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Something didn't sit well, with a recent hospital visit. The nurse was... acting odd. Have you ever felt... judged? Given the ol' stink-eye? I didn't think too much about it. Who knows what it was about. But, yes, it was there. I just... couldn't place what it was about.
They put in a intravenous connector. They always do in ER. This time, though, they used it. First to add fluids, electrolytes, and such. They didn't tell me why, but in speaking with others, they do that if bp is low? Okay. Which is fine. Then, later, I was told they wanted to give me a liquid form of the antibiotic they were going to put me on.
Blindly, I allowed that, both of those. Never again, I'll say that. I will check over everything, and anything, they put in. Just... back to that stink-eye, and else, with medical these days. You really can't trust them. Is Pfizer, or the government, or both, still paying them to anti-vaxx people? How much, is really what I should ask.
I vomited, almost immediately, upon getting the stuff in. But did not get ill from taking the capsules? And, there was some sort of odd "air" from the stuff, changed my breath. I was so worn, from the infection, and long day at the ER, that I just didn't think... or begin suspecting.
After getting home, resting, and getting life headed back into a better direction, it started to become suspicious. And, really, is still suspicious.
I called my kidney clinic. I was told they know of no test about whether I was given a "jab". Which seemed suspect as well. But, okay. I explained the problem, doubts. She gave me a number to an advocate at the hospital. She also checked their records, apparently she has access. To add worry to concern, the hospital wrote that it had given me a pill form of the antibiotic. But they hadn't. It was a liquid form, of something, and given intravenously. So, right there, something is off. I am still going to try to get to the bottom of that.
I called the hospital, left a message with the advocate, rather blatantly saying something is wrong with the records, and information given, which aren't matching with what happened. Leaving call back information. On that I have to wait.
Then I called another clinic, asking if they could test. All they can test is whether I have antibodies. They couldn't tell if that is from being ill, or from getting the not-vax. When I described how I received it, however, she suggested that probably isn't how they would give it. Though I still have concerns, given that they are lying about even receiving the second intravenous application. Which I know I received. If they could jab just one more person, for more money? Yes, I do have some concerns.
Though, beside that, I asked about a toxin screening. Though that is only interesting if they have a method for treating that. If it's just for information, I'm not interested. That is being investigated.
That, and I called my insurer. My old insurance group is not interested in covering the house, no matter what. But there are others who may. Though, too, I will be moving auto, as usually there is a minor dip when both are done with the same company. Just waiting for information on that too. So be it.
Now to see about the roof. I really am still choking on health. Just the infection, and antibiotics, are sort of getting to me. I... can't... stand, mostly.
Two coffees and the steak today. Good, enough. Too much? No, but... having trouble getting and keeping it down, and going. It just wants to sit. Body is too tired to dig too deeply. It just doesn't want the food or coffee. Blood sugar dropped just a bit, to 149, down forty nine points since testing earlier? Okay, that's... a good, if strange, dip. And for no good reason? Odd. I thought the second coffee was going to keep it up, or even raise it. Very strange.
Well, a good little bit of checking and being informed anyway. Still... not... fully trusting medical. And, yes... they will dose blindly, against the patient's wishes. For greed, or some sort of zealotry, at this point. This is past medical, this is cult. If I didn't get dosed, I think it was seriously being considered. Part of why I made sure to be awake, and aware, each and every time they entered. I can smell sneakiness. It's how you smell enemies.
Later.
From what I ate yesterday and drank two days ago, nothing "expelled" but I wished I could. Hot cold wet dry, shivering & retching (popped the sternum loose again)... (oooww).
ReplyDeleteScale says 268#, a new low. Very thirsty maybe have to do bitters & soda. Gotta get something in.
Nope, what I got in, decided not to stay... careful what I wish for.
"I hurt myself today, just to see if I still feel"
Again? Are you adding electrolytes? I mix it in with carbonated water, usually. Sometimes still water. That helps a lot, especially in deep winter or summer. Very hot and very cold are both demanding on fluids, you use more just to live, not even needing to pee as much, because you sweat it.
ReplyDeleteYep. On pure keto, or close enough, which is pretty much what you are doing (if raggedly at that), I was able to get to 260. Then it would go back up. Which is why, after three to five years of that yoyo ride, I finally cut it to carnivore.
