Pretty rough.

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I beat myself up a little, but that isn't the big thing.  Hit and miss on medicine is part of it, but just a smaller part.  It has simply been a rough summer and it seems to be continuing.  I'll keep pushing, where and when I can.  But, today, I have three things weighing me down.  Spirits are good, and I have a task, perhaps this afternoon and will do it.  Then some down time.  Considered, not accidental.  I have to back off and stop pushing for a few days.  I need to make sure I am getting enough sleep.  At least I have been eating well enough.  That will help.

I am hoping, when the leaves begin to change in earnest, to get out and look.  Nothing fancy.  No hikes, no overnights out, just a drive, maybe two, through the areas nearby.  Why?  I can't say.  It is different.  It is seasonal.  It is something to do.  It is as difficult to pay attention to such things as it is to eat, though I am sure there is a reason to do so.  And, so, I give it effort, and plan for it, when I can.  Thin, life is, but not gone.

Hmm... a shower, I believe.  Then maybe a small bowl of beans and ham.  You can overeat that.  I haven't been, by volume.  Though perhaps something a little different, soon, would be nice.  Rice and fish if nothing else, or a tuna cheese mac.  Nothing says good like simple, when food can taste like sawdust.  Thankfully, I can taste most recently.  Ham isn't my favorite, on it's own.  Beans are rather bland.  Mix the two and there is some reasonable flavor, with a little extra salt.

Yes, a shower.  Later.