Well, some of it.

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Didn't hit dishes.  But did get laundry cycled through.  Totes in the wash.  And made the steak.  The whole thing.  Hungry?  A bit, but more wanted some bulk through the system.  Been having difficulty going, in the morning.  Not enough bulk.  This should do, with else from earlier.

As well, I am back to eating kefir before meals.  I want to see if that makes a difference.  As well, having a vinegar tonic, of some sort, after.  Overkill?  Only one way to find out.  If my bum burns, after a bm, I'll... sort it out.  Though I am drinking less of each.  Well, not less of each, less water in the tonic.  But, definitely less kefir, down to one to two cups per dose, rather than three or nearing four.  We'll see.

I checked blood sugar after the first meal.  About an hour after.  I expected... 240, 250?  Nope, 178!  Right before my next meal.  I was... quite impressed.  Surprised.  That I like.  I am going to test in another hour.  See what a steak will do to blood sugar.  The two meals were crammed right together, but... I guess I will see in a bit.  Or we... me and the bugs.  Just from kefir, I am less me than I was before, by vast amounts of us's?  Something.  I can say we, and mean it.

Breakfast and an alarm.

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It hasn't rained, yet.  May not.  So, with the opportunity avaialbe, I got the leftover sirloin tip and mushrooms grilling.  Then the eggs.  Always looking up, and worrying a bit about rain.  Finished the cooking, cleaned up, and got on in to eat.  Kefir with the meal, then a vinegar tonic.  Very nice.

As I sit digesting my meal, I am contemplating other things.  Work.  I... think I am done today?  Maybe, maybe dishes though... a start?  I don't know.  The alarm let me know that bedtime approaches.  At 15:15, from now on, I will be alerted, almost three hours in advance, that bedtime nears.  The goal being 18:00, or so.  One more alarm, at 17:15.

I should stop drinking now?  I mean, yes.  But no.  I have another meal planned, if it doesn't get rained out.  Half of a steak, I left one out to thaw.  A new york strip, should be good.  And, maybe, a small side of salad?  Maybe.  I may, again, have kefir to start, and a vinegar tonic.  We'll see.  But, if I want to do that, I'll have to hit it by, say, 16:00?  Or so.  Thankfully there is an hourly alarm.  It doesn't just sound, it vibrates.  That's the difference between this and other watches.  Or... one of the things.  I can turn the hourly alarm off after that.  Or... maybe... wait until the 17:15 alarm?  Yes, the latter.  I like the 17:00 and 17:15 alarms, close together.  They... help... solidify.  I live in a world of shadows and dreams.  I need solids, definites, or I... get lost.  And a lot of them.

Hmm...

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I got out to raking, did a row or two.  And that was that.  The wind is fighting me every step.  I could try to rake from the other side.  I don't think that would provide the results I desire.  So... no.  But, I did get to picking up sticks.  All of them?  Well, that will be done in batches too.  Still, I got a third of the area cleared.  With a storm coming there may well be more tomorrow.  Still, all good.  Well, a third and into half of another third, though not as thoroughly.

I also checked on the towels.  Dry, or dry enough.  The winds and gusts, while not too heavy yet, were enough to finish those.  So I pulled them, gathered the pins, and it's all safely, and mostly dry, inside.  The next load of laundry is going.  I will actually do two more loads.  One of synthetics, one of the heavier canvas bags I use for sports gear.  I have two.  One holds my hand and feet fins, towels, trunks, etc.  Big enough for all my needs.  The other is smaller, better for sprinting/workout gear, if I want to take a change, or change shoes there.  Or just have a towel to dry off a bit.  Not a lot of room, but some.  And, I'll wash my griddle bag, as it is of a similar sort.

Dishes?  Eventually.  I suppose.  Maybe tomorrow.  Tomorrow was planned to be an easier day.  Since I won't be going to town, and I have taken care of some of the other heavier things.  But, it would be an excellent day to hit and destroy the last of the dishes.

Still not sure what to do about "breakfast".  I'll... figure it out.  Still, I did get most of the work done, or some parts of it, before it was time to eat.  It's a good day.  Still hoping to push through laundry, and just maybe hit on dishes, in part or whole.  Can't believe I haven't crashed.  Especially pushing recently, and with dark weather moving in.  I am struggling, a bit.  But... I keep... pushing.  

