Ah, that special morning ache.

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Morning?  Almost.  Or... in some cases.  Yes it is.  At 02:30 hours, it is morning, if a very early one.  I didn't get to bed until 20:30, I think.  The ducks simply won't go in until it is far too dark to see.  I have learned to keep the back porch light off, or they refuse as well.  Once in, they do just fine, until sometime around dawn and a minute or several hours, depending on mood.

The rabbits got their afternoon feeding and watering.  I dumped the duck pools, and will refill those when I let them out.  They weren't completely frozen, didn't want them to become so.  I have the waterers set up for the rabbits.  And, may pull their waterers out there before dawn, and reset those.  It is good to have them ready.  It would be nice to have several more batches, so as to have a couple days worth of water ready for them at any time.  It really makes it easy.

A shower, more brushing of teeth... I am catching back up.  More laundry, setting dishes, cleaning the drying area.  I have various dish towels washed and ready.  As well, I may try to figure out the phone yet today.  Ugh.

Oh, and I am playing the game.  It's still a troubling thing.  I have gotten as far in the game as is practical.  I could try to squeeze out a few more levels, but that would be it.  It may be time to try a run through the first major main mission... some hotel run.  It's long, and hasn't been completable to this point.  Nothing has changed, save my toons level, so I have little hope of it working.  If not, I'll begin another sort of toon, or three.

A problem is that side quests and other forms of side quests are slow to level the toon.  But, at least, I now know how to do them, how to get around, where to get what, and such.  I am well versed in the game.  I am not really interested in the other player types, but... why waste money by not investigating, even fully enjoying, even less favored aspects of the game.

I'd best snack the girls, before they come looking for trinkets or skin.  Girls can be so MEAN!  Which... is half of why I cherish them.  I'll hit their litter up, while at it.  They sure are happy when it all works in their favor though.  They are amazing creatures, whether feline, homo sapien, duck, or rabbit.  Us guys are just... guys.  If we want color, we... find a woman type.  :p  Later.

Laundry, setting up for rabbits, then a nap?

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A better day.  So many things to do.  So many things which should have been done.  It is as it is.

I did two loads today.  One is a jacket, which I washed by itself.  Finished washing, it is air drying.  The rest of the laundry is doing a final spin to dry.  That was a load of synthetics.  I washed them on delicate, cold, if I happened to add a wool item.  *shrug*  The waterers are reset.  I am just letting the furnace warm the water.  I found that was an excellent trick to keep the water thawed longer.  As well, they will get their late feeding.  

I will check the ducks while at it... their feed.  And make sure their water is open.  I am not sure where the muscovys head off.  But sometimes they are simply gone.  With this many hens, now, the drakes have a pair of hens which, mostly, follow one or the other drake.  Funny thing is, the darker ones like the darker drake, and lighter colored ones like the white drake.  They are color blind and still can see!  The younger drake and a few hens keep away from the breeding and messing.  I may end up eating him.  I bought him as I thought the other main drake had gone.  Then again, I may get rid of Herc.  He's a real piece of work.  I'm thinking on it.

With a shower taken, and another one when I get up next time, I'm feeling a bit better.  Still tired, dragging bottom, limping like a gimp, but doing a few things.  I'll keep at it, attempting to dig more.  Trash needs more fully out.  Recycling could use tending.  And the bathroom could take a serious hit, and cleaning the drying area, for dishes, could see me get back to that.  I don't have too much, and it's mostly bigger pieces... if silverware is piling up.  Having the drying area reset would make going forward with dishes, aggressively, a possibility.

Well, and I need to get the garage arranged to get the suv in.  Plus, get some tools returned.  So tired.  Moving so slowly.  But... moving, again, finally... for now.  My eyes are burning from exhaustion at this point, but I want to water and feed the rabbits.  And, probably, the girls when I get back in.  After hitting their litter.  I reset that well recently, and, again, for now, am trying to stay ahead of them by a great deal.  Ugh.  Later... no...  Good night, and day.

Finally!

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I have been telling my mother I would check the mail since... last Wednesday?  So long.  So tired.  I lost... focus, memory would slip... until it was too late.  A phone and a Christmas present!  She had a smart phone, but she never could really use the thing.  It is... just a thing to her.  She couldn't figure out how to use it, and has no reason to use it these days.  So, she sent it.

I'll have to get it set up soon.  Crap!  My phone isn't working.  I missed this month's bill, and am all out, probably.  I will check through everything.  If I can pull enough together, I will get in and get it going.  I was just about to call my mother.  I guess I won't.  Ugh.  At least they weren't returned.  Last Wednesday?  Or... the one before?  I will get it set to autopay next month.  Bleh.  Getting closer.

Ducks were let out.  Water is good.  Fed and ready.  A bit of a break, and I'll feed and water the rabbits.  I would like to feed and water them twice a day, at an eight hour interval, but I simply can't keep a schedule.  So, they will get fed and watered when I can, as I am able.  I am positive they won't starve.  I just won't worry about it.  I do my best, and the critters just have to hold on.  I don't even mind a fast, once every other or fourth week.  If water is more important and shouldn't be missed.

I would like to get the garage sorted, to get the suv in.  And, maybe next month, rent a garage for the other car... which ever one happens to be the current other car.  Perhaps and a few other things?  Maybe.  It isn't too expensive.  It's more a matter of lining up autopayments so I don't end up in arrears.  Anyway... I got a few things and might get a few more.  Later, or more likely, good night... and day. 

Every one is fed.

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Rabbits were hit first, a few hours after the post.  Water and food.  Though ducks were shut in first thing.  While out, I checked their pools.  A bit of tapping allowed the water to open up.  Hopefully it can be opened up again in a bit.  When I let them out.  More snow.  Oh, yes, we got a good deal of snow recently, and it keeps arriving.  The first shot was a foot to a foot and an half, then a few inches per day since.  if today seems to have put down more than a few inches?  Or has it accumulated while I slept?

I can't tell about snow, in the backyard during the day, or if the ducks have been out.  the trample it well.  I am surprised that the snow doesn't bother them at all.  It's actually probably warmer than non-snow days though, so there is that.  and, really, their feet are better than rubber galoshes.  So, they probably prefer the wet, even the cool, of winter, spring, and fall to summer.

I am trying to keep it all together, to get to the post office.  That will require plowing again, this morning.  Ugh.  So very tired, and such.  Still, am hoping to get to it.  I want to go to bed, but I need to get to the post office.  Blarney.  I did start laundry, and may start dishes in a bit.  Forgot to get those going.  So tired, but I want to do a few more things.  Aspirin, today, I think.  The body hurts.  Later.  Or much later.

Midnight.

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Time to get to sorting things.  Awake more like 23:30, but close enough.  I don't remember when I went down, if 18:30 to 19:30 seems most likely.  I tried to hie the ducks in, but they were trucking nothing.  So?  I had considered attempting to stay awake longer.  I knew that wasn't possible.  So be it.  I didn't feed or water the rabbits, either.  They all still had some water, and it was still liquid.  Food was low, but is still there.  I will be giving them half of a sixteen ounce cup, per, a day... though in parts.  For four adults, I will give them a cup in the morning and at night.  For the little ones, I'll give about two thirds of that.  Half seems fairer, but I don't think that is quite enough.  A full cup for each in them morning or "morning"... based on when I wake.  And, a cup in the 'evening' for bigs, half a cup for smalls.  Okay, I guess three quarters for the littles.  Trying to figure it more precisely with my tools isn't likely.

Sleep was good.  Shorter than expected, but... all good.  A shower, first thing.  Brushing teeth too.  Oh, and I trimmed my whiskers.  If I can keep it going to tomorrow, I will shower, and actually shave with a razor tomorrow.  I sure hope so.  For now, an hour or two to wake.  Then to the rabbits and girls.  Hmm, best put the ducks in though, for sure.  Then I can spend some time waking.  I would feed and water the rabbits, but... that's too much right at the moment.  And, I want them to get the water and feed at the same time.  Otherwise they don't seem to eat, but if the water went out first, it might freeze before they can eat.  Or, that's my story.

Just a bit of gaming.  Not sure I am really getting anywhere.  Some side quests and other similar give out pretty decent leveling points of the various kinds, some don't.  I must be in a lower level area?  Right, but I want to get them all done, if possible, and generally follow around the map.  Now that I am in a lower level area, I'd like to clear these out, anyway, rather than hitting riskier ventures.  Which, actually, I started with.  Live and learn.

I believe I have eggs, and mushrooms, cheese, and perhaps a variety of other such.  Breakfast would be good, if I can wake enough to cook!  I will re-re-re-re-etc-start dishes, and put a load of laundry in, while putting the ducks up.  Then game, sipping on tea.  I'll set the alarm for several hours.  Then hit the projects.  And, after a couple of sessions, I will decide if I need a nap before plugging the rest of the chores, or whether I have a little life left to me.  The hope, today, is to get to the post office.

Be well.  And, no matter what state of life, time in, or other... remember you truly are blessed.  Suffering?  Bear that suffering.  Not like a trooper, always... sometimes just... bear it like a humble, simple, sometimes weak and ineffectual, small human.  As well, if you realize your true status?  Give thanks that you don't have power, wealth, and great excess.  Trust me, they will rue the day.  Oh, as to changing the world?  Why not start by changing yourself, or your bed?  *chuckles*  Live clean and well, change by example.  Slow?  Sure, but do you think forcing to do something you probably don't practice, at gunpoint... even collective government gunpoint... is change to which you want to be a party?

