Too tired.

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No extra.  But it was a good day.  Hmm, I did get chores done.  I left the waterers out there, as it is warmer.  I can't wait until waters can be left out, and I can figure out which rabbits need extra water before bedtime.  Then I can keep them watered 24/7.  Then again, the most drinking of my rabbits, the mini does, do not drink after dark.  Some of the others will, but they don't drink a great deal, so what they get in the day will last them 24 hours.  But those mini does will drink double any other group, just not after dark.  Hmm... I could leave a smaller one out, for the morning... as long as it doesn't freeze.

With the extra waterers, I have enough for two batches... if all the rabbits have their own cages.  I still need another batch or two, more for summer when they will be drinking a lot each day.  And, putting cool water out just as it is about to get hot, plus a frozen bottle per rabbit, to be changed in the afternoon as water is checked...  It's a rough time for rabbits.

The girls have been fed, may feed them one more time.  I did get their litter tended, after sorting groceries.  I am very much looking forward to making stock tomorrow.  That, dishes, and a few calls.  I have failed in connecting with my brother and mother recently.  I'll try again.  My brother, from what I have heard, was hit with broken pipes and no electricity for a bit.  I hope his pride isn't hurt.  I wish I could help, not much I can do.  I can pray.  And... I do believe in prayer.  I'll try tomorrow.

Dishes, laundry, some work on the cages, a shower between this and that, business and family calls... a lot to do, but well worth the effort.  I just have to push off, before it gets too hot.  Or... too cold.  :p  I'll keep at it.  Oh... I wasn't able to find liver, but I was able to order it.  If I didn't mention.  It arrives in larger blocks, but they break it down and put it into eight ounce portions (give or take... that's what I requested).  So, I should have liver later this week.  I'll try to be in early on the day it is said to arrive.  Love my liver?  I'd love to love my liver.  My mother did her best to teach us right, feed us well.  She had a tough one, did her best.  I'll have to ask her about how she did liver, then adjust.  I just can't do flour?  I don't think almond or coconut flour works well in that way.  Ah, but maybe carbquik?  Hmm... not sure.  Mothering is a truly tough job, especially when the world just doesn't cooperate.  But, then again, when does the world truly cooperate?

On to bed, before too long.  It was a good day, if I was so tired I could barely think.  Mostly asleep much of the day, even while technically awake.  A good night sleep, the airing of the house, getting out, doing a bit... perhaps that will help.  The chest pain, whatever it is, has eased a great deal.  Some aches and pains replaced it, but much milder and less worrisome.  I still wonder, perhaps, if that wasn't the heart.  So close, if not.  Could go either way.  A few painpills, a bit of web surfing, then on to bed.  Good evening and night.

An accidental... incidental... trip to town.

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Parts.  Or... chemicals really.  For cleaning a small engine.  Plus... window shopping at the hardware stores.  Loverly.  So, yea, I was in.  If nothing else, just to get out.  Give me forty five, maybe an hour?  Okies.  It did push me to wash the dishes a first shot, take a shower, and finish chores.  Done easily.  I even had time to put the dishes back in for a second wash.  Very good.

I always, first of the month, check my account.  It seemed really low.  We went on to do something else.  But I had to go back to my bank and get a printout.  Ah.  A bill came a bit early.  It wasn't as much out as I had first thought.  All good.  So I drew some cash.  Paid a bill right then.  Then on through the list.  More rabbit waterers, for much less than last time... a few dollars less, per, adds up when bought in a bunch.  I would have bought hay, but not driving the Cruz.

Then on to some other things.  I love hardware stores!  Tools!  Pretty girls from time to time.  More tools!  A couple of them were hit, looking for the right price.  Yea.  Oh, and I looked at air compressor splitters.  One was a two to one, for ~$25.  The next store had a triple splitter for ~$11.  They were both store name tools, so...  Yea, I got it.  And dw-40 actual lubrication.  I have regular dw-40, but not the silicon lube.  Now I do.  Yea, it's... good stuff.  Regular dw-40 really ISN'T a lube... just a water remover and very temporary lube.  This other stuff is good to spray in after.  I really like spray oils.  They last longer too.

Then to the grocery store.  Mostly veggies.  Though I did order liver.  Three pounds, but not in a block.  I will be getting it in 8 ounce packages... just about right for my consumption every week, or other, twice to three times a week.  It's all give or take.  I think the whole lot for most of this month ran about $80.  Well, probably another forty in fresh veggies, a couple times through the month.  Lettuce, cabbage, carrots, onions, celery, mushrooms, and probably more kale or sich through the month.

I have the house airing, as I sit.  It is nearly to forty F out there!  It was ten this morning, when I let the ducks out.  The water was hard frozen, and inch... more like two... thick.  By around ten, it was up to twenty.  It is a strange day.  Airing out the house might help with what ails me.  Any day that reaches forty might see an hour of airing.

Somehow, bringing my tea in, it got lost!  Ugh.  I'll... look for it in a bit.  As to other work today?  I am hoping to get the dishes another shot, and set to a rinse... or even left dry to be rinsed tomorrow.  I may check laundry, see if there is enough to go... for one load.  But I think that is it.  The only maybe would be trying to set a few things up for the rabbits.  Getting the spare cages ready for occupation, resetting the hay feeders, and perhaps solidifying some of the feeders already in use.  If... that is... if I can get to it.

I did get worn out.  But it was a good day.  I love doing, being able, being willing, and it all coming together.  Well, and paying debts, and then some.  A debt forgotten isn't always forgiven, even if by the debtor.  I pay my way, when I see it possible and owed.  I do my best, in any case.  Later.

A long sleep.

