Up at 16:00.

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That has been my schedule the last three days?  Trying to lean into the day, morning, failing.  It's like a young plant, my schedule.  It'll push along for a few days, or weeks, or month.  Then just stop!  Until it gets what it wants, or needs.  Until I am rested well again?  Until I am fed?  Until I manage meds well, if I have lost them in the schedule shuffle?  But, yeah.

So, for a few days, I have been stuck going to bed between, say, six thirty and nine thirty?  Or so.  Eight thirty this morning.

Meds first thing.  Well, no, draining, then feeding the little lady first thing.  Doing a coffee, because 'OH MY GOD THAT IS DELICIOUS'.  I missed that so much.  One more, on one more day.  Then... tea.  Blood sugar is down a bit (from yesterday morning) to 179 fasting.  It comes down slowly.  Why it got that high?  Soup shouldn't have done that?  I did eat crackers with potted corned beef the other day, but four?  And they are 13 carbs (11 net) per pair, so shouldn't have done much.

But I haven't been eating much, or using cream.  So, maybe that is is?  I have plenty of fat still.  Could probably provide a month or three of ketones, if I took care of minerals and vitamins elsewise (as much as supplements can fill in, though that is far better than junk food eaters who don't add anything... they are literally starving on even 10k calories a day!).  Hmm?  Oh, you.  Still here?

Uhrm, I mean... that cream seems to be important.  Why though?  As mentioned, I have enough fat for months of ketones, even now.  I would sort of like if my body would swipe and use what I have left.  It seems to have slowed that process.  If too, I haven't been eating perfectly, and even with low carbs, the ratios haven't been good.  Perhaps the body is stealing from the lean, for carbs, to add to that ratio?  Dunno, stupid thing.  It... does what it does.

Need to thaw steak, cut steak, and... such.  It is warm enough I might be able to grill regularly, and somewhat easily.  It is 34, if wet, outdoors.  Raining?  In early January?  That... isn't normal.  I don't think I have ever seen that.  Ever.  No, don't confuse local weather anomalies with global warming.  Fact is, Europe has turned bitterly cold, last I heard.  With it warmer here, selling them natural gas is a boon, double boon if it's warm here.  Almost like that was planned, right as Ukraine cuts gas from Russia?  Hahaha  The whole thing is a bad joke, written by terrible scripters.

But, it does mean I could probably grill out there.  Probably.  But... the steaks have to be available.  Having trouble just keeping up on food, schedule, meds, and life.  Mostly doing it, mostly.  Trying my tired to the bone ass off.  But, mostly, just sitting here typing, looking, listening.  Not a bad gig, if you can get it, and nothing real else is possible, available.  Meh.

Later.  Coffee should be ready, and ol' papa is ready for some coffee and cream morning soup! - Oh... that stuff is sooo good.