Not sure.

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At some point after that last post... an half hour to two after... I went back to bed.  I woke... a while ago.  Well, began waking.  I am still waking.  Forgot to brush my teeth upon waking.  Yes, I want to keep them up, if possible.  I remembered to do them before bed.  There is time, after this post.  I haven't brushed fewer than three times a day since two months before going for the appointment.  I may have missed a few nights, but had brushed three other times.

A brief look outside, while watering the ducks again, and espying the weather.  The temp had risen to 48 and clouds were breaking up.  I got to see a bit of sun.  I would have stayed out a bit, I just couldn't quite handle the moist windy cool, and didn't have the energy to shower and dress more warmly.  Still, it brought a smile to my inside face...  too tired to externally express it.

Back to the game.  It forces me, if painfully, to focus.  A shower and dishes later.  More. Just that bit of sun might have... opened a door... a small one.  For while I am small?