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Down at or very shortly after 21:00.  No more than half after if more like ten after, given settling in and turning off light.  Sleep was as nigh immediate as I have ever known.  Even with the door open, Sassy either didn't visit as often, or didn't bother me as often.  I did let her in a few times.  Then again, perhaps I just don't remember.  It was a very good sleep.

My chest still hurts.  Not throbbing, a constant ache which can stab if I lean or take a sharp deep breath.  I simply don't think it is in the right place to be the heart.  Sort of as an arrow pierced, from my far right toward the center right of my back... just below my chest... or so.  That has bothered me for a few days now, and through the night.  It was there every time I woke to roll or else.  Not a great pain, but a constant one.  And an unusual one... the types I keep an eye on.  And painkillers don't seem to help.  Then again, I haven't tried ibuprofen.  I'll do that this morning.

I have been tracking food.  The first day I did well, the last few days I have done poorly.  Though, when you have three separate waking periods in a day, the body... gets confused about meals.  Yesterday was the first true day I have had in a while, if a dark, dreary, and tired one.  As soon as I can sort things a bit better, I will figure out how to fix this.  Right now, just tracking, honestly, is the goal.

Oh, I best find lower calorie snacks than nuts.  Holy left nuts!  Those things, even eaten with respect and caution, can sneak right up on you.  At ~270 per ounce and an half, a mix of two is over five hundred.  It CAN be filling.  But it's not the same as a whole cabbage, even with butter, and probably fewer calories if you watch the butter.  I'll... track, for now, but be looking for my opportunity to take more control.  Chicken broth will help.  I should pull some beef broth out, just for drinking, now that I am starting up that whole program.  A good, light, snack... if you watch the salt.  Other spices, with just a bare amount of salt... pepper, thyme, basil, or even hot stuff.  Some salt is better, for keto, though.  Which is a water retention negative.

I feel, often, with foods, medicines, illnesses, and solutions, like a mouse in a maze also filled with traps.  Of course, the truth is, there is no way out of this alive.  However, this body is my responsibility.  I have not managed it well.  I am trying now.  Then again, medical wasn't being honest with me.  It's impossible to deal with some things correctly if serious conditions are knowingly going untreated, undiagnosed.  The heart made it all but impossible to sort the rest out.

Today?  First thing, a breakfast.  Nuts and kefir.  Which... got me started on the outrageous calorie count of nuts.  Too late, but I think I'll keep those to twice a week, and only when I am lower on calories, and in smaller amounts... say one group instead of two, at that mass.  Pickles.  Tiny ones.  I need to get olives, too.  they last a long time, and are inexpensive.  I wonder if they can be fermented?  And I should get to pickling sausage and eggs.  A few of each every few days does a body good.  Hmm... or, pork rinds.  I really need snacks, and I really need to figure out how much is good, right, for my diet.  If I fail one day, there is tomorrow.

Okay, but as to to work?  Dishes.  I want to hit them, hit them again, pull them, shower, and put them in for a rinse.  I want every one currently soaking done, and a new small group of small loads put in.  I want to get the chicken stock going.  Which means a quick minor chop of a few veggies, and figuring out where to set up the pressure cooker.  I'd like to hit the stove top and at least some of the other counters.  Chores shortly, probably as a first thing.  It looks like the sun is up, so I may let the ducks out and check their feed.  That is indoors.

I would really like to do a bit of work on the cages, near and far.  Perhaps beginning to sort the rabbits.  Putting the cull males together, but waiting on culling until the others prove successful at breeding.  Setting the chosen male breeders up with their own cages.  Giving them a week, then getting the chosen does in with them.  Plus, at least starting on the cages out in the outbuilding.

It's a lot.  I don't know how much can be done today.  But the idea is there.  I need... to check on other things too.  I'm a bit lost.  I'll... remember... before long.  Later.

Couldn't sleep, or work.

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Something is just off.  Fine, there is tomorrow.  I wanted to stay awake long enough to put the ducks up and grab the waterers.  I may feed the girls a last time as well.  It's been a long day.  I have been aiming at things, just not getting to them.  I put the bones and feet in the refrigerator much earlier today.  The pressure cooker is ready.  I am hoping to fry onions nearly first thing, within the multicooker pot tomorrow, then add fresh celery and carrots.  I'll need to dice all that, but it's not much of a problem... when I can.

I have had minor fevers today.  I can tell it isn't just being overwarm.  A certain type of sweating occurs, on my brow.  And a sense of illness keeps washing over me.  Bad food?  Just a passing bug?  Actually, at this point, I can't tell.  I would like to take something for the minor aches, fever, and such, before bed.  I think tylenol is the better of the alternatives.  Too much anacin and I will get terrible bloody nose runs.

It was a good day, the last few.  Can't knock it.  And I have had a good long day, even if in rough shape.  I've had worse, though, too... easily.  On to chores, then bed.  Good evening and night.

Not feeling well.

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Something has been wrong all day.  Too hot.  Long sleeved shirts seem to do that, forgot I had it on.  Then again, the furnace is at 70.  Might have to lower it even still.  It is 36 outdoors, but the icicles don't seem to be melting?  A very strange day.  I almost feel ill, but not like the cold or a flu, more like bad food.  I am pretty sure that isn't the problem, so... I just don't know.

Chores were done earlier.  I have started washing the dishes, about a third to half way through.  My new tea jug arrived.  I like it, but it also has a seam around the base.  That, in part, is what failed.  As to odors?  That will take time to know.  I plan to buy another, so I can hopskip them, washing them each week.  Letting each soak for a few days, rinse a few times, and air dry completely before going back into use.  I just hate that odor.