Maybe not.

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It's darkening as if it might rain.  Snow is out, unless the front brings a lot of cold with it.  I pulled the clothes off the line, but the towels are taking longer.  I'll give it until 13:00.  I'll pull them if I hear drops, and just put them in the dryer.  Unless it just floods.  I'll put them in the washer and do a spin cycle.  Bleh...  Hoping they just hurry up!  I did turn them, so they got the underside, and from a different direction.

I'll go ahead and set the wash going.  No use waiting for good weather, that could be a few hours to a few days.  I want these things done.

I did get the wheelbarrow emptied and leaned so as to dry out.  As to raking?  I suppose.  I just need to get shoes on.  Let my feet dry for a goodly bit, then got mostly dressed.  But, for raking, or mowing, I want real shoes on, not house flip-flops.  I would definitely be able to see if it started raining right away, or even sprinkling, if I am out there.  Probably. Some times, when tired, and I am, I can be a bit dense.

So, yeah.  Though will probably only get one session, if it does what it looks like it will do.  Perhaps a longer session, since it is cooler out there though too.  If it does start hitting, I can hit the dishes, and after those, get to work on the shop vac.  I cleaned it well, with bleach water.  Just want to finish up with some soapy water?  I'll at least look it over.  Want it clean.  Would like to rip into the Xterra, clean it top to bottom, even unbolting the seats, and getting in with the steam cleaner.

Not... today, of course.  Especially if it rains.  But, instead of raking, I could try some other things.  Including getting those t-shirts in?  Hmm.  No.  I will not go into town for only one thing.  Too late for mass.  Though I could attempt to get to swimming?  Maybe.  No, that would be too late for my schedule.  I think they have a swim time, lap time, at 18:00, but that is nearing, if not, bedtime.

Oh, but there is a problem.  If it starts raining, I'll need to figure out where to put the flattop to griddle meals.  Or just cook indoors?  I don't know, not for sure.  It also depends on how heavy the rain is.  If it pours cats and dogs, for the meantime my back porch roof leaks.  Not like a sieve, but close enough.  Hmm, I could fast today.  I really don't want to do that, but it's... an option.

It was 72, outside, last I looked.  I had closed up the house when I saw it reached about there.  That keeps the cool in.  I don't know, a lot depends on the weather.  Just not sure which way it is going, or how hard it will go in any direction.  Sure looking grim out there.  

Going.

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Why write?  Because it... helps.  Gets things out of my head, and into the real world.  Even if just as electrons.  There is the tactil creation of the electronic form, as well.  But, it does make it real.  Further, it helps me organize, remember, plan.  It's... a wonderful too.  So, I use it.

The laundry was taken out and hung on the line.  Those two loads filled the hundred feet of line I have.  Hmm, there is space for at least one more.  I... may have to set that one up.  And, while doing that, possibly tighten the other lines as, if, needed.  I need more of the devices which keep the lines together, and the clothes up.  Clothes line spreaders, or tensioners... both are common.  Oh?  Done.  Yea, ordered anyway.  And some line tighteners.  I never bought those, because when last I looked, they were going for $24 a set?  Crazy.  At nine a set, sure.  I got three sets.  Should keep me in line for a while.

It was up to 64 when I came in from laundry.  It is mostly cloudy, but a thin cloudiness.  Just... fluff.  Enough to cut the sun by a lot, probably 60 to more like 80 percent overcast.  Still, a rather pleasant day.

I did weigh in.  Unhappy, at 264.2?  Oh well.  And only one meal yesterday, and having done quite a bit of work?  Fine.  I even waited until after a bm, pee, and before showering, while nekked.  Ugh.  The insult!  *grins*  I don't care.  I'm surprised I am even at that weight.  It doesn't make sense, no matter.  So... so what.  Ha.  I'll weigh daily, unless I forget or am having to jump and run for some reason or other.  And, yes... I'll put it in.

Coffee is so very good.

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The towels out on the line.  It was 44?  I think so, out there.  Which actually seemed cold.  Nothing like hanging wet towels in the cool of the morning for it to seem cold though.  Two massive towels, to regular sized towels, three hand towels, or so.  That was a lot of weight, and took up one whole fifty foot run of clothes line.  I have line tenders, which keep the bottom, loaded, line from dragging.  Work well, I need more.