Yes, be grateful.  Most mass in the universe will never see life, let alone conscious life.  Even if it hurts every day *cough* grab the opportunity.  I may not be able to do a thing I write, often lately... maybe today.  But I can line up my next opportunity, scale back, keep trying.  It's not a game, and yet it is.  Do enjoy.  I'll pray for those of you who don't think you can.  I will extra pray for those of you who hate me for this!  Not in mockery, friend, for the person I once was.  *wink*  Later.

Not much.

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Actually?  Nothing.  I never did really wake.  I turned the heat up, ate.  As well, did chores.  I simply couldn't get going.  With nothing else working, I may have to try to get meds arranged again.  It seems the only way, once I get over the medicines themselves.  It might take a while just to get that set up and going.  Imagine if electric shocks helped you.  (Not the pshycobabel b.s., but in a mechanical way.)  How well would you tolerate that medicine?  While my meds do not shock me, they do hurt... especially to start.  Though, once I get on them, they seem to help.  It's, just, I can't stay on them while I am trying to do other things.  I can only juggle just so many eggs.

I had intended to get to the post office today.  No chance.  I sat, and gamed.  I got up, to do things.  I got a short way in, and exhaustion took control.  Back down.  I never did take a fistful of aspirin or else.  I forgot.  Could have used it.  Might still.  Though, if I'm going back to bed for a bit, why?  Only if I had a serious headache might that help.  Aches and pains melt with sleep, if it's possible.

I did check the birds and rabbits.  All was good, or good enough for a bit.  As to the rabbits?  I am going to put them on a diet.  They will eat themselves to death, I do believe, if I feed them as much as they will eat.  I am going to devise a way to measure out six ounces, or some other recommended amount, per larger rabbit... and lesser for the minis.  They will eat me to poverty.  I want them to maintain.  They are all full size.  The growers I will feed more, but not the adults.  Ugh.

I did look over the various rabbits.  It looks like someone has been petting them, or something.  One of the females is in with the males.  Not good, at all.  I guess I am going to have to get locks for the cages.  After figuring out which one is the female, and putting her on her own.  This presents a very large problem.  It means she is probably quite pregnant, but I have no idea when she was impregnated, so will have to begin watching for signs she is beginning to want to nest, and set things up for her.  Ugh...  Yes, someone wanted to pet the bunnies and just didn't know what they were doing.  If I can't tell her patterns, and it would be easy to miss as a noob, I may loose her first batch whole.  Rather angry about it.

On to sleep.  I'll feed them later, and change their water.  The ducks eat large amounts one day, or two, then go off their feed for several days.  I never can tell which way that will go.  Unlike the rabbits, and cats, which will all eat themselves to death if allowed.  Okay, Sam won't eat herself fat.  But she will eat so much she vomits.  Yes, she is a bulimic.  I think literally.  In part to feed kittens, and to maintain her body size to her minds notions while being able to feast like a wild hog.

Later, though not quite good night? 

A rather good sleep and wake.

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When did I go to bed?  I can't be absolutely certain.  I think it was mid to late afternoon, early evening, say... around 20:00?  At the latest, if I had to guess.  More like 18:30?  Yea.  I think so.  Shortly after that last post, though time isn't the same for you and I.  I... can lose hours, days, months, and years.  Or time can be seeming decades passing per actual moment.  Why?  How?  It is the way of things for me.

I woke, first, around 01:30 and change... I wasn't quite ready until 03:30 and smaller change to get out of bed.  Sleep had been pretty good.  Ribs are just a bit off, but not terrible.  I slept a bit too hard, but only have minor aches for it.  But I am rested, the most rested I have been in a long time.  A few pain killers, more to simply clear  the way... if everything is mildly sore.

I am hoping to do a few things today.  I would like to put the guys in their own cages, in preparation for getting them to breed the does.  As well, I'd like  to get the feeders accessible out of the cage, for easier feeding.  It should be an easy process.  With one cage open, which I can work on first.  Then move both bucks over to that one, work on their cage, then move the does into their previous cage.  And, finally, finish what had been the doe cage, and then move the younger buck back in there.

That will give the bucks time to acclimate to their new digs.  As for the minis, I will sort out which ones I am keeping, set the bucks up in their own places, and keep the does together until breeding time.  I'm not sure how many I will keep.  I am thinking there will be three to five of the eight.  I would like to keep prominent colors, whatever is the most.  I like the silver, and think there are three or four.  And brown or black, if I have at least a doe and buck of one of those colors.  Then again, it really doesn't matter.  Those rabbits are too small to really be fur rabbits, so... that wouldn't really matter.  Bleh.  Still, it would be good to begin understanding traits through breeding processes.

Until I fully wake, I will tinker on the game.  I may run out of side quests and other such well before the patch which, maybe, allows me to move ahead in the main game.  If so, I can create a number of different toons, with variations in stats and such.  So be ready when I can actually move on, and decide which play style I actually prefer, though have toons ready for more playthroughs once I complete the game.  This isn't as addictive as some games have been.  In part because it is so broken that I have only limited play, even within what seems possible.  Not everything can be done, even in the starter areas.  I'm not even sure there is enough to grab some of the things I am hoping to find.  As there are various advancement sorts of leveling, and only so much opportunity.

There are three leveling systems which all act as gatekeepers to advancements and even purchases.  The game has potential, but it really botched so far.  I'll find out in a day or two just how far a toon can advance before the pond gets too small to enlarge the fish.  Blurb!  Probably.  Unless they produce another update, which actually works to get me beyond the current limit.  Then I'll move on to another toon.  Actually, if I get a toon beyond that point, and to the real more open standbox part of the game, and level and dig in that just a bit, I would like to pull a couple of other toons through... for later play.  Before they shut down all the exploits.

Well, on to gaming.  Hmm, and a bite to eat shortly.  Hungry.  Mildly.  Good morning and day... porch dwellers.  *shakes head, chuckles*  Be well.  And... carpe sulum diem, ad infinitum.

Some noise out there.

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A visit.  The neighbor.  Grabbing the riding mower, sans mowing deck, with blade, to attempt to work it around.  The blade lift mechanism wasn't doing well.  As well, the blade was too low, and... loose in it's foundations.  A bit of grinding, cutting, and welding... and all better?  We will find out shortly.  But it looked good, and seemed to perform well, at the shop.

Yes, I went with.  I can't help much.  But grabbing a wrench, pliers, or whatnot... or lending a hand lifting, hitching this or that, or... standing on one side of the trailer, to cause the tongue to life, so it can be gently tapped with a hammer back into place...  that I can do.  Well, and my stupid questions sometimes lead to... justified answers or conclusions.  Not always, just... once in a while.

For me, it was a chance to get out!  It's been... a long time.  And, even then, it was harsh.  Something was wrong even when last I was out.  Ah, that was when the ribs ripped.  But the ribs had torn loose the day before.  It just became abundantly clear that they were, without a doubt, loose in there.  Yeah.  It's been a long time since I have been out without trouble.  Oh, and got rabbit food.  It should be enough for the month.  But I am, again, broke.  Yes, again.

Still, it's... moving along.  I have enough food for everyone for the month.  I will get more next month.  Try to get ahead, just on food, for all, over the next few months.  I was just out, at the last feeding.  Upon returning, I fed and watered the rabbits, put the ducks up, and will get the girls shortly.  So tired, but... it was a very good day.  Just to be out.  So... very tired.

I had been gaming.  I will get back to it.  I have stored up some in-game money, obtained some skills and levels, if I can't advance in the main game.  I can do side quests, and pseudo side quests.  The trick is to find a way to defeat a certain type of enemy.  It's like trying to tend super babies.  Can't kill them, yet they are super powered.  Bleh.  I may play a bit more.  I have the back lights on just a bit, to let the rabbits get food and water in.  If it gets too dark, they can't find their food and water.

I did what I could do.  And a bit more.  It is nearing bedtime though.  Later, or very probably good evening and night.  Dream well, be kind rightly, or kick em' in the balls if that is right.  *wink*

A struggle to wake.

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Awake again, for now, as difficult as that was.  Not sure when I went down, but shortly after that last post?  I just can't remember.  And I went down hard.  Could not avoid it.  A bit rough, at waking.  It sort of feels like a minor hangover.  But I haven't had a sip in such a long time.  Months, and years before that.  It might be a sleep hangover.  Or... just... a less than optimal day.

I am not sure if the ducks were put in, so I will get out, check that.  As well, refresh the water for the rabbits.  I do what I can, when I can.  Then feed the girls.  Hmm, I bet their litter is in bad shape too.  Yea, I best get that done.  I do my best, but something often falls to the wayside.  As long as they have water and food, the litter... well.. I have three boxes for a reason.  Still, it's time.

Oh, last week, the ssa called.  Asked for some data, and wanted to get going with the case.  I hadn't heard from them in a long time, and always pass the packets to my neighbor since they don't make sense to me.  I had wondered if that wasn't a data thief, and meant to check on it, but with the arrival of the paperwork he said he would be sending, I... think he may have been real.

Anyway, I let the neighbor know the packets were in, so... am hoping he figures things out.  I'm not sure how quickly he will contact me.  And with sleep so off, it's messy.  As well, I need to go to the post office.  There are packages in.  Ugh.  I'd better figure something out, soon.  At least there is a start on one thing.  So tired, sore, confused.  Hungry too.

Food?  Maybe.  Something simple.  Later.

Snow.

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A foot and an half?  Give or take three inches.  Mostly fluffy, so it's not  too bad.  The depth, though, means it's hefty.  Someone took the plow, but used it on my drive first.  I shoveled a slim path back to the ducks, after watering the rabbits.  Most of the muscovys were out, but the indian runners hadn't seen it yet.  This will be the first year for some of the rabbits and ducks to see snow.