I did wash the new jug, and the pot for the instapot.  I am still hoping to get chicken stock going.  The good thing is it can be set and just left until morning, if I am feeling too rough.  As well, I am hoping to get the dishes at least one time, but really pushing for two shots.  Pretty much everything else is off the list, for now.  Though, perhaps, I may sleep for a while.  See if that doesn't help.

My body is still a bit cranky, and for whatever reason way too hot.  I'll see which works better for fevers, and take one of the alternatives.  I have been hitting anacin ever few days, I want to try something else this evening.

A kefir berry breakfast, if smaller as I am getting it back to regularity and not starved for it.  An half a pound (more like a third, but rounding up) beef crumble taco salad for lunch.  I plan on a bit of pork, heated, with salsa this evening.  It makes a wonderful meal.  However, I really need to add more fats, so a fatted coffee along with supper.

If I have to go over on something, as I start back into keto, it needs to be fats.  Even if my body has too much, carbs and proteins end up just storing more fats.  While fats won't store themselves.  They will, if to excess, pass.  I just need more fatty foods, to get into ketosis, then can begin negotiating things a bit more.  

The thing?  How can you cut carbs, cut protein, cut fats, and maintain a specific caloric intake?  It... can get really messy.  Those are the three sorts of calories.  So you... can't cut it all AND maintain a stable caloric intake.  Plus, going too low on calories will always end badly.  The body will NOT be starved.  Not a good place to go, in any case.  It's just a bit of a trick I have to sort through again.  Mistakes will be made, learning will happen, perfection isn't possible, but goals can be met.  I'll... keep at it.

Today, I'm just not feeling well.  I will probably be calorie deficient.  But, when ill, it's doable.  Sometimes there isn't a choice.  Hmm... stock would make an excellent dinner, if nothing else will go down.  So hungry for some fresh warm chicken stock... perhaps with thyme, a bit of salt and pepper, and a smile.  I wonder if I have lemon juice somewhere, or lime... in a bottle?  With or without, I now have a strong incentive to get that done... if in a bit.

A nap, almost certainly.  Good... afternoon, day, if not quite night, yet... probably.

A very bright morning.

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When to bed?  After the dark noon.  Maybe as late at half after one?  Earlier, though, I think.  More like half after midnight?  Can't be sure.  Awake right at nine.  A... reasonable sleep.  I almost woke earlier, just wasn't ready.  Oh, the pain I thought was my heart?  It... really isn't.  It's more like hitch in my upper right-hand ribs.  A big hitch.  Must have grab-lifted something too quickly.  It's not the heart.  Hurts from front upper middle chest, on to the underarm inseam, then on to the back shoulder blade.  Puts on a good hurting heart imitation.  Or... maybe that's how it hurts?  Odder things have happened.  Still, I think it's just a muscle pull.  Still hurts pretty good though.

I am pleased with yesterday.  Want to keep it up.  Will take a bit to get going.  It is in the mid 20's out there.  With the sun up, I suspect it will get warmer... unless a wing blows, or else comes through.  Perhaps my dire considerations, weatherwise, were just that.  One can hope.  In any case, I think I can carry on today with what was started yesterday.

All of it?  Well, I... won't worry about that.  I will just work, on a particular project, until I need a rest.  Either going back to it, of moving to a lighter or different project as able.  I... think things will work out.  And work out sooner than I had anticipated.  First things first, dishes.  When able, I will hit those, then reset them.  After hitting them a second time, I may take another shower, then put them back in for a rinse.  The counter for drying them is clean and clear.

The only thing that could mess up the tower would be when starting the chicken stock.  Though even then, I don't think so.  It won't be all that messy.  Possibly spilling water?  I have cutting mats for the veggies.  That shouldn't be a problem.  And it will be a bit before I am ready to air dry dishes anyway.  Hopefully putting the last of the dishes in to be washed shortly.  As well, I hope to set up the garbage today, bagging bins... for trash and recycling... and collecting anything not collected yesterday.

And, finally, I am hoping to begin working on the cages in the outbuilding.  I have stalled on that, in part because it means a long walk to feed and water those cages.  It also means more waterers will have to be purchased.  I was going to do that anyway, but that was for extras.  These cages put into play will require more per day.  If I house each separately, it will take fourteen, whereas currently it only takes... six.  However, I have some smaller waterers which simply aren't being used.  Too small for groups.  Perfect for one.  It'll... work out.  

But, today?  Just putting in separators, and turning those into, mostly, a gents dorm?  Or beginning?  And, maybe, putting poopshoots between cages, so lower levels aren't bottom rungs.  :p  If nothing else, I will take a panel of metal roofing out there, and police up the tin snips for cutting it.  There may be wood out there, for supports, though I have plenty if not.  Whether today or later this week, the other thing is to knock out a support table to get the lower cage lifted.  As well, I need to start bagging their leavings... fertilizer.  As well, if I can get enough cages arranged, and the gents settled in, I will begin the breeding program.  Ugh.

Breakfast first.  Then dishes when I can.  And then on to whichever comes next... chores?  Before dishes, actually.  Ah, best turn the heat up for just a bit.  Good day.

Brutal.

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So late.  Almost midnight.  But I got everything on my list, plus the chicken feet and pork hocks out to thaw and even the litter managed.  I didn't deal with recycling, but I checked outdoors to make sure there wasn't a lot to go.  One bag.  I only have less than a bag to be sorted indoors... which I will at least get set up tomorrow.  And, oddly, the reason for trash was missing.

