I didn't post?

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I've been up... for a while.  Gamed, just a bit.  Made and drank coffee.  Looked here, and there, online.  Keeping Sassy fed.  Fed her twice already.  And it's about time to feed her again.  I keep... trying to do some work.  I keep failing.  I keep thinking about making some food.  I fail at that too.  Hungry, a bit.  Just not enough to really dig in.

There has to be something.  Sardines?  A bit tight, in my current state.  I had soup yesterday.  Not much, burning the rest of the pot, and all... twice.  Bleh.  That pan may be shot.  And it's a pricey one.  Oh well.

A shower would be good.  Trimming whiskers first, shaving after?  Who knows.  One thing at a time.  Though a shave would be nice, though trimming before the shower, makes shaving afterward much... more pleasant.  Eh.  Who knows.

Tea in a bit?  Oh, I could make chia seed breakfast.  Sometimes it's nice, sometimes it's... wonky.  The flavor can be chemical tasting, or really pleasant.  Different grains or different moods?  Walnuts, pistachios, even peanuts, might be a good add.  If I had some.  But... I do have crunchy peanut butter... of a sort that is as good as keto gets for it.  A tablespoon in with the 'cereal', sweetened... the lot... in the keto way?  That might not be bad.  If it works, I may consider other nut butters... Just for an occasional splash of flavor, crunch.

Blood sugar was 142 fasting.  After my sweetened fattened coffee, it is down to 125.  The stuff really works.  Okay without the fat, better with it.  Usually.  The thing about diabetes is?  It doesn't make perfect sense.  Fasting, for short periods, can increase blood sugar.  On rare occasions.  Past several days, not so much.  Eating usually helps, especially higher fat, mid to low protein, and some or no carbohydrates.  BUT!  Not always.

I have raised my blood sugar to about 145 average (weekly, biweekly, monthly, and three month) by trying new foods.  I had it down to 120, for the three month, and falling... before trying to add new foods.  To be honest, I don't mind.  Not... that I will keep it here.  Just that I am still practicing on what I can, and can't, add.  Though, to be absolutely honest, 145 isn't terrible given the givens.  Even so, when I can do a bit better, and more, I'll get back to keeping it lower.

I will keep salads in the mix, a few times a week.  Cabbage will be added a few times a month.  Canned or fresh veggies will be added a few times a week.  A dollop of peanut or other nut butter a few times a month.  And a few other things, but cautiously and rarely.   But mostly I will be going back to carnivore.

I fell behind, couldn't get to the counter to cut and pack the steaks, and have had trouble keeping up on cooking indoors.  Or... starting to cook outdoors again.  I'll... start up, again, when I can.  I need to get more steaks.  In a few days, if... when... I can get out.  I'll get a placket more of ribeyes and top sirloins.  And... just eat those until they are gone.  THEN, begin back in on salads, cabbage, a few veggies, and such.  But, checking more closely.

A complicated life.  So be it.

I know what you are thinking.  It just doesn't work that way.  I'm surprised you persist.  The way is closed.  Songs about 'would have loved me forever'?  I... am not looking for love.  And, I wouldn't believe you anyway.  Thirsty, hungry, looking for a perch?  That isn't love, anyway.  Doubt if you know what love is.  In a word, among other things, it is "tomorrow".  Are you still there, then?  I don't think you could be, would be.

I don't hate.  I just know better.  You do too.  Someone is trying to pain the picture.  I see it.  I won't go there, can't.  As I have said, what is required isn't even possible for the painter.  Find another.

Or, do as I do.

You are looking a might peckish.  Eat.