positive take after starting, and running, another character through.  As far as games go, it's not as difficult as some might suggest.  It's not easy.  But there are usually many ways to do some things, but within a rigid base of mostly fail.  You won't get through the game by accident.  I'll think about posting just on it.

Oh, in a recent conversation, someone suggested that I make things complicated.  This is not true, not at all.  I only notice how complicated the world is.  If you wish to understand, I have a little... example.  It will take a bit of work, but if you really wish to understand you may.  Learn to solve one of the simpler calculus problems.  It will... take a bit.  But...  Now, understand, that math problem, and the most complex of it's nature, can solve less than a percent of the types of problems it was created to solve.  Life is very complex.  We can choose to see it as simple, but it's not.  Even the words in the bible have... many meanings.  Read a verse, a particular one with great meaning but about which you are unfamiliar for the most part, every Sunday for the next month.  After reading it, write down your understanding.  Then, each Sunday, do the same, but without referring to your notes.  Then, at the end, review your notes.  Even with an exact translation, which we don't have, can't have to a degree because of language differences, phraseology that is lost to us, social contexts that no longer exist, and such... we still wouldn't completely be sure of the meaning.  For example, Christ did indicate one man, one woman, as to marriage... but in a time when a man often, perhaps usually, had several wives, but without saying anything negative about having multiple wives.  A trick or a truth?  Complex.

It is bedtime.  Good night, sleep well.  I will.