I had only a bag of trash to go.  But I wanted to get that out, as I wanted to put the body of the cat in and get that out.  I kept hoping for warmer weather, as it was getting so close.  But I never felt that the soil was easy enough to dig.  I had intended to bury him, and the ducks.  The ducks went first.  But, today, this evening, when I went to get the tom, he was gone.

Bigger dog tracks out back, in the snow.  I am guessing it took the cat?  I am going to have to be careful with the birds.  Check on them more often, listen more intently when possible.  Even the rabbits are at some risk.  Though I am not sure a dog would be able to get one out, if it might chase one out and then get it.  The prints are rather fresh.  It might be coming during the day.  Difficult to know, for certain.

Quite a good day, a complete success, and then some.  No recycling?  Well, it wasn't needed, and I did check.  So, that is fine.  Trash wasn't actually needed, with the cat gone.  But I couldn't have known that.  He was out there earlier this afternoon, or late morning.  I am not sure I would rather he be eaten, but I think I'd rather that than that he be thrown away?  Yes, I think so.  Though, if he could make the dog sick, to death, that might be better still.  I don't trust that dog.  It must be starving to eat a several week dead cat.  Somethings not right about that.  Though a coyote?  I doubt it.  Prints are too big.  A smaller wolf, maybe, but most likely a medium to large dog.

Things are set up for work tomorrow.  I am showered, so in good shape.  The phone is working so a few calls can be placed.  I may not be able to work tomorrow, but there is the day after.  I pushed pretty hard today.  Too hard.  The heart really does seem stretched, sore, hurting.  More a constant pain, not a throbbing thing.  Though, who knows, if I go back to cyclical sleeping through parts of the day, I may recover enough to work yet tomorrow as well.

Good night.

More.

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Chores.  Easily.  I still need to redo the waterers.  But some are little used and quite frozen.  I doubt if that will happen tonight.  But one group is ready to go in the morning.  Hmm... I must just refresh the girls' water tonight with what was brought in.  They seem to really love it cold and fresh.  I do like tending the critters, even when it hurts.  Serving, I think, is the point... to all of it.

A shower was taken.  No shave, probably won't shave tonight.  Perhaps another trim, then a shave, tomorrow?  Dishes haven't been set up, either.  Yet.  I think that may happen.  Trash?  Recycling?  Neither barrel has much.  Nor is  there much indoors... technically.  So, perhaps not that tonight.  Or... maybe.  At least trash.

I did get the tools arranged for work tomorrow.  I may need to grab a few supplies, another tool, and power.  But... what I had in mind is completed.  I will also be setting chicken feet and some pork hocks out tonight.  I mix them, if the vast majority will be chicken.  I simply believe that any one thing misses some other things.  Pork, beef, chicken, lamb, etc... it all mixes and melds better, in parts or portions, than any single meat... or fish.  I am not sure I will use it all, and I am not sure these are single use items.  Or so I have heard.

Anacin, nuts, and kefir is going down.  The heart really is a bit sore tonight.  Still, not doing too badly, if a bit slow.  I think all I have left is getting trash out, recycling out, and starting dishes.  I really think that may be possible.  Thawing some of the chicken feet and pork hocks is just bonus... and incentive to get the chicken stock done tomorrow.

It is staying around 20 degrees F.  I thought it warmed a bit, but for a very short period.  If it is 20 currently, it may well drop to a harder freeze later.  Or not.  You just never know for certain up here.  I am still expecting some snow, perhaps a lot.  As a final flourish?  Or a sign of things to come?  We didn't have a normal summer last year.  It wasn't a terrible spring, just an early fall then winter.  Imagine if those two seasons rub the last of summer out.  Maybe not this year, but it is probably coming.

Some of it.

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The mixed burger which was cooked has been put away.  Lovely stuff.  Six pounds, half beef, a third turkey, and a sixth ground pork.  As beef, it counts to 1,110 or so calories.  But the mix is probably more like 800~900 calories.  Still, I stick with the higher calorie count.  If too, currently, I am eating as I feel the need, not according to calorie counting, or any other counting, quite yet.

The odd thing is, I overate according to calories today, yet without deviating from my macro counts... fats, carbs, or protein... if protein is right on the edge.  Something is wrong with the data sets.  Now, I do need more fats.  So, a fatted coffee, like it or not, per day.  As well, nuts.  Hazel really is the best, though walnuts, pistachios, and pecans offer variety and offer various things on their own.  I'll work on it.

A shower, just now.  I plan to arrange tools, plus do chores yet.  As well, there is hope of putting some dishes to soak.  And, finally, I plan to get trash and recycling out.  Not much of any of it.  But trash needs to be put to the curb.  Recycling not so much... unless there are bags from prior weeks.  It's possible.  Though taking one or two barrels to the curb is of no difference to me.  I can take two pretty much as easily as one, full or less.

If I can get those done, definitely if I get those done, I will head on to bed.  It is, somehow, very possible and most unlikely at the same time.  Odd how that works out.  I need a rest from the last spate of works.  And I am crushingly tired.  Still, I can hope to get these things done.  Tantalizingly possible.  If I didn't hurt.  Hmm?  Anacin!  That... might just do the trick.  A handful of those, a small sip of kefir, and an ounce of nuts.  Yes, yes indeed.  I think that might just get me through the rings.

Good evening, day, and possibly night.  I'll pray for you, especially you who wound yourself so grievously.  Not an accusation, we are in the same club.  Just a notification.  *ding*  *wink*

Still awake, for what it has been worth.

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Litter was tended, I think?  I'll check in a bit.  Chores, of course.  And I did get the ground meats cooked.  A warm taco salad for lunch... dinner... early dinner... late lunch?  A bit of cheese, spices or herbs, mix and match.  The last batch was spiced hot, if it didn't end up very hot.  Still, it was delicious.  Spices, ground meat mix, cheddar, and romaine lettuce.  It really is quite good, and very keto.

