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The foot is broken.  Swollen, harshly, this morning.  Hurt all through the night. rolling was a serious chore.  I don't think I truly got to sleep.  Took an hour and an half to get down here, after waking.  I took a shower, hoping that will, in time, help.  I think it did help.  Just not sure the help will last at all.  Now the other foot is hurting, from having to walk weird and carry the weight.

It hurts enough I am getting nauseous.  I just took the most potent of my painkillers, and several of them.  The biggest knuckle on the toe, the one behind it, to a degree the smaller outer knuckle, and things inside on that line.  Very swollen, skin is very tight.

Not staying up much longer.  Planning to go back to bed, but wrap the foot as I do so.  When I wake next, pull the wrap, perhaps rewrap it, then put on compression socks, and maybe an outer sock as well.  And, of course, shoes.  Everything I did yesterday, though adding the wrappings.  It did fairly well, made mild mobility possible.  As is, I can't really walk.  More a forward stumble, as if I had a peg leg.  If even then, the pain is brutal.

I had plans for this afternoon.  Not sure I can make it.  Want to rest a bit, after the shower, painpills, wrap, and more sleep.  Oh my word, I haven't hurt this bad in a decade?  Probably more, from pure physical pain.

On back to bed.  Well, maybe some water, and browsing a bit, as I recover from all the activity so far this morning.  The pain is taking my breath away.  I... really got it good.  Hopefully this isn't a week or more thing.  Ah, ribs.  That was the last thing that got me this bad.  Perhaps worse, because each breath was excruciating.  And, I wouldn't take the pain pills.  Well, not what they offered, the potent, narcotic, stuff.  Felt too mushy, on it.

Later.

Oh?  Damn.  Yeah, I can't walk on it.  Sob.  Too bad I don't have medical.  Thanks, again, Biden and V.A.  Assholes!  I'll just have to walk it off.

Ah, but I went hunting, for more.  Okay, maybe.  I'll have to pay for what I buy, but... it's something.  A boot, for sure, though a knee scooter, level up, and shower seat would be extremely helpful.  I have been thinking about that latter for a time, just because I can get exhausted in there.

The items which fit, and just those listed, come out to about ~$257, though, of course, taxes.  I would like to look around town, but I... walking just isn't possible without assistance.  It'll take longer to get here, but will probably cost less and be delivered to my door.  Unfortunately, it'll take a few weeks to get here, maybe a month.  I... think I'll just order today.  I... need help.

Oh, some of the suggestions are good.  Backing up the steps, on my butt?  Yes!  That, that will save me falls.  I was lucky to have made it down.  And, for most people, not bending over.  But, sleeping on the floor makes it so that my back is nearly bullet proof.  Stooping isn't an issue.

Oh, what?  I think I forgot to add a knee scooter.  That makes it nearly ~$389, not including tax.  No real choice.  I have to check several accounts.  Not sure I can get it all.  If I skip something, it will be the knee cart.  As for a walker, one that is suitable for my height?  That would be about ~$248 by itself.  There are cheaper ones, but they aren't good for even six footers.  Next month, assuming I can afford these things this month.  Damn, just the start of the month.

I can't afford the knee scooter or walker, maybe next month.  The rest has been ordered.  Supposed to be arriving between the 10th and 13th, if... that... often isn't very accurate.

Oh, and I need to make sure to have my phone and wallet on me.  Getting up to answer it will mean I will never make it, assuming on top that I don't pass out on the way.  Getting up the steps, on my butt, works... better.  But, it takes a lot more energy getting up the steps.  And, the top is still a bit tricky, but a lot better than trying to walk up.

Sweating, nausea, from very minor things.  I did wrap my foot, added a compression and regular sock, and got it into a shoe when I got down.  Will eventually tie it up.  See if that helps.  So want to vomit, every time I try to walk on it for even a half dozen steps.  And that is with a solid double dose of pain pills.  This isn't going to be a cushy things, for a while.  But... it's... what I am used to, and alone.  

While I don't enjoy pain, at least I have something serious to offer those in purgatory.  That and prayers.  As well, it gives me something to work through.  Pain may not be a joy, but likely, accepted as part of one's cross, it is a grace.  I'll... take it.  As if I had a choice?  :p  Good morning and day.