Struggling with getting back on carnivore, after the accident. But I think, think lad I say think, I am back to it. I passed my last two fast food temptations, and other non-carnivore temptations on the sly. Eating righter the last five days? Seven now? Something.
While blood sugar is sucking, I am guessing to do with the infection, with a possible add to the negative from the antibiotics? However, I can sense I am losing size, if not weight? Hmm... 230.2. I've lost over four pounds since my last scale op, which itself was down at least six from the time before? Four or six down, twice in a row, is gooder!
People laugh when I tell them they sweat more in the winter, too. Until they do some exercise and then just stop, perhaps open up to the cold air. Then freezedry and drop dead. Yeah.
Electrolytes. Yes, they cost money. Just make sure it isn't gatorade like, that is bursting with sugar. No carbs, at all, in the electrolytes... whichever you go with. Or... do what you want, but don't expect it to work. Gah!
Hurting yourself? To feel? Nothing like being alive, and proving it. Nirvana? I remember some such song, and bleeding out, and others. It's... the only way to be sure? :p
Johnny Cash cover of a 9in nails/ Trent Reznor song. "Hurt" worth looking up the official video.
ReplyDeleteForcing a teacup of cottage cheese (low fat... sigh, it's the little things) not even salt or pepper, slow for now.
You have that exactly backwards. Reznor did the Cash song. I saw an interview in which Reznor discusses initially turning down the idea. I don't think he thought much of Cash? Thought maybe he was just another hick C&W singer? Didn't say it, that I remember, just... some vibe like that sort of came off him like that? (Not judging, I don't think much of most C&W singers/groups (or rock, metal, etc., singers/groups either, to be honest.) Just guffaw when one group of stoned alcoholic pagans, satanists, atheists bashes on the other(s)? Then, he later... kneeled to the effort? Humbled a bit, I think? No, that was a Cash song.
ReplyDeleteLow fat? Do you have any whole 'whipping' cream? Adding that might help. Or some other fat, even whole fat yogurt might help. But, some days, you get what you got.
Yes, the song, 'Hurt', was... important enough to even get my attention, and watch where it went. When you have sung while awaiting entrance to heaven, music... takes a whole new chord in your life.
ReplyDeleteMy point... they cant get through their skinny loving poisoned minds to not change a PHUQUING thing I request. "oh, I thought YOU WOULD LIKE..." "what did I ask for?' WHY not just get what I asked for??? PLAIN, Plain, plain.. shoot me.
ReplyDeleteI'll not argue who covered who, I remember which one came out first. NIN... 1994, Cash 2002... Danced to NIN, Cash not so much.
Forgive me... I'm in A MOOD.
Trent said that was a Cash song in the way Dolly gave "I will always love you to Whitney, or Simon saying "Sound of silence belongs to Disturbed"
Thinking of it... I'll crank all three songs in all their versions... The twins rolled in at 0630... Sun's up I get to Rock... PH-U you should have been sleeping at night.
Deal with music, spawn... Same age I was doing 80proof startups on a reactor plant puking in trashcans while bringing the plant online... That's how good we were... drunk and puking ,we got underweigh! Let them deal with some early morning BASS!
Did I mention I was "In a Mood!"
It's all good...
"Hello darkness my old friend"
Have Fun.
Crap! I was wrong about that, cool. Still, annoying. I hate it when you can't get it straight, on some things, even from the horses' mouth? Irritating. But, yes, that's how it goes these days.
ReplyDeleteAs to them? Sometimes I think it is because it is how they want it, sometimes because they don't listen/care, sometimes because they just want to f' with you/your will/way. Women are usually worse at it, or male enemies (especially passive aggressive neutered type dudes, more so if they are pretty sure you won't hurt them).
A mood, you say? Well. Enjoy it. I'm not in one, but should be. When you think they are trying to run you out of your house, via technicalities? Being forced to sell, or pay so much for insurance you can't stay? That's... sort of what is looking to be happening. Government? Big biz? Even just insurance company scam thing? Will I ever even know?
Yes, it's how the left works. Both in public and private power moves. If many "conservatives" just go along, an get their breadcrumbs for it, too? Not what it seems. Violence has gotten organized.