With the meat?  I find the highest calorie ground meat, and use that as the entry into the food app.  That... gives me some wiggle room.  I mean, if it says I ate 250 calories, but I actually ate more like 175, I am avoiding hitting the ceiling.  I do little tricks, on top of the calorie cut for an inactive man.  Even if I can figure out a way to hiking, walking, or such, I... won't add that either.  As well, I round up, in portions... or just add.  Two cups become three... if it is lighter calories.  If it is really calorie dense, like cream, I might add a couple of teaspoons per cup... or such.  Tricks, but it gives me a little breathing room, and forces me to eat more keto friendly foods so that I can still get full.

In time I hope to be more accurate in reporting.  For now, I am, as mentioned, trying to force my way more to keto.  And this seems to work.  Plus, I'm not sure my system manages calories as it should.  In some ways I am not only not active, I am less than that.  My body doesn't burn calories as it should.  Until that changes too, I... like this program.  I really won't starve to death.  This time I am taking the middle path, rather than the lean path.  That may have been a bit too tight, starting out.  This... we will see... but it seems much better.

Oh, kefir, back on the menu.  I really miss that stuff when it is out of circulation for a while.  As mentioned, I am cutting consumption.  It makes my urine a bit acidic.  As well, it was causing a bit of bloat.  Flora and fauna out the... ask me later.  Beautiful stuff though.  Oh, actually, I don't think it was the solid food that got to me that day out.  It was wearing a belt for the first time in... since beginning to consume kefir regularly and heavily?  Yea.  That, mostly, the burger only a bit?  Maybe.  I liked the burger, but between this and that it hit hard.

I am hoping to get a shower, put dishes in, and get some things set up for work tomorrow.  I think I have figured out why the last few days have been a bit tough... after working well recently.  Cold.  It's 20 F out there, right in the afternoon.  The small pool and waterers were frozen rather tightly.  It must have gotten much cooler last night.  Oddly, I slept well and warmly.  Though it's not always the temperature, but also health.  Better now, worse then, not always a rhythm or rhyme to things.

Oh, and trash and recycling.  So much to do, feeling so tired.  Hmm, I think I'll hit trash and recycling first, then a shower?  Then setting up dishes and else.  Well, it's a plan.  Definitely cooler, inside and out.  Good afternoon and day.  Later.

A longer sleep, again.

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I made it to 20:00, probably an half hour more give or take a few.  Though, possibly to 21:00.  Later, in any case.  It is just 07:00, as I sit to write, but I have been up at least an hour.  Tinkering a bit upstairs, having fun with Sassy.  She still isn't sure about being picked up, but if I am very nice about it, coo rightly, and thank her, she will let me.  Then picking up a bit upstairs... need much more... and sorting a few things for this morning, it just took a while.

I wasn't moving fast, if gladly.  Some days, when work is more possible, it's nice to get to it.  Even if slowly.  I'd go faster if that was possible.  Heck, I even dreamed of working last night.  Putting dishes in, after a shower, then doing some work out in the outbuilding... or... something outside anyway.  The bench for the other rabbit hutches?  Something... I just remember working with wood and nails and such.  It is a pleasure to make things.  If work wasn't so expensive...  Ugh.

I also dreamed they came out with boutique plastic army men?  They had three different scents.  Some were selling for as much as $35 apiece!  I was infuriated.  And, yes, as soon as the stimulus came through, they sold out.  A crazy world.  I hope that was just a dream.  Then again, I suppose it is better than the price of drugs going up due to shortages from high sales.  Though both show a braindamaged world.

As soon as I can, I will get a shower, then set up dishes.  Eventually a shave, and then getting trash and recycling ready to go... getting it slowly out to the bins.  Nothing fancy today beyond.  Though, perhaps, a chicken stock start.  With the containers in, all is good.  I am excited for that.  Will leave a few containers out, for occasional sipping.  I do have to add salt, because I make the stock very low salt... gives me more options when it comes to soups and stocks.  I am working to lower my salt intake.

I finally finished logging yesterday's food intake.  I... was afraid it was going to be way high.  Not... too bad, actually.  I went over in calories, and everything, by less than I would have guessed.  I actually pushed it.  I wanted to see, roughly, what a bad recent day looked like.  I went 300 and small change over on calories, but it was still under maintenance caloric intake.  

As well, carbs weren't as bad as I thought they would be.  And I can handle higher carbs, at least for keto.  Not necessarily for diabetes.  Though, as mentioned, some carbs are far easier to take and manage... most fresh fruits and veggies can be eaten to slight excess compared to a candy bar or banana.  So, not all fresh is good.  Pick your poison with care.  Though, too, if I am eating keto well, I can add a bit of junk from time to time without too much fuss.

The food wars started they have.  I will, eventually, if I can keep up, win.  Now to get back on medicine too.  Between the two, while I will never regain health completely, I should become a bit better.  I'd best turn the furnace up for a bit, to heat the waterers.  It'll be an hour or two for the sun to come out, best be ready.  Good morning, day, and Sunday... get to church, or praying, you heathens!  :p  Say a prayer for me, if you would.  You know you are in mine.

My longest day in some time.

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It is hitting 17:00, and I'm not quite ready for bed even so.  I woke around 4:00 to 4:30 this morning, so it's been thirteen hours, give or take.  I haven't worked much.  I got the kefir reset, with the arrival of milk.  I made a mess of it, but have cleaned up since.  Chores, of course.  Plus feeding and treating the girls.  A few other very little things... if of some value, not of in memory.  Oh, I had to bring a bag of rabbit feed in.

