Do you ever realize the fix is in?

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It doesn't matter which area, sometimes everything boils down to something(s), wanted or not.  In this case decidedly not.  A couple of particular saints keep populating areas of spiritual concern which...  I don't wish to entertain yet know I must.  Annoying in more ways than I can help you understand.  Trapped by my own incessant digging, accelerating greatly of late.

I'll not dispense with their names, merely suggesting they are mystics.  Already questioned in some ways, that is a bit frustrating. Of course, there are simple explanations, as well as the obviously not so simple basis.  Who would ever want to walk the way of mysticism?  It is the way of ridicule, which offers humility.  See, one of the mundane reasons, if tracked back from that other dark edge.  Mystics simply... have dubious reputations, even after bonafied.

Ah, but... in dealing with an order mistake, a few more inexpensive books.  Each covering three concepts my study has called for more understanding.  Not what I always might want, more areas of need, some might suggest desperate need... humility as a prime example.  Now, I do not abide total self debasement.  Fuller understanding before God?  Absolutely.  But suggesting I am nothing before Him is telling Him He does lousy work, for one of many problems.  I... don't always think all teachers get it right.  Pay attention but don't blindly jump off a cliff just because some says God wants you to jump.  He doesn't.  I think some miss the point of some alternate, indirect, forms of instruction and are then never directly corrected.  Psychology and philosophy seem to make up far too much of some education, and not the better forms of such.


Humility?  Yeah, but sometimes it just has to be said.  And who but the mostly dead, with so little to lose, will say it?  Uhm-hmm.

I best get going.  Later.