I always wonder what they think when they see things like snow, or a rain, for the first time.  Humans, and those similar, are different.  We... drink the world in, without really considering it the first few, dozen, perhaps hundreds of times?  While we end up with much more depth in our consideration, we also can ignore it all and just become animal about it... considering only how it might affect our ability to act?  Something like that.  Though, once in a while, a rare or particular creature will take a peculiar liking to some nature phenomena.

Fed, watered, and easily.  Their pond hadn't frozen up.  Actually, rabbit waterers weren't all frozen either.  A little one, or two.  Though they were beginning to freeze up.  I am not sure how they freeze, as they do.  but they begin freezing, at particular parts of the bottles... often but not always, starting near the top.  And, there are channels inside, which stay open, like worm holes.  As well, the bottom section of water remains open the longest... usually.  Perhaps, as they pull water down, it creates those tunnels in the ice?

So tired again.  I have things I would like to do, but... I... don't think I can.  Sleep.  Needed.  So very tired.  I'll feed the girls first... ladies if you must.  Then get on to bed.  I'd like to eat, too.  Just too tired.

I have been gaming, from time to time.  So tired, even that is difficult.  Then again, having the game crash, so far sticking me in the starter section, doesn't help.  This game may be permanently broken.  It may never work.  There have been several games which were like that.  With Mass Effect, I was never able to finish the last two games.  Both crashed at or near the end battles.

Removing it and reinstalling didn't work.  Staring from an old, older, and really old save didn't help.  I tried everything I could imagine, multiple times.  Those games never did work.  I am beginning to believe this will be like those.  Yes, I added the patch.  Actually, I am wondering if I should skip the patch?  Or, run it to that point (assuming it will get there), and if it sticks, then patch it?  Quota hires hurt these games terribly.

Well... best feed the girls, do a round on the internet, and get on to bed.  Good day and night.

Crashed.

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Not sure exactly when I crashed.  It was... a while ago.  A while after I woke up?  I think it was toward later afternoon, around 16:30?  No real idea.  I was slipping into a deep dark hole long before I went to bed.  I ate something, had the heat up, was dressed warm and felt warm, gamed to try to keep my mind active... everything within my means to stay awake was done.  It didn't matter.

I slept well.  Not as long as I thought would happen, waking at around 20:30?  Give or take an half hour.  The girls received a snack, right off.  Then the rabbits received fresh water.  It is snowing out, lightly.  The good thing about snow is that it means the temps are warmer.  Th duck pond hadn't even frozen yet.  It's getting there.  The rabbit water was frozen, but those are small containers.  

I did move Hazel, the eldest doe, in with the other ladies.  As much so she isn't alone as that she can huddle if needed.  Plus, I may move a buck over, and so that each have their own cage, to begin breeding.  Two of the bigger does for now, and one of the little pairs.  I may move the group of mini rex males over next to the does, to open up the last cages on that line for breeding, putting a male in just one, for now.

The rabbits are holding up to the cold quite well.  They are eating like horses, but other than that, it's all good.  I need more feed tomorrow.  Ducks are doing okay, but I'd like to get a few more bags for them as well.  It's good to have an extra month or two of food.  If water runs out, there won't be a lot I can do.  But feed, that... that I can arrange a bit in advance.

I am feeling better.  Pains and aches exist, but are mild.  I am hoping to clear my head, shake off winter, and get to work yet this evening.  A few dishes, a load of laundry or two, a shower, the last of dishes, and... chicken baked?  Something like that.  I need to wake first.  I will be gaming in there, during breaks.  Yea, I will keep at things, as possible.

Hungry, though, now.  I have some options.  Food and gaming, and a timer set for two hours.  Later.

Up rather early.

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Not sure what it happening.  I went to bed just before 02:00.  In pretty bad shape, feeling quite poorly and being very tired in part from stretching with the game, in part just because the world has closed down into a dark cold bubble while health stubbornly refuses to recover fully, on any front.  I didn't think I would be awake for a week maybe.

Still, here I find myself, haven waken at an half hour either side of 06:00, then dragged out of bed by some odd impulse, and then after doing a bit of morning chores.  I processed the rabbit waterers from last night.  So, in an hour, I will have two batches of water ready for in a bit, then later in the day.  I will have to check finances.  I have feed for ducks and birds first, in need, then more waterers.  I would like to have three sets of the largest, three sets of the middle size, and a couple sets of the smaller ones.  Then, perhaps, a small rack, so when they are cleaned and filled, they will be ready to go at a moment's notice.

I have given the girls a snack, right off.  After a bit of waking and research, then gaming, I'll get to the ducks and rabbits at sunrise, or a bit after.  Then the girls will get a real full meal.  Twice a day, they get canned.  Plus they have all the hard cat food they can eat, and snacks three to four times a day.  No, I... don't mind missing a can or two a week, or skipping a snack time once every few days.  They have it... pretty good.

Not doing poorly this morning, if not doing exceptionally well.  Pains, aches, and sleepy.  But no extreme, even as a group.  Just... a mildly uncomfortable morning.  Which... doesn't matter.  Either I can or can't get to things.  I am thinking, just maybe, today I'll get more going.  Chicken baked, cooled, then the meat removed.  Perhaps the soup started from that.  Then some cleaning in the bathroom, and kitchen, plus a shower.  As well as a whole litter change for the three boxes.  On top of the daily chores.  Oh, and maybe more laundry.  Possible.  Maybe.  Doubts?  Of course.  Shut up!  :p

Oh... it's Sunday!  I'll get some extra prayers in, perhaps look over the bible readings.  Should do that daily, but it... isn't always possible?  No, it... might be possible.  And, as with most days, a good morning to Jesus and Mary.  I'll bet they enjoy a hail greeting as a joy, for they so rarely get just... common courtesies.  They are people too, you know.  Good morning and day.  Now get off my porch!

A second wind.

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I wasn't sure I'd make it.  I decided to have a spot to eat.  More taco salad.  Yes, it gets old fast.  Still, I was slightly hungry.  I also held out some hope that a touch of food might help.  Further, I heated the place.  That helped.  I was then able to stay awake longer.  Almost too long?  Well?  It's an odd life I live.  The girls have has several treats.  I think another meal and that should be good.  As well, I will water the rabbits shortly.  Again?  Or should I just bring them in?  They will only get a short time to drink, and being dark, they may never get over and drink.  Yeah, I'll bring it all in for the night.

I ended up playing the new game for parts of the day.  It's something.  More active than web surfing.  I am slowly figuring things out.  Oh, I know fps and rpg's, but every game cuts it's own control paths through to such genres.  This game is no different.  Though, even if all the keying was the same, the aspects, reaction times, and else, would be different.  Definitely a learning curve for every middling to larger title.  If I'm not sure I, currently, would call this a major title.  Time will tell, I reserve judgment.

A bit haggard, from a rough night, recent pushing (if getting nowhere), and more to come... plus weather and season.  It's getting cold and dark, with little to be done for it.  If I had a few coin, I might take a trip south.  Not to Vegas, but to some small town closer to the border.  A place where sunlight is greater.  And, I'd plan it based on weather reports... seeking three or four sunny warmer days.  And I would drive.  It's... the only way to fly... these days.

Yea.  I will get the waterers in, feed the girls once more, do a bit of research on a part of the game I'm not sure how to proceed regarding, then to bed.  I have a foggy notion about how to solve my game problem, but was crashing so just saved and exited.  I just didn't want to fight through tears of exhaustion to try.  But... got a second wind... actually a second second wind for the day.  Odd how that can work out.  So, now, I'll check out clues.  Then take care of a few things.  Then on to bed.  Good night.

A rather oddly rough day.

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I crashed, after getting the ducks out, watered, and all else for chores.  Well, a bit after that.  It was between 10:00 and 11:00 when I went down.  I went down hard.  I started to wake around midafternoon, perhaps around 15:00 or later.  I wasn't able to crawl out until 17:30?  Memory sucks.  Not sure I looked, though, either.

The rabbits still had fluid water.  I fed them yesterday.  And ducks were good.  The girls needed fed though.  Yea, they get fussy when not fed.  I can miss a meal, once in a while, but not often or regularly.  This meal was just a bit late, so all good.  Can tell by their mood.  I just put the ducks in, several hours on.  Rabbits need fresh water, which is next on the list.  I closed the rabbits in, pulling the tarps down.  So, just a bit of fresh water in an hour or so.  I can only do so much, and in the cold, at once.

Ah, the game arrived, unbroken, and everything worked.  I created a toon, played a bit.  Glitchy?  A bit, but not horrible.  And there is a patch out, but I wanted to see raw form.  I got through various parts, to where I could save, then did so.  I went on to marker for the start of the first mission.  As I was approaching it, the game crashed.

I got it resetting, then went and did a few things.  Actually, I set it up to install the update as well.  When I returned everything was ready.  I have only played through the next minor mission and a first step into the next series of events.  What I didn't like is everywhere.  The glitches?  As I said, to be expected.  The quotas are not only in the game, they obviously were party to the production process.  It's obvious.  Sad to see another company become converged so quickly.

I'll play it.  Avoiding what I can of the trash that is possible.  So be it.  Other than that, not much is unexpected.  It plays, very roughly and not so vividly, pretty much otherwise as expected.

I may have to go on back to bed for a bit.  I think my heart was just about running away with me while sleeping earlier.  My neck arteries were sore when waking, as if I had a kink in my neck.  No such problem, I've had this before.  A few aspiring to start the day, not much else I can do immediately.  I should figure out how to get back on medicine soon.  Bleh.  Hate the stuff, but it works... when I can stay on it.  Same with insulin.  Though I still think, if things keep working as they are, insulin might be droppable in some future time.  It will never be so for the heart.  They destroyed it, essentially, by not simply treating it with medicine before turning my heart into a leather stuffed football.  No give to it, a rock.  But... medicine helps... when I can take it and stay on it.  For what it's worth.  Would rather have been an engineer... or even a ditch digger, to be honest.