Taking it a bit easier today.  I had quite a lot to do, and did much of it, yesterday.  Today I still have a number of things I want to do.  Already started.  I think the next thing is a shower.  Perhaps on the hour, an half an hour from now.  Then, to allow myself to dry off fully, before dressing.  I really want to have my feet dry, when wearing compression socks.  Which... is daily these days.

After the shower, drying as mentioned.  Then, after drying, and dressing, raking?  That is the goal.  I'll rake until I really can't.  Take an hour or two of a break, then hit it again.  One or two sessions more, it is hoped, through the day.  As well, I'd like to sort some of the wood out back.  I left a load in the wheelbarrow.  So, I need to empty that and the water in it, let all dry.  And, probably, get the angle grinder and a wire brush fitting to work out the rust.  Which means I need paint, probably a spray paint... a primer, then color.  Though, if I am going to do that, I'd like to hit the shovels and rakes, and else.  Just... do the tools all in one shot... even if that shot takes a week to finish?  Yes.

Awake at 5:30?

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Aye.  I added two hours to my wake up alarm, making it a six wakeup.  But, I beat it!  I... love beating the alarm.  I just do.  Good thing I moved it forward, I did need a bit extra rest, and it was too late to go to sleep early!  Though, on some days, that might be possible.

I already reset my alarm for four.  Further, I reset my bedtime alarms back, from 17:00 and 20:00 to 16:00 and 17:00.  Hmm, may change the early one to 15:00.  That just gives me... a bit of a warning.  Oh, and change the times to fifteen after?  Otherwise they just stack on the hourly buzz, and I don't... get the alarm itself.  Yea, I'll do that right now.  Done!  As well, I reset my stopwatch to ten minutes, for when I begin the grill.  Chop, chop, gotta be ready.

Blood sugar tested, first thing.  I was worried it would have gone very high, eating out and all.  But not too bad.  It is 232 fasting, with a week average of 230 and a two week average of 241.  Nothing fancy, but moving in the right direction, and without insulin?  I'm not sure how good it can get, just on food.  I'll find out.

A tough go, but...

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A few more things.  First, I put the swimming trunks in the dryer and got that going.  Then, put the towels, and the rest of the whites in.  After doing that I ran the water in the sink, and checked down on the pipe patch.  Good.  Looks like it's fixed.  I'll do that every other day for a week.  Just... gotta make sure.  Tools will come back up when this is finished.

Vingegar tonic going down, as I write.  Kefir was finished.  Good, very good.  Blood sugar was tested.  It dropped thirteen points, to 197.  Might not be all that far below two hundred, but that is... a point of pride for me.  Eventually, I hope, a hundred will be an often broken number?  We'll see.  Quite pleased.

I am learning, with the watch.  While having the hourly alert, every hour on the hour, helps me keep some pace during the day.  It can be quite a disturbing thing to sense while asleep, then have to sort out.  Same with the alarm for 20:00, meant as an endcap for the day.  If I am asleep, or nearly, when that goes off, it... messes up everything.  Just after falling asleep is the worst time to be awaken.  I... fixed that, tonight.  Both of them.  Should sleep well.

Tired.

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Very tired.  Working, in parts, through the day.  Not all day, but... more of the day than I had hoped?  Sort of.  I mean, I got everything done I hoped to do, but I thought... it wouldn't have been quite so much work.  The pipe fix took a lot more work, effort, if not time, than anticipated.  Same with the swimming gear laundry.

The rest was about what was expected.  It's, just, in the mind, that seems easier, less taxing.  Oh, but it taxed me.  Harshly.  Even so, I did get the laundry going, the pipe fixed, I got to two stores.  Damn, forgot to get the t-shirts in.  Tomorrow?  Maybe.

I did some work on my watch, some through the phone.  I took care of one piece of busines, and am set to take care of another bit of business.  Really, doing pretty good.  Even though it got to 80 out there.  I was able to keep it around 68 in here.  The front room is a lot warmer, at 74.  But the rest of the house is cooler.

One thing I didn't anticipate was having to open up the freezer, or clear the top actually.  That is a bit of work.  But got it done.  the meat won't fit in the fridge-freezer.  And there is far too much to leave in the fridge.  Though, there wouldn't be room for much either, there.  Still, I got it done and piled in.