I am hoping to get litter tended, take a shower, maybe shave, perhaps have the last of the soup, start some of the dishes, and perhaps get trash rounded up?  Something like that.  I will try.  Oh, recycling tomorrow... urhm... Monday that is...  I got this mixed up last week too.  Anyway, the hope is I will do some or all of that before bedtime.  And, maybe, stay awake to 19:00 in order to try to get the ducks in and take the waterers.  Oh, and maybe set up the waterers for the morning.  I haven't reset yesterdays.  That's a lot of work, and I am waning.  But you never know.  

Trash and recycling could wait.  But the rest of it would be really good.  I am definitely hungry for more kefir.  I am consuming less.  But it actually is rather keto and calorie reduction friendly, even with berries from time to time.  Small amounts of berries, no sugar added, and keto sweetener only from time to time as well.  It's all sitting out, currently.  Should be ready in a day or two.  I'll get better at timing consumption.  It takes a while to sort things out.

As to my first day back on the dietary app?  It's going well.  So far, so good?  Well, until I had a not-so-keto friendly snack.  And supper will pile on.  But... I... didn't eat as much as I might have, and generally chose better.  I expected I would run into problems, but the first thing is to see the problems, then begin dealing with them.  Better snacks, smaller portions, more keto-friendly foods generally... it'll work out.  Hmm... haven't weighed myself in some time.  Not going to be happy.  Lack of activity and blind eating habits will have set things back.  Well, and all that water still in me.

Odd thing about diuretics is, one is sometimes too much, until I begin compensating.  Often a blind compensation, like a horse bolting out of, and back into, a burning building.  It doesn't make sense, my body just reacts.  I am not always "here", conscious, enough to... negotiate the problem well.  Animal instinct is a terrible guide.  But it's all I have to offer problems a bit too often.  Still, I'll... keep... or soon... get back to things.  Bleh.

Later.

Superior soup.

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A bit hot.  I did put in much too much ghost pepper flecks.  At least it wasn't the carolina reaper.  Yea, it's... that much hotter.  Even so, it's been making for good meals.  I have started logging my meals.  I have set the macro nutrient levels for the day.  And, so it begins.  It's saying the soup is higher in carbs than what I believe it is.  I am using more carb-friendly veggies, and fresh.  So, yea, it does make a difference.  

Still, I'll let it stand for the moment.  I just won't worry about those carbs... as much.  I'll have to see how insulin reacts to it before I make a final determination.  There are some carb heavy foods that don't bother my blood sugar or keto.  As well, some carb light things do.  It really, medicine even when practiced correctly, isn't a science.  Not as a body of people and a body of knowledge.  It is nearly universally unique, given the sum total of all health, sickness, and treatments.  It just is.

Ducks are out, rabbits have been fed.  I am warming their water before taking that out to them.  And, it is cold.  At 22 F, it seems so absolutely frigid.  I just don't get it.  A bit of snow, but just enough to coat everything lightly.  Snow the other day as well, which was thicker but is already gone.  The earth itself must have been warmed enough to take it out?  Or did a warm spell pass through quickly?  I don't know.

Quite a sleep.

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I am pretty sure It was after 16:00 when I went down, I'm thinking 16:20 and change, but it may have been a bit later, or earlier.  If it was different, it was probably later.  It's as good as I can do.  As to waking?  It is 4:29 as I sit.  I was awake earlier, but by an hour or ten minutes I can't say.  I try to get these numbers locked away.  I try to memorize while going to bed or waking.  It... just doesn't work.

A tenish hour sleep?  That is what it sounds like, more or less.  Which is a lot of sleep, on the one hand, but for me, twenty four hours isn't out of the question... days, even weeks, have slipped by with me mostly asleep... just waking for water or to go to the bathroom.  If that was mostly in the past.  Still, a twelve even fourteen hour sleep isn't unheard of in more recent times.  So, on the one hand, ten hours isn't too awfully terrible.  It is, though, of recent times, longer than usual.  Six to eight is more common anymore, if my waking cycles are what are usually very off.

However, given  that I am sleeping so often each day, in two to eight hour sets, this is a very long sleep.  I am having two to four sleep cycles a day of later.  I try to wake, when I wake to go to the bathroom or because Sassy or Sam wants attention.  It just doesn't work until I can wake.  Sassy attempts to bother me about every two hours.  If I really need sleep, I have to close the door to keep her out.  The dark and cold, loss of acclimation to the cold... but that heavy dark will get me if it seems to go on too long.

I am hoping to get a shower, shave, and dishes done before crashing again.  I will pull the waterers, which wasn't done last night. It was too early, besides I crashed far too hard.  I'll grab a bucket of water, to refill those when they thaw, as well.  Oh, and exchange the girls' water.  They have been particularly clean.  It makes me suspect Sam fell in, and then will more reasonably help Sassy by sharing licks.  Otherwise she is mean, and stingy, about it.  Queens are... different, difficult, etc.  If queen often means mother.  She is definitely the queen of this home.  But, when she is all wet, she changes her tune.  :p

I have some minor aches and pains for the first time in a while?  Very mild.  I don't quite understand what causes those.  It can't be excessive sleep?  Though, maybe too much sleep all at one time?  It might be part of it.  Sleeping in the wrong position for too long?  Or just from my general medical problems?  I can't tell you.  Stiff neck, slight headache from that, upper shoulders are more sore than stiff, ribs have a creak in them.  All light in severity, this time, but can be pretty terrible, nearly to nausea.  

