Goals, sometimes versus realities.

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As with tonight... today?  The goal was to be awake until 18:00.  I think it was more like 19:00 or nearing 20:00? when I got to bed.  It just took a bit.  I did get the shower taken.  And a few odd last things.  Then had to drift down and to sleep.  But, that's not... bad.

The second goal was to sleep until between two and four.  I started waking at midnight.  Usually I can stretch two hours, with some effort.  Not tonight.  I kept waking, and waking, and waking.  I'll bet I woke five times before I simply couldn't go back to sleep.  I only made it to 1:05.

Still, neither was a total, horrible, miss.  And, while I didn't get everything done, yesterday, more toward the end, than I had hoped?  I... did okay.  I just ran out of steam.  I did get a nice small batch of efforts done.  And set things up for a good start this morning.

First thing?  Weighin.  I'll probably start doing this once a week.  Or... if it is worth it.  Since I'm not trying, I'm just watching.  If it keeps dropping, it is worth watching.  If not, I'll... back off.  Today?  I dropped from 265.8 to 262.8.  I think that has been this week.  Three pounds?  How?  I am not working that much, nor eating that little.  I am, mostly, watching what I eat, or trying.  But haven't I always, and for a long time?  I... have some suspicions.  Still, quite nice.

Then a shower.  Two in a row is wonderful.  I'd love to do that every, or every other day, from now on.  We'll see.  Then to testing blood sugar.  It wasn't as low as I was hoping, if I... don't know what I was hoping.  At 247 fasting, that is the lowest fasting number I have seen since starting.  The vinegar seems to be... doing something?  And with the kefir?  Maybe.  And the weekly average is dropping, from 304 yesterday morning to 267 this morning.  From testing for the last five days.

Having a glass of vinegar electrolyte tonic this morning, as I write.  Finished kefir before that.  Thinking about what to eat in a bit.  Probably just eggs and sausage, maye a few slices of bacon.  And coffee with cream, no sweetener.  Oh, and half the vinegar tonic of late, after the meal.  If I am hungry after that, another kefir.

I changed the jars, to fresh jars, on the kefir yesterday.  That always slows the process of kefir making, but makes sure the kefir stays in better shape, and doesn't get impossibly sharp.  I keep checking it.  I... love the smell of fermenting kefir in the morning.  :)

Everything seems to be coming into play.  I can't quite swim, need to wash the swimwear and towels I take, and get everything reset for that.  That has been in the pipeline, but so has a clogged drain, and the wrong parts, and... things.  That still isn't completely up to specs.  So I am a bit nervous about doing a load.  Still, the container is down there, to catch any spillage.  I may do it, just to see.  And the swim items would be good, as if I choose to do no more laundry, at least that will already be done.

I simply can't believe the changes.  Weight loss, blood sugar numbers (even at the 350ish start, that is lower than usual... by three hundred points... yes, blood sugar has been running in the six hundreds without insulin for... years), the ability to do some work, and continuing, even in this wet, cold, dark, miserable winter/spring thing?  Right.  I... dont' care.  All I know is when I get an opportunity to run, I'll run.  I don't care where to, how, or the price or penalty.  I'll... I'll go until I die, if I can.  In a sense that I haven't had before me in some time.

Oh, I did partly fill the tub with clorinated water.  Then filled the shop vac with it, dumping the rest.  I'll let it sit, then probably do another load before long.  After that, I may open it up and just use dish soap to clean any remnants.  Bleach kills, but it doesn't really clean.  I'm letting it sit, until I dress.  Then I'll take it out, dumpe it, and reset it.  Nice.  Then?  Set up dishes.  After that, get eggs and sausage going.

Yes, I am doing intermittent fasting.  Due to my lack of concentration, I am eating first thing in the day.  Trying to keep my eating window to six hours.  I start at about two, so have until eight.  Though, here at the start, if I get hungry in the next two hours I may well have another meal.  Six hours of an eating window is better, but eight hours will do just about as well, and can be understood at the beginning.  Didn't need two meals yesterday, but... you never know.

I should get up and dressed.  To get the shop vac emptied and refilled, then dishes started.  I have things to do, and I will... try.  As well, I am trying to figure out better places for things.  The hallway isn't the best place.  The table is a terrible place for things.  But I have dishes backed up, and in the way, laundry backing up.  So many things to do.  But... I'm on it.