A very long day.

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I couldn't sleep.  I had an appointment this morning.  So, by the time I arrived, I had been awake sixteen to eighteen hours.  First a blood draw, then primary.

Traffic was brutal.  I missed my off-ramp on top of it.  Road rage, but not at people, at the condition.  I still made it an hour early, showered and shaved.  My doc wasn't happy with my research.  She said they use the best.  I merely asked if she honestly thought her sources were better than the Mayo clinic.  Oops.  Awkward moment.

She may believe.  I hope she does.  False beliefs can be cured.  Indifference, or especially malicious intent, not so much.  I didn't do more than state my case and not back down.  She wanted to be right but couldn't simply make it so.  Period.  I really don't argue, debate, negotiate.  Not when there is no need or right purpose.

I was sure, from the long day and brutal road, my blood pressure was going to be sky-high.  The first one was in the low 140s/80s to 90s?  I was tickled blue.  But, no, that wasn't good enough.  Oh, I was terrified it would be higher.  With all the givens, I... had doubts.  Still... it's their gridiron.  Wonderful, as it turned out, say 121/very low 80s!  Pulse showed my effort, 110 at first, no second reading.

So, I have the heart and bp better by lots.  The heart has thickened and deformed from the pounding, but it is pumping out blood fast enough.  Mostly.  Now for diabetes and weight loss.  The A1C was at 12, not good at all.  Here is were we crossed words over medicine.  Further, I simply refused anything other than the fastest acting stuff they had, or I would save up for it.

We... negotiated.  Oh, I understand.  I assured her.  And described some things that clarified my understanding, including methods for and reasons to hack insulin pumps. Anyway.  I agreed to whatever hoops and instructions she would demand, and to my honest best, so long as my preferred product was offered.  The deal was struck, scripts and instructions were written up.  I will read them each day for the next few, and keep them around.  Pretty easy, mostly, but I am so tired.

I was half way to the interstate before I realized I forgot my scripts.  I thought about just keeping going.  But, no.  I had asked for people to sign off on it, over their own objections, and I know it will work.  So back I went.  As I entered the campus, one of the coppers was right on me.  Maybe just going the same way.

I got in, saw the pharmacy rep, then went to the pharmacy to wait.  A fed cop showed up, stood at the end of my solitary aisle.  Hmm.  While I was waiting, I remembered the missed eye appointment, so rescheduled that.  Then sat back down.  An half hour goes by and the cop just kept standing there.  I asked him what he was doing.  He said he was just hanging out.  Another half hour, so I ask if he is waiting for someone to leave.  Again, he says he is just hanging out.  They don't... just hang out.  Fifteen minutes later and he leaves... to be replaced by a plain clothes, sitting at the end of my otherwise empty aisle.  I wonder if that is standard procedure from now on.  I'll talk to some people there and elsewhere if it continues.  It'll end quickly.  Promise.

Oh, and glorious sun.  Here, all the way down, and back.  I had my, mostly, last junk meal.  But that gorgious golden sun!  I could barely handle being in it, but soaked in what I could.  So very tired.  Ducks fed first thing.  The girls were fed early.  Will be fed before I sleep, then litter cleaning.  Other than traffic and the cops bearing down for whatever reason, it was a great day.

Before I crash, I need to figure something out.  Someone seems to have blown me off.  I just want to check.  Later.  Actually good night.  Bedtime might be a bit off, but I can't post again.