Well, on to looking around the net, contemplating my trek to work and other efforts, and some kefir to start the morning.  I've been cutting back on that.  I may go to three gallons of milk a week, plus the heavy cream.  I am trying to get back on keto, but... well... I'll get there.  Oh, I did download the food tracking app.  I'll begin using it today.  As before, when starting the first time, I won't worry about anything.  I will plug in my goals, I will honestly track my food, but I won't initially try to live absolutely within that.  I want to see where I am, what I can change, and begin moving my diet back to it.

As I remember, I lost some serious weight quickly... and at that time I was on diuretics full time, so... it wasn't water weight loss.  It does work, if you will, can, stay on it.  It is a long way back from fat though.  And, it... I'll still have the excess skin.  I will probably be less attractive than I already am.  It's just reality.  It isn't being done to improve... certain chances.  It will merely be done to be slightly, perhaps, healthier... maybe to begin filling out life, becoming more active, or at least not being crushed by poor health?  Something.

Later.

Not much.

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There won't be more going forward.

I called my brother.  He didn't pick up.  I heated the soup, but through snacking wasn't hungry for it.  I did add new vegetables.  So it should be good for one more stretch.  The freeze containers arrived, for stock.  So that can go forward when I can make it go forward.  Chicken stock first, beef stock next.  While I will be making beef stew the next time I make a stew, I have beef stock remaining.  It's more a matter of getting chicken stock going so that I have both types on hand.

When I get chicken, then more beef stock tucked away, if the process is reasonable, I may begin drinking it more often.  Not necessarily daily, but two to five times a week.  I'd also like to get the vinegar tonic going (again, sort of, if this type is slightly different).  Along with tea, fatted coffee, and kefir, I can start backing away from just drinking tea.  A bit more lively drinks, really.  Yea, it will work well.

It is cold out there.  And it snowed.  Cold?  At 24 F?  Right, odd, but it sure feels cold.  And it is dark, as if something is coming through.  We did get snow, just a bit... so far anyway.  I almost get the feeling we are in for a major hit.  But... that's just a feeling.  Not quite a fear though?  No, not a fear.  I don't fear such things.  Even, probably, when I should.  I only fear disappointing... even if forgivably... Father.  It isn't the sort of fear some have, for skin and hide, or even kith and kin... the latter for a more honest if animal man.  My fear is going astray of His will.  The rest can be handled, right to my death even in great... greater... pain.  Anyway, I just get a feeling that something is coming, hard, dark, cold, mean, and a bit more than I would have suspected this time of year.  Though, as mentioned, just a feeling... not a... sense.  What is the difference?  One is more prophetic, this isn't... more an animal instinct thing.  Who knows.

I am having difficulty going on to bed.  And yet I really can't do much awake.  It is frustrating.  I will try to get on up to bed as soon as possible.  Perhaps nearly as soon as I post... or within the hour.  Then plan to do work when I wake.  I have loved working lately.  I think I can get a bit more in this week.  Maybe throughout this next week.  I pray that God help me, if the efforts, chores, works, and else be to His glory.  Good works are from His will, not mine.  I know this.  So be it.

Later, or more likely good night.  If... my nights seem rather short of late.  Three a day, or more?  

About to feed the rabbits.

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Not sure I can keep going beyond that.  Falling asleep hard.  I am going to try to stay awake a while longer.  Not worried if it doesn't work.  It is about 24 F outside.  Not bad, not great.  As to anything else?  Yea, if I can get to more work an half hour to hour after feeding the rabbits, I'll go on back to bed.  It won't improve over time.  But, sleeping will allow me to work after.

Soup and collecting waterers.

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Actually, shutting the ducks in as well.  I went to bed too early to get them to go in.  Still, a partial night of protection can be better than none.  It depends on what predators roam, when they might check, and else.  Sometimes they are open all night, though rarely.  More often, as tonight, they are open for a bit long into the night.  I can't control my sleep well enough to change that.  For the moment.  Though missing a spot in a general time, for long, is rare.

I called my mother today.  The doc isn't sure about a hip replacement.  Not believing it will help.  Thinking it may be from the lower back.  She has had two back surgeries, so... if that... it may be scrubs.  The way of pain may just be her lot.  I... understand.  I also know it isn't a... nice option.  I've been living it for decades now.  It... gets difficult toward the end.  She may have a good lot of time left, as I suspect I do.  Next time we discuss talk, I will offer her my best reliefs when no relief is possible.

When pain is beyond management with what I have to me, I contemplate the scourging and crucifixion of Jesus.  The other option is to offer this pain for the relief of those in purgatory.  I contemplate specific people half of the time.  I offer it more generally the other half.  Does it help?  Well... yes.  It may not take the pain, remove it, but it makes living with it much... easier.  It really does.  As mentioned, it turns a shame to a grace.

They are having warmer weather.  That helps with things.  It's easier to smile, through it all, on a good, warm, spring or spring-like day.  Three weeks until spring happens, she suggested.  I go by the weather.  And, to be honest, I see it heading that way.  At 24 F nights, and 32 F and more days, it's not quite there.  Especially with the 32 and more feeling colder than the 24, usually.  Tonight there is a cold wind from the north.  Not a high wind, just a medium, but solid.  During the days, it's been windy often.  Along with that moisture and the wind, it's... just cold.

I think I mentioned what I hope to do.  Getting chores done quickly will help.  A shower, to warm, will help.  The soup will help.  Trying to do the little things, like tending litter, picking up small areas, fixing or solving this problem or difficulty... the little things make the big things possible.  And the little things can be done when the big things are too much.

Almost a new day.