Yes, a nap.  Later.

Still awake.

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I couldn't do much.  I did get the burger fried, and had a wonderful taco salad.  Oh, yes, quite nice.  Burger, spiced well but not too heavily this time.  Chipotle and regular pepper flecks, well, for heat.  Onion, garlic, and a few others to bring out the right extra notes.  As well, the raw sour cream for a local dairy, cheese, and romaine.  I had a plate and an half.  I couldn't stop.

I... saw that an item that I didn't think was going to show until Monday kept creeping closer.  It... almost, as is not usual, seemed to be getting to a delivery point ahead of when they do that, if they mean to deliver Monday.  Usually, if to be delivered Monday, it won't arrive at a certain point until Saturday, often later... or Sunday.

But, no.  It arrived at the next stop over yesterday afternoon, was it?  Now, they might have simply "lost" it there, but... the movement had been steady.  There was a chance it would show, at the delivery point, today.  In time to deliver?  Right.  But, whatever.  They don't deliver on Saturdays.  Silly.  But... it did arrive.  And... it is out!  Must be the season.  

I have only been waiting on this for.... five or six years.  So, yeah.  Who knows.  It could still end up lost, it could arrive broken, the system might not work... lots of problems.  BUT... it... is well ahead, and out for delivery.  I have been researching, in preparation.  The question is, will it show early or late?  Should I nap?  Oh, I don't know.  Now that I know, I am almost too excited to sleep!

Then I heard something go by.  It sounded like a plow.  Plow?  I jumped, and had a look out.  No snow.  Sheesh!  But it did sound like a plow went by.  Maybe.  Or farm equipment, dragging something?  Don't scare me like that!  Oh well.  I suppose I ought to go take a nap.  Except I want to wait for dawn light, so as to feed and water the ducks, and exchange water for the rabbits.  Then I can sleep.

I best put the burger crumble up, after, too.  It should be cool enough.  Later today, I hope to get the chicken baked, then pull the meat from the bone.  I really am excited about chicken veggie soup.  My homemade beef stock doesn't have much taste, but will have the bone stuff and gelatin that soups and stews love.  I think I have a package of pork hocks as well.  Not for flavor, just for the thickening.  Who knows... a bit of a frankensoup, but... I think it will do.

Later.  Or... more later.  Not quite good night?  We will see.  Definitely later.

I simply haven't decided.

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Going slow, but going.  I just, finally, fed and watered the rabbits, put the ducks in, fed the girls, and am making a second meal for myself.  It's cold out, but not terribly cold.  It seems to be skifting, just a sprinkling of snow... or ice crystals.  So far, nothing even sticking, or enough to stick?  I still had the furnace down.  I upped that a bit.  It might help.

After a meal, and some time to digest that, I will reconsider the options.  Back to bed, or on to work.  So tired, of the sleepy sort.  The body is a bit achy, but not terribly.  I have a number of small chores and tasks I could manage.  But... I am not sure it is possible.  I'm not sure if it is the cold, the dark, health, or... what.  I can never be sure.

If I can't work, it is better to sleep until I can... if possible... than to stay awake beyond my psychic ability to navigate the world.  That just doesn't end well.  I begin sleeping in near coma style if I push to some point, losing all capacity to function.  So, if I am unable to work... within an hour after eating... it is on back to bed.  If I can do a few things, I will.  If, though too, I begin to start lagging, it's on to bed as well.

I'd love to hit it, and do the kitchen counters and bathroom, get a shower, do a load of laundry, and... perhaps bake the chicken to be stripped for stew meat plus cook a panful of burger for crumble for the week.  And?  Maybe.  If I have my doubts.  It sounds easy, in a way, writing it out.  But it never is.  Still, it's... the goal.  Later.

So tired.

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I can't be sure when I went back to bed.  Was it 10:30? Noon?  Perhaps I wrote it.  No, it doesn't look like it.  And I just can't remember.  I did let the ducks out, and watered the rabbits.  Plus, fed the girls... cats.  A few other tasks?  Maybe.  Very odd and rough, in spite of being rather pleasant in some odd way.  I crashed pretty hard when I went down.  I think I woke around 18:30?  Add an hour, or two, but probably pretty close.

I woke several hours ago.  Fed the girls a snack, better food soon.  Then reset the water for rabbits.  I'll get that out shortly, and feed them.  Plus put the ducks up.  Currently, that is about the sum total of my life.  It isn't a lot, but it is a service... if that may end up being self serving, it is something real, and it is pleasing.  I just wish I had more energy, to do a bit more of various other chores, and interact with the rabbits a bit more.  And get the ducks separated.

It will happen, before too long.  I hope.  As will house cleaning.  Got to happen.

As is, I am thinking of getting out to do full chores, do a bit of cleaning, feeding the girls an actual meal, then either beginning cooking meats for stew and meat crumble... for taco salads and such... or going back to bed.  So very tired.  But I also want to work, and eat.  If I can do the crumble, I will have a fresh taco salad shortly.  Nothing fancy, but... it will do.  Plus, it has veggies, meat, and fats like cheese and sour cream can be added as needed.

I am getting excited for the game to arrive.  While, technically, I did a pre-order, my particular order was just a few hours early.  So it won't arrive as suggested.  As mentioned, I expected it to be buggy.  That's... just what new releases are now.  I will despise the political correct nature of the game, and yes, it's there.  Snot noses know nothing about what has been lost.  They know nothing about that which they speak.  They are used to being attacked at every turn, so just don't get it.  That might end up being a good thing, but looking at South Africa, I doubt it.  It's just a matter of time.  Then again, that will be the end of games and much else.  Perhaps there is a point to it.  War rides, followed by death, and hell follows.  *wink*

On to... something.  I think it's about that time.  Later or good night, again.

Food and more.

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The grill lit well, easily.  It was 12 F out there, so it wasn't warmth.  No wind, though, either.  Which sometimes helps, sometimes hurts.  We don't get heavy wind, being in a valley, even if a very deep long wide valley.  Usually.  Though we often have, what I would call, valley breath.  The area breaths, due to slopes up to actual mountains, temperature variations of altitude, latitude... or is it longitude?  Well, and, plus, just because.  Though, usually, wind and breezes... down in the valley... are mild, reasonable.

The grill got hot enough in twenty, and by about ten to thirteen minutes, the chops and brats were perfect.

After lighting the grill, I put fresh water out for the rabbits.  It looks like their food supply is, again, out!  Wow, do they eat!  Still, I'll... figure it out.  As well, I am hoping to get them breeding soon.  I will begin deciding which ones, and where to put them.  As taught, let them have their first shot, make sure it happens by watching, then give them some time alone... perhaps an hour.  No more or they might eat and or kill each other.  Yea, remember when I said physical love is often closer to cannibalism?  Well, for rabbits?  Much... much closer.

Dinner was quite good.  It has been a while since I have had good food.  Enough of it.  Hungry.  I did eat McDonalds yesterday.  I couldn't cook, needed energy, was pushing everything as was.  But that is nothing like good home cooked foods.  Now, this wasn't a complete meal, but it was very pleasant anyway.  A fatted coffee, before long, to go with it.  I was concerned about blood sugar, what with McDonald food.  But, after that, plus sleep, at more than fasting length, blood sugar was at 141 fasting.  I can live with that.

I may crash for... no... not quite yet.  I will stay up to let the ducks out.  Adding water to their pool, though not completely refreshing it.  Make sure all, ducks, rabbits, and cats, have food, then hit it.  For a bit.  Hopefully up in time to get out and kick around.  Perhaps planning the cages for breeding.  Checking the feed containers, to maker sure their aren't any holes, beginning cleaning the other other outbuilding, for the indian runners.  As well, a bit of dishes, a load of laundry, perhaps cleaning the kitchen and bathroom... well.. a... start.  Ugh... messy.

I was a bit amazed at how warm I was, while sleeping last night.  And I was able to handle 12 in just two layers on the legs, in my house shoes... which are just side strapped, rather than toe bound, flip-flops.  Life and health must be better.  I will take just a bit of insulin this morning, fast acting, but, say, 12 cc's.  Not bad, not bad at all.  While McD's kicked me out of ketosis, it didn't kill blood sugar, or yet.  It sometimes takes a few days to do so, though sometimes... if carbs have been absent a long time... doesn't have an effect.  Later.

I wasn't sure when I'd wake.

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No one every quite absolutely knows the future.  One can align themselves with the possibilities, probabilities, opportunities, and necessities, then plan accordingly.  But, even for whom the bell tolls is not a certainty.  So, one may never know.  Even seers can be wrong.  If, as mentioned, seers don't seem to see perfectly, less so about themselves.  Nor can things, always, be changed.  That isn't always the purpose of sight... second sight?  You don't have to believe, but I am looking at you.  Now.

I went to bed between, I think, 19:30 and 20:30.  Oh, why use 24 hour clocks and time?  Because, when I wake up and it is dark, I can never be certain if it is 7:30 or 19:30 without my clocks reading so.  And with sleep so off sometimes, not knowing the time makes it extremely difficult, along with sleep arrhythmia's, to make or keep the very few plans I am able to otherwise keep.  You have... no idea what it is like to be flotsam on a sea of time and sleep... for thirty years, and change. 

Eggs and cheese, pure peanut butter and cabbage, brats and lettuce, I have enough food for a bit now.  Now to figure out how to cook and process that.  Brats and chops, previously, recently, thawed... grilled tonight.  Burger fried for crumble, and a taco salad later.  And chicken thighs, also freshly thawed, to be brined, then baked, then the meat stripped to be held in reserve for a seriously hearty chicken and veggie stew!  I am excited.  A huge container of that, some of it stowed for consumption later?  That's the idea.

