I surrendered.

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After working my hair all night, in fits and starts, there was one knot which would not yield.  So, finally, after many goes at it, I cut it.  As careful to not take more than necessary, and to cut as cleanly as possible, so it went.  I looked at the knot, after removal.  I worked with it.  Perhaps conditioner would have helped, but I think not.  It was a number of knots, in truth.  I finished, finally, last night.

Too tired, to shower, I crashed very hard.  Only awake to try to finish the hair, and up late for it, I was done.  No longer could I stay awake.  But, the task was done.  I wore a cap, to bed, last night, so as to attempt to not create more problems.  And, this morning, the hair was still in good repair.  So, first thing, with the way open, into the shower I went.

So good to feel clean.  Brushed my teeth after.  Haven't done either in... a while.  Couldn't get through dishes, or otherwise at it.  Cleaned the sink while in there.  I am keeping the toilet relatively clean.  But the floor needs cleared, swept, and mopped.  I had set up laundry, to be run after, and hoped to get dishes back in.  But my legs won't carry me to that much, quite yet.  I did get the laundry started.  In time, yet today it is hoped, dishes.  I cleared the freezer top last night.  It just needs wiped down.  Then everything will fall into place.

Not... a fantastic start.  But I still feel like hell, tired as it too.  My innards feel bruised, I am weary beyond tired, it is still dark, but it seems to be warming just a bit.  Into the 50s and maybe 60s.  But still so dark.  Or... from what I am seeing.  And, sleep is way off.  Going to bed anytime between 05:00 and noon, waking sometimes between 13:30 and 15:30.  I try to sleep longer, push it over, but that really isn't budging.  It is what it is until... I get better.  Then the cards will fall where they do, and I'll... have to work on them from there.  

Medicine is hammering me.  But, doing better than usual, for this stage of events.  I'm awake, aware, if mostly just floating with the cerebral flotsam and jetsam.  Awareness isn't always seen as better, if I think it is... if your goal is life and action in it.  While terrible, so see you are as trash, better to know and be able to do something, even if simply futilely planning.  Hopefully, when I am able to test, it will be doing something, with bp.

Well... on with my day.  Good day.