A difficult day.

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I keep waiting, even pushing for, but failing to find, opportunity.  Coffee... woke me.  A bit.  Blood sugar is doing weird things.  From 171, without food for probably pushing eighteen hours, then with a small dose of insulin and good, it dropped to 77.  I was feeling a crash, so I'm having something to eat, again.  I have eating, if small bites, twice since that high.  Three times now.  Still feeling a crash, may take something extra.

I have checked.  Other than glucose tabs, peppermint hard candies offer the same amount of carbs... five per round.  I am not sure if there is a reason to go with glucose tabs, but I must say, peppermint tabs are a hella lot cheaper.  I may do a quick study.  Though, too, what you find with the MIC (medical) is that they try to get you to buy expensive, and their "studies" are more wrong than right, down to a 5% "good" for their world class studies.  The rest being at best not reproduceable, at worst (the majority) outright fraudulent/wrong, and seemingly obviously and intended, even if they pass peer reviews.  Not... good.

Still, I'll look around, see what is suggested.  Is there a difference between various carbs offered?  Let me go dig...  Okay...  Nothing.  No indication of anything.  One is a heck of a lot more expensive is all.  Yeah... just... yeah.  No.  I had through they were better.  I don't think so.  

Anyway... It was 64, outside, last I checked... two hours ago?  Yep.  And it is 74 now.  Still rather cool for 11:34 in the morning, but I'll take it.  Closed up the last access, while getting a few of those peppermint rounds.  I love hard candy, though if I am using it, it means I didn't do something right.  Either those or $7~$9 per 50 "medical" candies.  Yea, no.  These are $15 per ~500, same carb count, same carbs.  Bleh.

Anyway.  Having trouble doing anything.  Coffee, food, tending blood sugar...  None of it is working.  I'm not crashing, now that I've dosed with carbs.  But I'm not getting going, either.  So frustrating.  Yes, I did get chores done, and cats fed... plus their litter managed.  I moved more laundry to the back room, and plan to get some upstairs... hopefully to be folded, sorted, hung... whichever works best for the piece.

Thing is, I'd like to... do more.  Open the area up.  I'm just too shot for sustained standing, let alone more.  Even light work is just not happening.  So much for digging, or picking then digging, raking, or loading branches.  Very, very, frustrating.  Anyway... I'll keep pushing.  Even if I don't get there, I will keep trying.  Good morning, day, and if I crash... night.

Prayers be with you.  If I fail, the intent is true.  And God is my witness.  He knows.  Amen.