The hope is, even this weekend, to begin working.  Now that rabbits have been... handled... it's on to cleaning up the yard, setting up the cages in the outbuilding for nesting mommas, cleaning out the other other outbuilding, then prepping that for taking in the indian runners.  As well, while at it, I will begin making a few calls to see if others actually want rabbits.  I mean, I could eat a lot of rabbit, but probably won't.  I certainly won't eat all rabbit.

I wouldn't mind a rabbit, processed and frozen, for one a week, or one and an half, stored.  Perhaps even attempt to raw can some?  In case electrical goes out.  But that won't take much.  As well, I have limits as to how many rabbits I can honestly maintain.  They are eating like police at a donut shop!  (nothing personal, C.N.Wetter)  So, I will need to thin the herd I have.  Then begin breeding?  Ugh.  Will see.  Though it might be a problem with the feeders?  The tiny rabbits shouldn't be eating more than the big ones.  Shouldn't?  Couldn't?  Wouldn't?  Would?

Anyway.  Up at just around 01:00.  Softly pained, as if covered in marshmallows, then run over by a Mac truck.  Assuming the marshmallows did their purported job and kept me from the worst of it.  Like a beating, from two to three weeks ago.  Yea, I know it well.  No problems, I play and worked hard, it... is how that works.  The only way to get the attention of a minor giant.

It'll take a bit to wake.  Then I'll get the rabbits fresh water, feed the girls, and rest.  Then set or reset laundry and dishes, while setting an alarm.  And on through to tomorrow, trying to get smaller and larger chores done.  I don't think I'll be doing a lot outside, other than critters, and maybe moving some of the smaller branches.  The smaller ones have a girth between three and probably six inches?  And are four to six feet?  Something.  So... small, but not twigs.

Perhaps tomorrow I can begin doing the indian runner outbuilding, or get started.  Metals out, some sweeping, perhaps checking the screening and creating a sliding or other baffle for winter use... to keep it warmer in there.  Plus, perhaps, setting up a nesting area in there, in case one of the gals goes broody.  This time she will get here throne, and security, warmth, water, and food, delivered as a queen ought to have served.

The rabbit outbuilding can wait, a bit.  It will take, the rabbit lady said, about 33 to 34 days after rabbit collisions for the doe to begin laying her kits.  I am planning on just doing three does to start.  A small one and two large ones.  I'll see what I get.  If it matches with needs and wants,  I will immediately set another set to get going.  That will give the does a leap frog of breeding, so they aren't completely spent too quickly?  I don't know, it's... an idea, to point.

Now to wake.  I am hungry, but... the grill will kick food out pretty quickly.  Of course, it takes fifteen to twenty to light, another similar to heat, then about that much to cook smaller, thinner, lighter, foods.  Chops about half that, brats about exactly that.  Uhrm, hungry.  I may start that grill now.  Check diabetes numbers too.  Beautiful... at 151 fasting, I can... live with that... for now.  Just starting insulin and mostly only taking slow acting insulin for now.  If this keeps up...  Very strange, I'll take it.

Later.

Brutal.

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No pain, not that way.  Just so very tired!

I had to get to town, to pick up groceries ordered two days ago, to be picked up yesterday.  I slept yesterday.  All day.  I think I woke at 17:00... 5:00 pm to yahoos.  I didn't think they would be able to deliver after that, and my phone was being stupid.  I eventually had to pull the battery, to get it to restart.  At which time (after having been at 80% battery, was down to 5%), I still had to mess with it to get it to even start.

Anyway, I found out they will bring it out as late as 20:00.  Now I know.  Though I am not convinced I could have gotten a shower, then gotten to town, as slow as I was moving.  Even today, waking around... what... noon?  I had a heck of a time getting going.  I think it ended up being 18:30?  17:30?  I did a bit more personal shopping while there.  For the chicken and cabbage stew!  Cabbage, this time, kale next?  But chicken, cabbage, mushrooms, celery, red potatoes, and... other things.  I am excited to see how well that comes out.

I had hoped to do some cooking today, but not a chance.  I was barely able to feed critters and sit in my chair.  There was a good chance I wouldn't make it to town today either.  I would have bet against it, were I a betting man or coerced.  Most of the day I just say.  Watched vids, if I couldn't really understand.  Still can't.  Had some fun with them, for what it was worth.  All good.

When I returned, I stopped at the post office.  A package is in, I'll try to get there tomorrow.  I had to leave the groceries in the car until I could regain some energy.  I finally got everything in.  It is about bedtime.  Or... for a while.  I may crash for an half hour or twelve.  Hard to tell.  So very very tired.  But everything else seems pretty good.  So, I really can't complain.

Oh, I did change my mind on something.  I pulled the trigger on Cyberpunk 2077.  I have been waiting for that game since before I knew it was a game!  I thought the music vid was just... entertainment in it's own right.  I didn't realize, for years, that it really was going to become a game.  Oh, well, I heard.  I... didn't believe.  So, I have been waiting perhaps five years, maybe a bit more, for the game.  I figured it would be buggy.  Is there any release that isn't hugely buggy right from the gitgo?  I don't think they bother with such birds these days.  So... yeah.  A physical copy.  If I don't like it, I know someone who might.

I can't sleep quite yet.  Too tired.  Yes, I know.  I know.  But, it's the way it goes.  After I come down, for an hour or so, I'll go crash.  I'll check things when I wake.  Later, most likely good night.

Well, awake.

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Awake, absolutely.  Later than hoped, far earlier than actually expected.  I have been trying to sleep earlier, it just hasn't been happening.  I think, this morning, it was 05:00 or 06:00 when I could crawl in to sleep.  As... usual, mostly.  Trying to be to bed earlier is jinxed by not being able to sleep.  Staying up until later than that usually fails due to an absolute failure to stay awake.  Rude.

I did wake around noon.  Then got the ducks fed, rabbits fed, both watered with a fresh filled pool for the quackles, and... oh... best get the girls after this post.  They are last, since they can do for themselves, to a degree.  Still, I'd best get to them, or I will be stormed, mobbed by female furries with a penchant for pain... giving, not receiving.  Being mobbed by cats seems nice, until you realize they have claws and know how to use them to terrible effect.  Even if they don't break skin, they... get so close.

I did get laundry going, a shower, and some dishes last night.  I am dressed for more.  Blood sugar dropped to 76 before I went to bed, so... I had to work with that as well this morning.  Ugh.  Part of the reason I didn't get to bed earlier, if not all of it.  Odd.  I did a few things.  Now to do a few more, after writing and tending the girls.  No pains this morning.

I did have to fight foot cramps while sleeping.  My guess is, with blood sugar dropping, and fluid going out a bit excessively, my legs and feet were simply too cold... even well covered.  Though more so if one or both kicked out.  Things are very odd, bodily.  I realize that I seem healthiest while in major repair mode, if... getting to the major repair mode is... dangerous.  Yea.  Nutz.

A few bits done.

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Christmas lights.  Started a few days ago, the neighbor that is.  But the clips didn't work well.  So other options, various clips, were considered.  The small metal and plastic clothes pins didn't work either.  The magnet, on closer observation, actually might well have worked, but I simply don't have enough of them.  A stick-on type was tried.  Those seem to work, if what is available may be all that is available.  Have to hope fifty will work.

The front edge of the roof is set up.  As well, I put up the blue lights around the living Christmas trees in my front yard.  They are very weak, as to wiring, easily tangled, and... I...  If they last through Christmas, I will be surprised.  They won't last several years?  I will try to remove them with caution, and put them up.  But... I just don't think these were made to last.  They are up this year.  Oh, and as for 47.x feet?  Not a chance.  If they are 18 feet I would be surprised.  It is as it is.

We also looked at the damage on the roof.  Not too bad.  Should be an easy repair.  Snow may be coming in next week, possibly this weekend, so... best to get to that.  And, while out, I checked the water.  The water for the rabbits was still thawed.  It was just falling below thirty, so...  I will put out another group of waterers for them shortly.  Oh, and I had to fill the feed.  They are eating like bears.  Ugh.

After watering and feeding the ducks, closing up the ducks, and watering rabbits, I'll get a shower.  Then being dishes and laundry.  Not a lot, but I will get a load of each through, hopefully.  Perhaps get another load of dishes, prepped for tomorrow, after I finish the rest.  Not many dishes, I haven't been eating all that much.  Mostly just the final bit of catching up, and the bits from recent endeavors.

I woke with a terrible headache.  Slept with one, when I could stay asleep, too.  The ribs weren't feeling well, causing me to roll all through my sleep.  I couldn't get or stay warm enough... I suspect because blood sugar is coming down... it was, incredibly, 146 fasting when I woke.  Last night, after all else, it was 110 several hours after my last meal.  Strange.  Oh, and even though I am not taking water pills, I am voiding as if I was.  And I feel dry.  It must be whatever I did to my internals is shaking the water out.  I'm not going much, a cup at a time, but every half hour to hour... and possibly more than I can drink... which is a problem.  Dehydration, probably the cause of the headache, perhaps the kidney pains.  Bleh.

Anyway... I'm about to have a small meal, then tend critters.  Later, or good night.

No dice.

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I did get clothes over to the dryer, and started.  Then I just couldn't get to sleep.  So tired, but... couldn't sleep.  I then tried to stay up a little longer, to get the critters fed and watered.  Again, no chance.  I went down at about 5:00.  There was nothing I could do.  It was a sort of trap.  Moving too slow, then staying up too long.  I am doing the best I am able, at this point.

