Deep summer.

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I had hoped I'd be pushing through.  I am feeling great.  I am doing well.  Blood sugar was 157 fasting, and I bet bp is in the normal range.  I am sleeping well, if my "day" has been extended due to daylight.  I have no control over that.  It will shrink in winter, if more toward the end of winter, mostly, these days.  I think, no matter how I feel, the deeper it goes into the harder part of the harshest seasons, the more limited I become.

Spring and fall, if they are chaotic, can cause more problems for me, without a steady weather pattern, I can't sort things out.  Deep summer and winter, if they are steady, are easier, but the limits begin to hit at some point.  It has been in the mid to high 80°s all week?  Really for longer.  It gets to eighty every day in here.  And I am quite used to it.  I am no longer uncomfortable.  Very strange.  Sugar water poisoning my artificial sweetener, I am positive.  Until this summer.

I am eating less, but I think that is the way forward.  On any day I work, I would like to have good keto food as a reward.  Extra.  Not a lot.  Instead of two brots for the day, for example, three.  Or two and some no-sugar-added fruit, or a can of veggies.  Just... a little extra.  A small incentive.  If you can learn to ignore your own begging, the... world changes.  You have to be awake, and well, enough to do that though.  It has started.

The ducks are out and fed.  Sam got a run.  She likes to explore while I am out.  I should go out and sit, so she can play a while.  I realize she is afraid to be out alone.  She is... aging.  Her hearing, and other senses, are limited.  She is afraid to be out there alone.  But with me around, she... can play as a child... kitten... again.  Oh, I understand.  There have been days... perhaps years... when I... feared.  Still do, a bit, if I haven't been in a crowd for a while, if that is slightly different.  I have gotten beyond much of those fears, mostly, usually.  But I know them.

Hmm... actually, I don't have food ready!  I'll have to look around.  I have hotdogs for tomorrow.  It's not super, but with chili it works.  I might even have some cheese and fresh onion to chop for on top.  I won't use buns, being back in keto, for myself.  I will just do a naked hotdog, with else.  Chili?  In very mild moderation.  Everything else is keto... enough.  Blacken them, for me.  Tasty.  But what today?  I'll look.

No idea when I went to bed.  I think it was after four, not by much, but I can't be sure.  I am certain I checked the time before I went up to bed, and checked the time right after snuggling in.  It just didn't stick.  A bit after five, actually?  I think so, just... probably.  Still, it's a good life.  I may have a thousand things I am supposed to be doing, and things I have to do, while being unable to do much.  But... life is good.  It's like pleasantly napping while the plane I am in goes down in flames.  I... can't be bothered.  I am not aware, can't make myself aware.  Oh well.  Later.

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Oh, rubik's cube?  I can do it in just under four minutes now.  I may have done a few a bit faster, but no more than a minute faster.  Remember, miles are run in under four minutes, so... it's... not impressive.  It is a start.  I am, mostly, remembering which steps to use next.  Mostly.  I don't know if I will improve much?  Not without study, and practice.  Is there a faster way?  A better method?  Or is there really only one way, or very few ways?  Optimization might mainly come through knowing what exact next step works best, through pattern recognition.  Shortcuts aren't, exactly, possible.  However, sometimes the shortcut is randomly generated by sheer incident of solution.  Though, as I said, don't believe anything you see on youtube.