I need to get to bed shortly.  But I need to cool down first.  Oh, I did have supper out.  The Black Pearl.  Good.  Filling.  I asked for a bit of vinegar, at the end.  At first he brought sugar.  I had a bit of a difficulty, but eventually he understood and brought me a small serving of vinegar.  I added that to my tea, and consumed.  Not sure it would help, but... after returning home, and an hour and a bit after my meal, blood sugar was 210... so twenty six points over what it was earlier.  Not... bad...  That may be a trick when eating out, that really might help.  And, that is the highest point it should be... until I sleep.  It'll go up overnight, until I get it below 150.  Ugh.

Having a bit of kefir.  Which also helps with digestion.  Maybe have another vinegar tonic, before bedtime.  And, check blood sugar again around 18:45, right before bedtime.  I'd like to be in bed now.  But I need to cool off, and get some vinegar plus finish the kefir, then test for blood sugar.

All in all, a very, very, nice day.  Killing me, but well worth it.

Something opened.

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I am just enjoying... the music.  Mostly.

But, a shower, after collecting my swimming trunks.  I didn't realize I had so many.  Mostly hoping some of them fit.  After the shower, I had them ready and set them to wash.  I'd like to go on down, and check the water as it drains, but I am running out of energy.

It's... not just subjective, this time, my running out of energy.  I received a notice from my watch.  It told me to take it easy.  It records "intensity minutes".  It wants me to hit 150 a week.  It... suggests I have hit 204 "intensity minutes" today.  So, yes.  Now, it isn't because I work all that hard?  It's because my body... doesn't do well with even a bit of work.  Oh, and I didn't have the watch on while I was working downstairs.  I didn't want it to get dinged or dented.  So my heaviest workout wasn't even counted.

And, I have more yet to do.  Picking up garlic at the organic store, picking up my meat order at my regular store (and some nuts... walnuts, pecans, almonds, if they have raw and I can afford them), and taking shirts in to be returned.  So be it.  Hmm, and I do need to eat.  But what, or where?  I suppose, being a good boy, I may go on back to the Black Onion.  I really do enjoy.  Though, when I return, I will have half of one of the steaks, grilled, with onion and mushroom?  Something like that.

I best get dressed.  I'll check.  If I ever hear the water drain from the laundry, I'll go check.  Oh... but I could run water down one of the sinks back in the back room.  That might work well.  I'd find out, without having to wait.  I'd just want to pause the machine, so there was no interference.  Yes, I'll do that.  Then go dress, and get on to town.

Pushing it a bit longer.

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It is noon.  I could, as I had suggested, eat.  I could.  Or I could hold off and begin my consumption at 14:00.  Two hours later?  Can I make it?  Oh, I can make it.  Do I want to?  No.  No, and, yet, yes.  So?  So I will wait.  Oh, I want food.  Especially since I have been watching as the hours passed.  Knowing I would get to eat at noon.

No, I'll wait.  And suffer, mostly quietly.  Not only is it a small, and extra, willfull deprivation?  It is going to be offered to God, with gratitude for the opportunity.  A... prayer, given in thanks for the world, another chance, and even the suffering.  I have learned so very much from that.  Grown.  Still as less than a child, but I am... asking He wait up for me, and He is.

On the extra good side?  I won't need to push the fasting clock again.  As well, going to mass won't be a complication with the time, weekday masses that is.  I still am hoping to get to a mass or two each week, as I begin swimming.  Complicated, but... possibly doable.  While out, two birds with one stone.  It's just that getting to both... there is a four hour separation, so I have to figure out what I can do, quietly, for four hours, out of my house!  I... haven't done that in... years.

Okay, I think I have the pipes patched.

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Think, is the operative.  It was a ballbusting task.  Getting the floor jack down there, I thought, was going to be the heavy lifting.  Nope!  Not an easy thing, but not terrible.  The 2x1 worked.  I did have to adjust it, a lot.  Between going to far, and not far enough, using the jack, I finally realized I could move the small beem with my hands, pulling it closer to let the pipe down, pushing away to get the side I needed lifted raised.