I woke about 17:00.  The critters were tended, first thing.  I'll be out, around midnight, to check water and put the ducks in.  I'm leaving the back porch light on, so they have that.  And I'll put food and water in with them.  The rabbits went through food like I used to blow through stop signs.  Oh well.  More food, soon.  But, for now, they are tended.  It might not be regular, but it will be daily.

A shower, before long.  Food out to thaw soon.  Some cleaning in the bathroom and kitchen.  Perhaps more laundry.  I hung the coat and jacket to air dry, will give the other clothes a quick extra warm fluff run through the dryer.  Even jeans lose wrinkles with a bit extra.  Then, as mentioned, more clothes in.  Perhaps another jacket.  If the goal is to be to bed shortly after watering the rabbits and closing in the ducks at around midnight.  Ugh.  Things to do.

Have a good evening.  Later.

Late, but...

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I wanted to get laundry started, and at least into the dryer... on low... before bedtime.  So... so... I am awake until that gets done.  Bleh.

I ordered a few groceries, and have arranged a pick up time in a few days.  I want very clean, fresh clothes for the trip.  I did get trash out today.  As well, the waterers back in, when I put the ducks up.  With Thor back, or... countable with the rest tonight, I am much happier.  Then again, there were a number of them gone.  Perhaps they were on the other side of the house.  I did a bit of a walkaround, but they... can cleverly stay out of view, if they are paying attention.  All accounted for tonight.

Yea, my critters are at least as paranoid as me.  We keep each other on our toes?  I think so.  Well, the rabbits aren't paranoid.  The cats are, but as they have aged, they are lazy paranoids, like me!  :)  Just because they are after you, doesn't mean... much.  And everything they might know?  I have put here.  Good luck with blackmail.  Besides, God knows.  I am not worried about what they know, if I would take their heads for having the audacity to try to know what they shouldn't.  On a pike... no neatening... ragged, bloody, and ugly.

I'd best check the laundry.  As soon as it is done washing, then into the dryer, I can sleep.  I did get insulin.  I have stopped with the water pills.  For whatever reason, I have only been drinking, say, between and half gallon and gallon, down from probably triple to quadruple that.  Which means even one is too much, for now.  I'm not sure which is craziest, the loss of thirst or...  Oh... probably the quick switch in diabetes.  It was 196 fasting, from just slow acting, today... this 'morning'.  So... yea.  I'll bet that is a three to four hundred drop from a few days ago.  Odd how my body can do that.  *wink*

Chilly.

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Though, having to put your hand in iced over water, no matter what else you are wearing or how you feel, doesn't help.  Did I have to do that?  No.  But, now or later, it would have to have been done.  So... now.  Now is so much better than later, in the real world.  Procrastination is best for sins, vices, and medicine... or pain pills anyway.

I have put water out twice for the rabbits, so was good with pulling the frozen jugs, without replacing them.  The ducks are eating a lot, too.  No way around it.  I have a lot of critters.  I best get... more food.  Soon.  Oh, and Thor is back.  Maybe he wasn't gone at all though.  They might just be, now, breaking into smaller groups and going their own ways?  I suspect.  Still, I may cull Herc.  Hate to do it, in one sense.  But if he is too dominant?  Maybe.  I want a dominant, protective, but not sociopathic or psychopathic.

Blood sugar, just with slow acting, was down to 196 tonight, fasting.  I haven't eaten today.  Just didn't have what it took to mess with cooking and all.  Hungry as a devil, but... not that hungry... or hungry enough?  Or maybe just not able.  Other than that, it has been a good day.  A slow, tired, day, but painless and easy.

I did push for more, several times, to no good ends.  Walking out, to look at where to start... going blank... ending up in front to the computer, wasting time.  It was that or sleeping, and I am trying to rewire my schedule.  At least I am beginning that.  I am... still hankering for vittles.  I... might have something, if it hasn't gone left, south, whatever you call it.  If not, there is always popcorn.  Not fancy, a bit carby, but... food.  And, right now, just a bit of food would be good.

I am really hoping to be to bed earlier tonight.  This time.  Maybe.  Probably?  Meh.  We will see.

There is a game I have been looking forward to for almost a decade?  Seems like it, or close.  It is coming out the 10th.  I don't think I will buy it.  Probably ever.  As with The Last of Us II, they haven't allowed an open review cycle.  Further, only a few were given advance copies.  As well, all of the reviewers, whether they received a copy or not, are playing games about the issues.

They are, I would guess, paying or pushing for reviewers to attack the game from the sjw viewpoint.  But, what they are, in truth, attacking, is pro-sjw notions.  Don't believe the psychobabble coming out of these people's faces.  The tranny poster is pro-tranny crap.  The racism charges are against a black or mystery meat main creator.  It's all wonky.  Play if you will.  I choose not to do so.  More?  I hear it is exactly what could be expected from such a grouping.  It's a mess.  Some messes have been playable, in spite of their messy nature.  When they tossed in politics, and affirmative action hires, they tossed any of that.  Still, it's your coin.  I'll wait... a year or two, at least.  I only buy AAA's, even AA's anymore, at deep discounts.  What I find creepy is when some games never go down in price, in spite of being five year old AA's and independent, with very mixed reviews though.  They aren't selling, they are being propped by central banks... must be the thing.

Oh, well, it's time to check for chow.  Ciao.  

Awake, and pretty good.

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The cave is a mess.  I mean it.  I have to dig in, when I can stand.  Tonight?  Maybe.  I went down at 09:30 plus change.  Small change.  I woke at around 16:30 to 17:00...  I woke earlier, but had no chance of waking.  I looked at the time but cannot remember.  Wiggling out of the sleepy grave, I hope?  A bit of a headache, ribs are slightly tight and tender, but really... not bad.  Since I never did end up taking aspirin last night, I may this morning... my morning.

In spite of it being rather cold even after sunup, the waterers were all still liquid, even the ones mostly drained.  I replaced those that needed it, adding an extra to a group which had consumed two thirds of a bigger bottle.  Very good.  I will just pull them later.  I did have to feed the minis.  Gee but they eat a lot, sometimes.  They eat more than the big rabbits.  I may have to figure out how much each is supposed to get, and keep it there.  Oh, and Hazel, my experienced and eldest doe, has eaten her way to chin ruffles.  So... yeah... I best figure out how much.  They will eat it all, just because.  Gets spendy.  I've gone through half a bag in this short time.  That's... too much.

The ducks are doing well.  But, maybe, Thor is gone... again?  I have six hens... shouldn't be an issue?  I actually have eight, but the others stay away from the muscovys.  Perhaps there aren't enough hens?  No, that shouldn't be a problem.  Perhaps Herc is too aggressive.  May have to have him for dinner, should Thor return... what with the other drake of that breed on hand.  Ugh.  At least, if something goes awry with losing all drakes, or they not performing, I am able to get more of those.

Yes, aspirin and slow acting insulin.  Eating in a bit, if testing blood sugar to see about fast acting.  If so, a very small dose.  I mean 8 cc's, no more.  Yea, sometimes I can run the board, sometimes I get the deer in the headlight look and fail, hard.  I'll... be careful with insulin for now...  Pork chops, on the grill?  Sounds good to me.  Maybe with a can of some veggies, and butter.  Later.

Now it's cold.

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It looked to be about 12 F out there.  They were really ready for water.  Feed looked good still.  I only dealt with the rabbits before running out of heat.  I could have gone longer, but I will be working with water.  Wet water.  Wet cold water.  So... no.  I'll warm a bit, then get the ducks.  This is far earlier than usual, I think they will be quite happy... especially with fresh, wet, cold, water.

I received notice, my visitor will be by later, if he can be by later.  So I will finish the critters, then crash like a one winged plane.  It is almost nine though.  So... I have moved the schedule ahead.  A bit.  Cold, people.  I used to be able to handle to minus 20 F with relative ease, minus forty with just a bit more effort, if anything beyond that was dangerous.  Then again, I used to be able to pull a boiled egg out of boiling water by hand.  I'm... aging.  Really truly.

Well, back out to it.  Then... good night and good morning, and day.

Just about time to get the critters tended.

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As I was prepping, Sam jumped up.  Attentions given!  She really likes her time being adored.  Then... it happened.  At first I couldn't be sure... but then... yea...  She does it rarely, but this time she did it big and bold.  Cat farts are... something else.  Even she got a bit teary-eyed over this one.  Either it bothered her nose too, or it was one of her favorites she hadn't meant to loose.

I'm surprised it didn't arrive in a green mist.  Nasty.

No use shoeing her away, at that point, so I just chalked it off and chuckled.  Actually, she left.  No fair at all.  I think she just woke.  And, after gifting me, she is going to drop the rest of the gift in it's place.

I don't know how long, or well, I can stay up.  Haven't heard from the potential visitor.  What happens will happen.  On the good side, when I water the rabbits, it should be good for most of the day.  Hmm, I may need to add water to the duck pool as well.  Oh, but this is the earliest the non-fliers have been out in quite some time.  Sleep has been quite off for quite some time.

Ah, right... I need to pull some meat to thaw as well.  Burger and ground turkey, for meat crumble... a pair of pork chops, a roast? maybe more chicken?  I'm... not really favoring chicken as a single bit of food.  I am thinking of boning it, after it is properly cooked, then figuring out a recipe to put it in.  Can't use pasta or potatoes.  Cauliflower... not so much... too heavy, or something?  

Hmm... soup?  Stew?  With cabbage or kale, a few carrots, celery, a keto thickener such as phsylum husk?  With mushrooms?  Oh, yes, quite!  I... think I like that.  I really need to see where my bone stocks are, as to amount stored.  That would be super in there.  If not enough, perhaps I should make some.  Yum... that... really sounds good.  And garlic.  Perhaps with turnips, or kohlrabi?  Oh... yes, quite.  Sugar peas?  Ugh...  I should make a large pot of the stuff.  That would be quite nice.  Anyway...

