Up around six.

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I started mom's coffee, made mine.  Took my meds, suggested she take hers.  Talked a bit.  Unlocked the door for eggs to arrive more easily.  

She wanted me to dig holes for a few perrenials.  No.  I am done, for a while.  I told her that before she bought those.  Not huge holes, but enough.  I can't, won't.  Told her I was running out of mojo, ran out last week.  Limped by, but not well.

My muscles all burn.  My kidneys hurt, liver too?  I think.  Heart isn't bad, for now.  But everything else is in some sort of failure mode.  It's not even that I won't work, I can't.  Even sleeping, and resting, is painful.  Going to try to sit upright more often.  To ease the organ pain, give muscles a new angle.

Today?  Soon?  I will start doing very small, short, easy efforts.  Things I want done, and think I can do.  I will help move laundry, in small batches, for mother.  Keeping up on water filtration, ice, kefir, and coffee.  Well, and feeding the purring girl, keeping her water bowl clean and full, plus tending the litter box.  Mom won't, and I don't expect her to do those things.  She does feed her sometimes, and gives her treats.  That does help when I crash.

I would like to see if CLR clears the windows.  Small groups at a time.  As well, see if jet-dry sprayed and rinsed really will make them streak-free.  And begin doing some work up here, in my bedroom.  But, very little, very short stints.  I have seriously pushed beyond my capacity.  Dying isn't out of the question.  I suppose I don't even mind.  But I yet have a few plans, hopes.  Not yet.  So I will... tend my health.  Including pulling back until my body can function again.

I don't even mind the pain, to some level.  But organ failure and structural damage... gets my attention.  I am there, beyond there.

Down around ten?  Up here around 14:00, 14:30.  Up for a bit.  Water, kefir, maybe some window work?  Or not.  A few hours up.  Check water, ice, else.  Then back down by 15:00 to 17:00.  Who knows.  Something to eat, and meds.

Blood sugar was really high.  We had burritoes yesterday.  At 176, still below 200.  Meh.  Yeah.  But BP was excellent, at 126/86, pulse of 82... or so.

Later.