Even so, getting the strap in was a nightmare.  Very little space.  I had to switch the 2v battery on the flashlight to the cordless impact drive in order to get the impact driver up to hit the self-tapping bolts I was using.  Oh, but that was half of it.  Getting the rubber piece to fit, and stay one, while jiggling the pipe between way to high and back to base, which was way too low.  Ugh.

It... was problem solving with solid physical exertion thrown in to make the test real.  Real it was.  But, after tinkering, sorting, wrestling, lifting, lowering, moving, the various components involved, I... think I got it.  But, so worn.  We'll see how it goes.  I'll let it sit for while.  Can test when the laundry runs.

To this point, all good.  But I am taking a break.  Oh, I checked the trash bin.  It was emptied at some point.  So I moved that back to it's place.  After the rest, I will get to a shower.  Then start the laundry, for swimming.  If the pipes hold well, no dripping, I'll get the tools and parts up.  Though I'll leave the tub down there, in place under the pipes, just... to make sure.  I'll empty and remove that in a week or so if it keeps proving to be a dry patch.

I also obtained a few new "watch faces" for my digital watch.  Just some things I want to try out.  Including one with a local map, and possibly with connection to weather radar/etc.  That feature costs a few dollars (literally), but might well be worth it?  Hmm, don't really get bad weather here, but... maybe anyway?  I'll think on it... assuming it works as is.  Gotta find out.

No for my break.

Starting in at things.

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Sassy was fed, after I had coffee.  I checked the vinegar and electrolytes.  The ones I use have zero calories... meaning no fat, protein, or carbohydrates.  A few hours later, blood sugar is... exactly the same, 216.  Bleh.  Still, at least it didn't go up.

After those things, I checked the trash.  Had more to take, after clearing the litter box.  I scoop that into a small doubled grocery bag, just so I don't have to take fifteen extra steps to dump it, and risk spillage.  That, I take out weekly, or biweekly in the every other week sense of the word.  When it gets a certain amount of stink, or weight, it goes.  Today was the day.  I am surprised they haven't picked up trash yet.  But, they can arrive any time during the day, as late as, I think, fifteen hundred (the latest I thought I remember them being by) or as early as six.  Not a grief, just an understanding.

After those things, I went looking for the tin snips.  They are just gone.  I have no idea where, I used to have two pairs.  I know where one was.  It is no longer there, and I haven't used it.  Gone.  *shrug*  Then I went to the basement, to measure what length of wood I would need, as a support for the pipe.

Damn but I love the responses.

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Must be the A.I.  Unless... somehow, some she, or several, can still see?

In the order they arrived.  Some of them new.  Some from very long ago.  Some more recent, but... gone otherwise.  Enjoyed.  Because I am a weak man?  Maybe.  Certainly not because I am a simple man.  Tried that.  Lord knows.  But, that's just not what some are allowed to be.  

Odd though, as I quicken, I... become simple?  Simpler.  Time becomes real, and within some of my grasp.  Function, and capacity, ability, improve.  But... living, working with hands, fixing things?  These... are the simple.  I will never, even so, be such a man.  But I can be closer to it.

Yes, the... music.  She speaks to me.  Has to be a woman.  Here... you... see.

Not bad.

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It took two snoozes before I was, mostly, sure I was awake.  I turned off the alarm, with some surety, packed in with hope.  But, yes, finally, I got up.  It was 67 F, near me, 64 in the rest of the room, with windows open and a fan going on high.  Ugh.  Outside temperature, this morning, is 40~41.  Too sleepy to quite be able to pick one, exactly.  Just... in there.

Blood sugar was 216 fasting.  Not perfect, but with a good downward trend again, after messing up, or it just shifting because, or something as such the last day or two.  As mentioned, I am pushing intermittent fasting along, trying that.  I'll see.  But, the goal, today, is to not consume calories until noon.  A few hours later.  

Though, to be honest, I get tired of pushing things, changing things, and such, every day.  Which has been a lot, with several changes, every day, for... a while now.  So, the goal is to live with the first meal at noon for... a few days?  Ugh, unless I can make it to a weekday mass.  But that is... different?  Maybe.

Who is out there?

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Fresh.  You... have it right.  Some lions need no brothers, or... such.  Some do.  I don't.  But... that isn't all, is it.  No.  Do you really know my name?

Later than hoped, but...