I will get to the critters... other critters... then see if there is something I could eat.  Later.

Oh, well... not so much?

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I decided to try to stay awake through the day.  Why?  I'm feeling good, for the first time in... a long time.  I want to enjoy it.  I am almost sure I could have slept.  But I have almost no pain, even if I do a few things.  It is a blessing I simply do not wish to sleep through.  Even my hands... the holes I poked in them on the cage material are all, save one, completely gone.  They went in an half inch on most, I would guess.  One remains, but it wasn't a puncture, more a near miss.  It looks like a splinter was removed, having only skimmed the skin.

So... yeah.  It's almost like a Christmas morning.  Only I didn't know today was the day.

I, however, may end up going down anyway.  If a potential visitor is planning to be here in the afternoon, I want to sleep to be awake for the visit.  If the visit will be this morning, or some other day, then staying up will work.  So strange to have to attempt a schedule.  That itself is a rare thing.  If because that rarely can work out.  Who knows, I might not have a choice, just crashing when it happens.  All I know is that I am tired of being stuck on night shift.  I have things to do in the day, and that isn't working anyway.  Time to push.  Especially while feeling better.  It's a twofer.

I'd best get meat thawing, while at things this morning.  The water is ready for the rabbits.  At sunup, hopefully... if there will be sun?  Never can be certain.  Weather could roll in and shut the world down any time.  Or not.  They suggest this could be in the top three to five warm years on record.  I'll... reserve judgment... if... I don't think so.  Maybe not the worst year, but...  With the way the media is, however, they will probably tell us it was, in spite of it not being so.  That is how it goes with them now.  They lie about the temperatures, to my face, even locally, most of the time I have bothered to check.

Anyway... If I can stay up, I would like to get a few things done, inside.  A bit of the remaining dishes, trash collected, recycling...  And, of course, critters and their needs.  It might seem an annoyance, but it really does give me something concrete to do.  It gets me out of the house, even for just that little bit.  And, it is a part of food security most people don't have the opportunity to attend.  Imagine living in a hive, and having the food system break down.  It will... get ugly.  Even around here, there might be some... troubles.  But there are enough locals who do this sort of thing, that... well... it'll work out.  Stealing a man's excess?  Stealing food right off a man's plate though?  Yea, no.  Small troubles, mostly, or short lived.

I will take a few aspirin.  Half the time I write that I will take it, I forget... or stall until I am in bed or no longer need it.  But, with pushing the day, and just finally having a good day, I... want a bit of help.  On back to reading the internet, watching vids, and generally scruffing about until the sun comes up.  Good morning and day, SlowPoke.  :p

Doing strangely better.

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I just feel better.  Ribs are still... painful.  At times and depending on what I am doing.  But in a much smaller way.  Vision to thinking seems  to have cleared just a bit.  Life is almost easy.  Well... it is easy.  Now to get to were doing things, as well, is easy?  Or... just doable.  I don't mind the pain, as long as I can get some work done.  One step at a time.  Not sure what caused the improvement.  Will take it and work from there.

A strange result of the improvement may be that I can get to bed early tonight.  Earlier.  I didn't dose, haven't, with the slow acting insulin.  I will before bedtime.  Wasn't feeling the best, had to do a minor adjustment, and everything was good again.  I didn't take the slow acting until that improvement.  It's tricky, when any system or aspect of health can crash, in one of two directions, at any given moment.  But it's possible to get through, for some of us.

I noticed the improvement when, after days... weeks... a month? of not touching the thing... as solutions had started taking up to two minutes... I grabbed the rubik's cube, and if still with the slow method and my tweaks, kicked out a threesome, plus resets, in about 1:10 per.  With two resettings of the cube, plus three solutions, I did them in under 3:30... I think about 3:26?  Or so.  In case what I wrote somehow didn't make sense.  I had thought it was faster, while in the process, but nope.  Still, that's... not bad.  The fastest I have been able to do, with this arrangement, is probably right at a minute.  But that is unusual.  A rare... semi-rare... exceptional few minutes of clarity.

A bite to eat.  Ducks are in, waterers are in.  I will reset the waterers for the morning, feed the girls, cut the furnace, and crash like I know what I am doing.  A prayer session, then sleep.  Good night.

It is cold out there!

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And... not.  When you haven't eaten, the cold really gets to you.  Anyway...

Neighbor visited.  To put up lights.  It's a job hobby of his.  His price beat every price I could arrange myself, as well as installation.  Crazy, but... okay.  The one problem is the steel roof.  I had this problem the last time I tried this thing.  Yeah, it's like that.  I wondered about magnets.  What they sell specifically for Christmas light magnetic clips cost a fortune.  There are... other choices.  Those look far more possible.

After checking, digging, and window shopping my fingers off, I finally decided I best check to see if my particular metal roof was magnetic.  No doubt, if I had just ordered, it would not have been magnetic.  Well... yes, mostly.  It isn't extremely magnetic, but it will hold.  The worry is, with weight and wind, just how well.  The lights are led, and quite light in all other ways.  The magnetic clips will be more expensive, but not impossibly too much more expensive.  Possibly enough that, where required, the magnets might do well.  There are some places the other clips will do just fine.  Ugh.

The thing is, I dare not order.  Plus, I can probably find less expensive options locally... if I can find them.  Calling, for bits, doesn't work well.  Yes!  I might well hear.  We have those!  And what they have is nothing like what I need, hoped, imagined.  So, some leg work.  Of course, that means... getting up.  Which is... difficult.  Still... it's for a good cause.  Bleh.

Wherever there is a problem, there is... the potential for even worse, more complex, and expensive non-solutions.  Only one solution seems to work for inexpensive (enough), available, and functional.  Oh... I could by rebar, or stainless, or copper rods, and figure out hanging clips from those, get those welded up (in spite of not having a welder (currently... hint hint (to no one))), then... well... though a welder would be nice.  Just saying.  :p  No... probably magnets.  Or sandpaper, cut into strips, and folded in, or glued to the plastic clips?  Or... grippy waterproof stuff... tape...  Taped to the roof, perhaps in small squares, to give roughage for the clips to hold?  Bleh.  Anyway... begun, the lights of Christmas 2020, has!

On the easy side, I ordered solar lights for the two front living Christmas trees in my yard.  I don't know if that will work at all.  I have great doubts.  Still... only one way to find out.  Good luck on your affairs, getting them in order, doing your things, and not breaking limbs, banks, or friendships!  What a gas.  No worries, it all works.  Until it doesn't.  Later.

A rotten brutal night and start.

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I'll let you off the hook early.  Life is improving.  Aspirin, after tending critters, is helping.  Critters first!  Or... that's the usual.  Plus, I stall taking pain killers.  Sometimes I end up forgetting to take them, sometimes I end up no longer needing them.  It's... a bit of a game.  It seems cruel, but it means I only take aspirin or such if I need it.  Or I'd be popping them like candy.  A few times a week, max, unless I pop my f'ing ribs out.  Even then, I'm... trying to keep off the pill box.  And, ribs?  A bit of a step back.  They hurt well and truly this 'morning'.  Breathing is still free, so screw em'.  *spitting out blood and grinning*

Anyway.  I think part of the problem was that I didn't need anything like the number of water pills I took.  While my feet were inflating, which lead me to believe my torso had already filled (as is usually the case).  I forgot one thing.  When I bust up my innards, or am in a state of repair (especially fresh repairs, but in this case both new and old I think), water flows out from those areas.  So?

So, I didn't have any flood in lungs or general trunk.  The legs may have been swelling from a bit too much salt over a few days.  Sometimes I just can't get enough salt.  Bull in the heather, I'm telling YOU!  And they were swelling something awful.  However, that... didn't quite work out to what I thought.  My usual dose, possibly less, would have worked.  Being broken up inside, in the torso, means before it can even get to my legs, it gets dumped... mostly, usually.

As well, the insulin was so... potent!  It hit me like a ton of bricks.  I have been eating, pretty much, pure carbs... probably downing between three and four pounds of pasta the last few days, half of it with only butter as an add.  And, for the last week or two, it's been carb heaven... or hell... depending on how you see things.  There is no way blood sugar was anything but... very very high.  It was possibly outside of the range of my glucometer.  I am just sad I didn't check.  I'll bet it dropped three hundred points, with one dose of 30 cc's of slow acting and, two hours later and with food, 20 cc's of fast acting with a double plate of pork roast with a keto gravy.

Between the two, I suffered.  A nasty headache.  I  think from the water pills trying to dry out the desert of my body.  And a bunch of other ugly, mean, and nasty littler and bigger side effects from the two meds.  Getting better, as mentioned.  I will stick to one dose of slow acting, for this first week to ten days, then, as needed, after checking carefully, add the fast acting.  Ugh!  As to water pills?  Those... I will skip for a day or two.  If legs begin swelling again, I will start with one pill.  Sheesh.

Further, back to keto, somehow.  I don't have much energy to do what is required, cooking or other food prep.  But I'm going to have to pull, draw, grab, what is required from wherever I can, or go hungry.  I'm not in shape to go hungry.  But I'll... that's... how it is planned... hoped.  Ugh.

Oh, if you are stuck in, I found a series of vids that were... very good.  I have devoured them, some of them twice.  A new one out today.  It is probably best to go to his y.t. page, and begin from the beginning.  I was getting them randomly, and, toward the end it was a mess figuring out which ones I had already watched.  It sure beats anything on t.v., which I quit long ago anyway.  And finding a decent movie is nigh impossible, that I haven't seen, and which isn't a gross affront to a normalcy I'd prefer to know... save for musically?  Though... those make sense, if you understand at all.  Still, for movies?  Normyville, for me.  There are... some issues.  But it IS y.t.  Many of you wouldn't notice... or care?

