Dead to the world.

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It could be worse.  I was able to eat lightly yesterday.  I did a load of laundry.  And the futon type mattress which arrived yesterday was installed.  It is, by the way, vastly superior to what I had been using, blankets and a quilt folded into a topsheet.  As well, the cats and ducks were tended.

It has been warm enough to refill the kiddie pool without it freezing.  Into the 50's.  Between yesterday and today I was able to get that arranged for some well pleased ducks.  So well pleased they really didn't want to go back in, even after an extended stay outside.  I am hoping they get a few more pool days yet.

Other than those things I could either not remember or not physically act.  Dead to the world one way or another.  But!  No pain lately.  Or... nothing remembered.  Fog of mind and lack of short term memory are sometimes far superior to any medicinal pain killer.  Although, it feeds the harrowing nature of the best within.  The mind may be freed of physical horrors, but the body suffers and keeps score.  It becomes... meaner, even feral.

Blood sugar is 130 fasting.  I am cutting consumption and fast acting insulin.  At this level, with just a fatted tea, I will try 8 cc's.  Depending on what my read is, in three to four hours, I'll decide then.  I have seriously been cutting food.  I'll bet I am under 2k calories.  At my size, that is pinched.  But doable on real keto.  The trick is staying on keto and in ketosis.

I'll try to hit the list today.  I forgot to warm the place yesterday.  At best that didn't help.  I'll heat it higher, to push for a shower.  Then get the bathroom clean, start dishes, and the run whites.  Hmm, I might wash the blankets and bedspread first, actually.  I'm not sure what to eat.  I'd also like to get a few lamps upstairs.  A floor and end table lamp... which will require and end table.  I need a woman!  They love tinkering in a home, and will even sometimes do what is asked!  ;p  I'll think on that.  All of that.  Later.