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Really wanted to see the after meal blood sugar.  And, had to wait a while.  I had stopped vinegar, for a bit, as it seemed to have stopped working?  Or... something.  I restarted it today, have had two.  One after each meal.  Didn't have kefir today.  Was that it?  Anyway, checked a bit early.

It is down to 192, less than an hour after the meal.  Usually it would have risen the most, in this first hour.  Nice.  Hopefully fasting continues on down, though I have grave doubts.  Still, I take a good number when I can get it.  It's an attaboy, for eating right.  And always a bit of hope.

I didn't get trash out.  I'll just have to get in in the morning, or next week.  Bleh.  Now it's bedtime.  Hopefully I can sleep before it hits 19:00.  Which gives me nine hours, to four.  Yes, on to bed.

Not much.

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Sure got warm.  At least 80?  Ouch.  It's down to 74, outside.  Right at 76 in this the front room.  Which... does get warmer than the rest of the house.  May have to shut it up earlier in the day.  Still, it's been nice, in some ways.  If a little warm, a little fast.  As... usual.  It always seems to do that, just a matter if whether it does that earlier or later in the year.

A second meal was had.  Steak tartare, as planned.  And, it was pretty good.  I feel like it got a bit too much salt.  It wasn't that I added too much salt, just that some of the components were salty to begin with.  So, the combination made it seem too salty.  No salt, next time.

I didn't have peppers, forgot jalapeno, serano, or such.  Tobasco sauce filled in well enough.  I am getting better at making it.  If one of the tricks is to pull the meat out, already cut to size, mostly, out.  Then let it thaw enough to cut it.  Well, and after preparing it, stick it back in the freezer for half an hour, to let it tighten back up.  Yes.  I... think that works well.

A start.

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Coffee.  And painpills.  It took a bit, but, yes, that worked.  And, yes, I was able to drink straight, black, coffee.  It was a bit tight.  But I so like how things are going, I am willing to more than just dip my toes in the water.  I am going in, possibly to over my head.  Fuck it, it's good.  It's right.  If it kills me, it's... dying going in the right direction.  So... sure.

Anyway, I got that all going, in, and down.  It brightens the day.  But, I am so... tired?  Foggy?  Well, not completely.  But my body is trying to go that way.  I am fighting it.  So far neither of the two sides is winning.  I'm in no-man's land, regarding that.

After that, I put dishes away.  Then set up the keto flour, the regular, almond, flour mixture.  She must be tiny.  It looks big in the vid, but it is only about four cups.  That is all that produces.  All good.  I didn't have, or couldn't find, the xanthan gum, so I used psyllium husk powder.  I'll... find or get it before the next batch.  Now I need to look at some of her recipes... for bread, or pancakes, or...  For now, I have keto pancake mix.  But, I... that is dubious.  It is good enough, to use, for now.  But I'd like to know everything that is in it, and know that what is labeled as such is... more likely than just hoping...  mostly... what it says it is.

Ugh.

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Woke up with a knee-buckling headache.  Just for that I stalled getting out of bed, fully waking.  I wasn't ready to face that kind, amount, depth, of pain.  So I didn't.  I wanted to see, as well, what the other button on the alarm was.  I figured it was a snooze.  Only one way to find out.  Yes, a snooze, in ten minute intervals.  I wonder if those intervals can be changed.  This watch is pretty sharp, but any one thing is a potshot.

I... am beginning to love this watch.  Tracking steps, monitoring heartbeat, checking sleep and night oxygen levels.  Alarms, on the fly, as I need or want them.  Altitude, barometer, compass, all checking to point.  That doesn't even include the ability to create routes, from my computer or phone, and send to the watch... with the ability to annotate the maps, for water sources, food sources, alternate (shorter or to town) path points.  I haven't yet tried the latter, but will be soon.

As well, I can pull maps from the company itself, or even other businesses, including the one I recently paid to participate, which has a lot of local trail maps.  The others trail apps didn't have local maps, or that I could see.  Making the choice very simple.  I am hoping to configure the watch for some very simple trails I have been on, on foot or by vehicle (nearby) already.  See how well it does with the known.  Then go on to the unknowns.  The heaviest trail I have been on my lady friend and I crosscountry skied up.  Hufta was that a row to hoe.  Massive elevation climb, but very straightforward.  That... is if I can get in better shape, and later in the summer, or fall?  I'll see.