Ah, ah, ah.

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I best be very careful!  After being a carbovore for... a bit too long, again, I expected my blood sugar to be stratospheric.  Now, I... dosed... conservatively, anyway.  Still...

I was feeling a bit off.  And it felt like low blood sugar.  I have had two doses of stuff.  One a slow acting, normal day dose.  The other, a medium dose, with food.  So I couldn't believe it would be low blood sugar, but it sure felt like it.  I just checked... 94 a few hours after a meal and dose.  It... shouldn't be anywhere near 94.

Now, 94 isn't all that low.  My guess is it is, comparably, to what it was and has been.  That first dose of blood sugar can be brutal.  Until I get used to it.  So, no more blood sugar tonight, even if I can get going on a fatted coffee.  The brutal headache remains.  I was finally able to get going to go, and while out there, grabbed a fresh container of pain killers.  Aspirin with caffeine, mind you.  Then I checked the waterers for the rabbits.  Still thawed and mostly full.  Even the four mini-does haven't touched their water.  Ugh.  If that continues, I will... figure something else out.

Now to get aspirin down, and hopefully be able to get my act together, then get the trash and recycling collected and out, so I can crash.  So tired.  Would go to bed if I didn't have these stupid chores!  Though I would give the aspirin time, as well.  Going to bed with a major headache never ends well for me.  I don't end up sleeping well or much, then wake with as bad a headache or worse... like washing or ironing a stain in.  Bad jujubes.  So... a fistful, an half hour, and if I can't, I'll try to crash whatever else.  Later, or good night most likely.

Meds started.

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Slow acting insulin.  Check.  With a meal, some fast acting.  Check.  Careful with the amounts.  Still, feeling a bit rough.  Also added five water pills and enough potassium to keep that from running dry... or at least enough to keep me alive while draining.  I'll do that for a week to ten days, adjusting insulin as necessary.  Actually, all of it needs adjusting as I go.

Back to keto, it is hoped.  Pork and gravy.  I would like a fatted coffee shortly, taking a blood sugar read beforehand, so maybe fast acting insulin.  I have glucose tabs.  I kept one upstairs, but had used the other five tubes.  I filled those, with a recent purchase, with extras in the larger containers.  A few tubes upstairs, just in case.  Getting started is often dangerous, even when I measure and take other precautions.

The rabbits have been watered.  One group, the smaller does, were not drinking.  I check the nipples to make sure water flows, when setting them up.  And I had opened the tarp, so they should have found it during the day.  Perhaps they just don't need as much water.  It makes me nervous, however, when they don't seem to have had anything to drink.  I'll check the waters before going to bed.  If required, I'll figure out something else.

I would like something else to eat, I just don't think much is ready.  I haven't been to the store.  I haven't thawed anything else.  And everything that was cooked is... probably right on the edge of no longer being edible.  I could make pasta, but... back to keto.  I really can't do that.  I have been doing that, with little else to eat.  But... done.  Back to keto.

I need to get trash and recycling gathered, out to the barrels, and then to the curb.  Hopefully all tonight.  I have such a rude headache, however.  I need to down a fistful of aspirin, let that work, then try.  Grocery shopping tomorrow?  Maybe.  It is hoped.  After a shower and tending critters.  Oh, it was 15 F out tonight, with a lessor breeze, if from the north.  It is rather unusual to have breezes constantly from the north.  The shutdowns haven't warmed the planet, but that has shifted things.  As they keep trying to restart, here and there, it is enough to throw things constantly out of balance.  Remember those mastodons, found with fresh flowers, not even completely chewed, in them, on one of the poles?  Imagine a plate shift, leaving one (or two) of the continents moved to replace one, (or both) of the poles?  Yea, it could happen.

Later.

Showers are so wonderful!

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Yes, I... it's... been a goal.  For a while.  So very tired.  Done.  And another tomorrow.  I'd like to get one every day this week.  Just because.  It wasn't even all that long ago, but with sleep and exhaustion, it seems like weeks instead of a few days.  And the grunge just... Bleh.  Two days?  Going on three?  But it felt like forever.  So very nice.

I had to ponder whether to get the bunny hoppers water first.  Now that I am clean, I have to wait for hair to dry.  I am pretty sure their water is still good.  It was warmer out today.  Not in the slightest a spring day, certainly not summer, but... above freezing by, perhaps, ten degrees or more?  Something.  The only thing is that they might be out of water.  I really need more, and larger, water bottles.  I'd like to have enough for three of those, for each cage, plus two of each of the smaller sizes... for hot days... just keep putting more out, cooled in the fridge.  Along with bottles of frozen water, with which they can snuggle.

Hmm... while thinking, I decided to look over heated waterers.  And a pool heater for the duckles... I say duckles madame.  Just trying to make taking care of critters easier.  While looking, I noted sever very sleek systems and devices, including a heated hose, so as to keep it attached.  The question I have, is... how much would electricity costs jump.  A bit I can handle, too much would be too much.  At fifty, I'd be happy enough.  Price for convenience.  Over that and.... I would really have to look at other systems.  The problem is, you can't know until you know.

About another half hour to hour, I should be able to get out without wet hair.  Hair dryer?  I have one, I just... don't use them.  My mother left one, back when flights were cruel to older women, so it was better to leave it and other such here.  Hmm, actually, I probably ought to check what is in her stash and remove it.  Yea.  I could pack it, and send it, but... no.  The value versus packaging just doesn't work out, especially that it's been years.  Anyway, no, I don't dry my hair.  That is what air is for.  :p

Now, to water the bunnies, do litter for the girls, then clean hands and feed them.  Then figure out something for me to eat.  Later.

Meh.

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I didn't get down as early as hoped.  Too warm.  I did shut the furnace down, it just took a long time to finally cool off.  Though I am not sure I could have slept anyway.  Just... it is very difficult to change my sleep patterns... when they aren't rolling like a plane which lost it's wing.  Gah!  At least I have a sort of pattern.  I am sleeping longer, if not staying up quite as long, as is best.  It's about twelve up and twelve down.

I keep trying to break through.  I wake, often lately, at like 10:00, 12:00, 14:00, trying each time to get up.  Once in a while I have made it to a seated position... for between two and twenty seconds.  Sometimes I don't even remember having gone on back to bed, just waking sometime thereafter, wondering what just happened.  Sleeeepppp.  Gorgeous, delicious, needed, required, demanding, sleep.

The bunnies get water first.  Then the ducks are fed and watered if needed.  They are eating large amounts these days.  They have no bits to find elsewhere.  Bugs, shoots, etc.  I'll bet they have scared all the mice off too.  Those they haven't eaten.  They truly enjoy their mice.  I have, earlier in the year, found a rat.  Too big for them to eat, not too big for them to absolutely stomp into oblivion.  As with the cats, I love these critters for this little task they do.  Mobile, rodent seeking, mousetraps!

The girls get a treat right away.  A meal a bit later.  I need to start closing the door.  Oh, and I think I will add a watchcap, while sleeping.  Pulling it down over my eyes, while sleeping in the day, might allow me to sleep more soundly so less?  Oh, and the fan back on.  It has been warmer lately?  Relatively?  It sure seems so.  But that fan doesn't actually make it cooler upstairs.  It pulls warm air up.  On bare skin, the fan adds a chill.  But it raises ambient by five degrees, sometimes more.  Odd how things work.

Ribs continue to improve.  I really have to let them heal, this time.  If also push them a little bit.  It's finding a balance that is tricky.  Too much and something might pop again.  Too little and it will never quite heal... or would heal but leave me too weak.  Oh, and with the rabbits here, I can start back up on medicine... medicines.  Oh, yes, much needed.  I will start today.  Just water pills and potassium, plus insulins, for now.  But I will set up the rest of the meds for next week.  Yes.  I... kept thinking on it, but had too much to do to dare taking them, until now.  Ugh.  Ackh.  And at least three other such exclaimers!  Have a great day.  Later.

So very tired.

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I did get the rabbits watered again, but not a third time.  I probably should have been in bed a long time ago.  I just... couldn't... get to it?  Right, yes.  I think I owe the cats a can of food still.  So I will dole that out then try to make it upstairs.  I did, finally, warm up.  It was great, until I became too warm.  I turned the furnace down, when I realized.  The heat is probably why I didn't sleep.  Fixed, so on to bed.

Stories?  Everything.  It doesn't mean I don't believe, or do.  That's my business.  Off kilter, for some?  Hopefully.  Some of my stories offend me.  Yea.  Strange but true.  Some shame.  Some uplift.  They are their own little... pieces of at least imaginative reality.  I see questions, in the way some of you think at me.  All I can tell you is, pray, look to One other for truth, the rest should be taken, minimally, with a grain of salt.  Even if the salty right, true, it... doesn't mean it has anything to do with you.

I did call my mother.  It had been a while.  Last time I thought to call, it had only been a few days.  Then I got busy.  I'll try to keep up on the Battleaxe.  *grins*  She has certainly tamed down a goodly deal.  Still a bit salty, herself, but much more gently.  She still plays rough, then acts offended when Doom shows up to play.  We... do our best to... do our best anymore.  Still, must bite and scratch, or count some coup, once in a while.  It's... our nature.  And we have so similar a nature.  *hiss*

Yes.  Feed the girls, then on to bed.  I just don't want to go outside again tonight.  I have closed the tarps down.  And, if I get to bed sooner rather than later, perhaps I can wake in time to get them watered a bit more quickly.  I'll do my best.  At least twice, and as I heal three waterings a day.  Ducks were settled in, but I do need to get the indian runners their own place, soon.  Ugh but those muscovys are big boys, and none to kind, now that size is on their side.

Good night.