Gaming, and hurting.

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Lungs are messed up.  Better, but still... troubling.  The odd thing is, I don't dare use more waterpills.  The problem is the heart, not fluid buildup.  Headache, body aches, sore in the oddest of ways.  Fine.  I'll... make it through, or not.  Haven't been spitting up bloody mucus, on the good side.  It's just backup, from the heart, nothing... too terrible.

A post I meant to put out yesterday morning seems to have gotten lost, so I put it back out.  Yes, a woman seems to be tinkering, or the AI.  I have been enjoying, in any case.  I really like women, or... the idea of them?  The memory of them?  I can just enjoy what was, as I remember it.  No fuss, these days.  I liked fuss, when I could manage it.

Someone sent a vid, suggesting I am delusional.  Fine!  This one should know better.  I have spoken directly to their thoughts, if here.  They know I see.  Is it... jealousy?  Or, a refusal to believe there are... different types of folk, folk who can see?  When people were tricked, by the notion of Santa, or the Easter Bunny, or some even believe Christ isn't real... I think because He doesn't just give them whatever they want?  Or didn't protect them from some of the horrors in this world?  Whatever.  But the thing is, if they feel stilted by humanity, or this or that?  They refuse to believe... anything.  Which is odd, because usually these types believe everything ELSE, save what is true.

Oh, I don't hate them, or take it personally.  I am just writing notes.

Working on the game, or the other way around?  Dark Souls III is brutal.  It starts brutal, then... gets much harder, very quickly.  Still... I've made it through a few zones.  I have no idea how many zones there are, but it's... not usually a small game.  Though dying perpetually makes a short game seem much longer as well.  It's... the schtick.

Pork chops through the night.  It got down to 45 out there.  I closed up the downstairs.  Just too cool.  Turned off the fans.  Yea.  Still, it was a good night.  I finally pulled out my work type jacket.  That's helping.  That and some hot coffee.

And, this morning, more cheese and salami.  I do love that stuff.  I usually don't eat this much in a month.  I ordered more because the salami was... larger than I had thought, so needed more cheese to go with it.  Ugh... love that stuff.

I tried to go without painkillers tonight, but... no... I finally gave in and took a fistfull... well, several anyway.  Double my typical dose.  What I do when things have been painfull for days, and it just... I... need a break.  It may or may not work.  I may end up taking aspirin, next time, again a double dose.  In case it's... something more neural.  The headache is strange, though may just be from gaming too long, to intently.

On to a bit more gaming.