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For what it counts, every waking cycle is a new day.  I just have to go with that, for now.  There is definitely some truth to it, especially as I begin working each cycle.  That makes it real.  Not a lot of work, just bits here, parts there, and pieces in between the parts and bits... to facilitate those or just as little extras... luxury or not.  And from food, to feeding critters, to cleaning, clearing, sorting.  A nice batch of work has been done.

To completion?  Not as I would like, if that may never quite be possible.  A one man band cannot play too many parts of a band, and do vocals.  I, everyone, has limits.  But I can do... better... more.

Today?  A few phone calls, sometime midmorning to early afternoon.  Another shower, and a shave, fairly early this morning.  Setting dishes to wash, and probably washing the one piece that needs it for the instapot.  If that gets done, and the pint and quart containers arrive, I may set that up for broth.  Or, thaw the bones for a run tomorrow.  And, last but not least, getting the tools set up for work on the hutches as well and maybe starting work on the table for the lower hutch.

Well, actually, I think I'll set the soup to going first thing.  Mushrooms should be ready.  I may add more fresh veggies.  I'll want to taste test it, as I added a lot more water.  It had boiled down some.  I replaced that and then some.  Mushroom, pork, and chicken, plus veggies of many sorts.  Hot as the sun, with a good set of spices which have been found to work well.  Salt is the only odd variable which might be out.  Love that stuff.

The nice thing is, if I can get back to making stock, and it is easy enough with the instapot, I will start drinking it every other or few days.  As I attempt to get back to keto, and intermittent fasting, as and when possible, this will be good.  Some say it breaks the fast, others say it doesn't.  The volume consumed may be part of it.  Then again, consuming it to end the daily intermittent fasting may be the way?  I'll review the topic a bit more.  Either way, stock will be consumed more regularly.  It truly is tasty.

Oh, down at around 17:30... I think nearly exactly.  Awake at 3:06 exactly.  A sevenish hour sleep?  Yea, sounds good, until I realize I slept at least two different cycles in yesterday.  But I am working more, with much less waking time.  It's an odd tradeoff.  I do believe I would rather sleep most of the day, if I can work when awake, as little as that may be.  If I could just keep it up, I really could get ahead, eventually.  And... a month, two, three at most?  At this sort of rate my house would become a home quickly.  Later.

A rather successful day.

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I got the shower, no shave yet but the trim is quite good.  I then found the eight quart instapot, unboxed it, and removed the tags.  It will need to be washed, but that will be very easy.  Then to town.  A shopping list, for two different stores, plus plans to stop at the cell store... to figure out what the problem was.  Yes, I got to it.  And made it.

Shopping.  Just a few items.  Mushrooms, for the last of the soup stock.  Absolutely delicious stuff.  A few types of sausage, for pickling with eggs.  Though, too, sauerkraut and kielbasa to make a sauerkraut soup.  Just... saw it online, and thought it looked good.  Bits and pieces, veggies, to various other items.  Just a few things.  Should work out.

Then I stopped at the store I picked up pork hocks and else yesterday, to see if they carried chicken bones.  Nope.  I would guess nobody does.  You buy your own chicken, then save the bones from it, or bone the meat precooked, for better broth.  Or... you cook the whole thing, part way, pull it to save the meat... or leave it and lose the meat...  It's... tricky.  Decisions and outcomes.  Anyway, I tried.

The cell store got it sorted.  What they told the people in the store was that what I paid was a minimum.  But corporate said it wasn't enough.  They really need to sort these things out.  If, perhaps, as suggested, they just mess with people who aren't doing well with the social scoring.  China has come to America, through corporations.  It isn't just the government that has betrayed us.  Which is actually in charge is anyone's guess though.  Government or corporate.  China controls those both though, at this point.

Well, mushrooms and soup have just finished heating.  I usually heat it, cover it, let it cool with the lid on for a bit, then with the lid off for a bit, then eat.  It'll be a while still.  Assuming I don't crash, which might happen.  Just because I do well doesn't mean I will do so for long.  I think I have been awake longer than usual, of late, already.  I am crashing.  We'll see.  I'd like to stretch it, but don't think I can.

Good... afternoon, day, and maybe night. 

A few hours down.

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I had to work to get that last hour down.  And, not really a few, just almost two hours down.  Sleep was good?  Yea, but I wanted more, my body just didn't need or couldn't handle more.  Up, quickly.  Dressed, and rightly.  Teeth brushed.  Now I wait to get my mind and body all together and moving in one direction or another.  Hmm, I might even get the actual shave in.  A shower and trim already finished before bed.

I did a few other things before bed, as well.  I didn't put up all the towels, just grabbed one.  I did a small spot of dishes, which I had used to process the veggies... a cutting board and knife... and a thaw box which always gets bloody.  I did a few more actual jobs, smaller ones.  I just can't remember, at this point, what they were.

Before much else, the first thing I want to do is to find the instapots.  They will be cleaned with any dishes I do.  Whichever one I can find, if I can't find both, that is.  As well, I'll set up a couple of batches of dishes, and fold and put towels away.  A bit of a headache, but I'll fix that shortly.  I'm getting ahead, even if I am stumbling over sleep and else to get there.

I am going to order a new drinking container, maybe two.  The one I have is back to a really bad smell.  I am wondering if that isn't what is causing bad breath.  Then, when I get those, I will clean them out every week.  Having two means one can be down for a while.  It's a frustrating thing.  I could go back to drinking them out of jars, but that was always a bit unsafe.  Then again, I did buy a few big mouth jar toppers, which would prevent spills, and has a finger loop on top for easier carrying and handling.  I bought some with handles, but that won't do with an half gallon jar.  Works well with quart jars though.  Anyway...  If I go back to jars, I'll still need more jars.  Bleh.

Later.