My ears are ringing!

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I finally wrote my friend back.  He is getting to an age where... the wonderment of our being begins to... lead to weighty questions.  I could go down each rabbit hole.  But I believe it better to let him know that... the questions are good... in that this is the time of life when... they should arise.

Women... hit walls.  They question their beauty, whether anyone does, or will, love them.  And panic about babies... as time ticks out.  Even if they have had some, having more?  ...  Men?  We wonder if our reality means anything, if we are a part and party to the world.  Both are... the beginning of the stages of death.  To be honest.  A form of facing that, if we... try to find different ways around asking certain questions.

Facing death, directly, is... too difficult, at a certain age.  So, we... go around the edges and sort as we go.  It's not a bad thing.  It is just a part of life.  But, if you aren't where you want to be, or who you should be, there... may still be time.  Even for me, there may be another way.  I am seeking, probably more so than others... even younger men.

Anyway.  That... email will cause some numbness until it settles.  It was numbing to simply write!  Had to figure out how to use various software, enlarge the print so that I could read his email again, and right a better response.  Wouch.  But... yes.  Now, I am a bit of a hardass.  But, I... try to... just say it as it is, too.  I don't dig for mud and meanness.  But I don't hide it, or from it.

Was Nixon a nice guy?  Maybe, but he wasn't a great politician.  Was he taken out wrongly?  To a degree, espcially considering the filth who took him out.  He was just another middling left bureaucratic politician.  He simply got taken out for tripping up.  Most don't, most should.  There wouldn't be a politician left in D.C. if they were all taken out for doing far worse than what Nixon did.  But... he... wasn't a worthy man, just another.  ...  As an example.

Blood sugar is 150?  Stupid.  Haven't had anything to eat.  I mixed alullose and swerve, half of what I used for either, in a coffee.  Though did have some other stuff to drink which might be a problem?  I am going bake a chuck roast, and try coffee with just alullose.  Ugh.  See if that works.  This isn't making sense.

Hmm... well... on to getting the roast going.  The coffee too.  That should be in and down, and timed, before the roast is out.  So I can see if it lowers blood sugar solo.  I do wonder if swerve raises blood sugar.  Bleh.  Later.