A start.

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Coffee.  And painpills.  It took a bit, but, yes, that worked.  And, yes, I was able to drink straight, black, coffee.  It was a bit tight.  But I so like how things are going, I am willing to more than just dip my toes in the water.  I am going in, possibly to over my head.  Fuck it, it's good.  It's right.  If it kills me, it's... dying going in the right direction.  So... sure.

Anyway, I got that all going, in, and down.  It brightens the day.  But, I am so... tired?  Foggy?  Well, not completely.  But my body is trying to go that way.  I am fighting it.  So far neither of the two sides is winning.  I'm in no-man's land, regarding that.

After that, I put dishes away.  Then set up the keto flour, the regular, almond, flour mixture.  She must be tiny.  It looks big in the vid, but it is only about four cups.  That is all that produces.  All good.  I didn't have, or couldn't find, the xanthan gum, so I used psyllium husk powder.  I'll... find or get it before the next batch.  Now I need to look at some of her recipes... for bread, or pancakes, or...  For now, I have keto pancake mix.  But, I... that is dubious.  It is good enough, to use, for now.  But I'd like to know everything that is in it, and know that what is labeled as such is... more likely than just hoping...  mostly... what it says it is.

Then I got dressed.  I let my feet and legs dry off after the shower.  Used foot powders and sprays, which also needed time.  Then, finally, got compression hose on, and socks over those.  They say I am not supposed to do that.  I... do.  It works for me.

Strangely, I am hungry?  I haven't been hungry in... weeks?  Definitely a week.  Even only, to date, eating usually just one dose of kefir, two up to a week ago, and four eggs and something something on the side... a few slices of bacon, or two 3 ounce sausages, or corned beef hash, or a mix of those.  Still, only one real meal a day, with lately only one kefir other than that, though with one or two coffees, with a tablespoon of cream.  Hmm...  hungry?  Strange.  And, yes, a physical hunger, not the hunger from habit, the mind, or such.  Very odd.  Blood sugar dropped a bit, to 210.  A twenty two point drop.  Not that means anything.

Hoping to hold out until around ten.  Then I'll start the grill, while sipping two to three glasses of kefir.  The plan is reheated baked potato... fried on the grill.  And a decent amount of fish cooked on the grill.  I have lemon, took a small list to the store, after mass last night.

Oh, right, I did make it out to the store and to mass last night.  I am always grateful when not only is the opportunity available, but the body is able.  You have no idea what sort of gift that is until you live withing a coffin of flesh for a few decades.  Just to be able to realize it is occuring, on the right day, at the right time, and sort out how to be clean, dressed, and npo an hour ahead of the Eucharist.  You have no idea how thin my world can be.  Anyway...  So, yes.

Though, just because I know, and can keep the advisements, it doesn't mean the flesh can make it.  Either because I am crashing, or am simply unable to function more... or even get a shower.  Or once a shower is taken, to get on in.  So weak, sometimes.  So tired.  Brutal.

Anyway.  I do have lemon, fresh onion, no extra garlic if what I have may be enough.  I can make and enjoy not only the fish, but also steak tartare tonight.  Really, beef tartare, but they... usually use sirloin tip, or round, not steak.  So... call it what they call it?  Dunno.  That is the plan, too.  But, no food until ten.  Then I can eat my fill until... 16:00.  Maybe 18:00 if I want to push it.  Especially since I have pushed my eating time so much today.  And, will be increasing it a few hours later in the day for the next few days.

Why though?  I can't be sure.  I think I just want to be more awake when I eat, enjoy it more?  Or it seems more common, among ketoers and carnivores, who do so, to do so in the afternoon.  Is that for typical convenience?  Or... is there something else to it?  Look, if you see success, but you don't fully understand?  Imitate closely, experiment on the side.  See what works for you.  Though, too, by moving the goal posts, I learn to... improvise, adapt, overcome.  I... am no jarhead, but... as with rednecks?  I... wouldn't think it a bad thing.  So, I take that, and attempt to emulate.  Amen.

So, there is that.  Dressed, with coffee and painkillers down and having down their work, a shower taken, Sassy fed twice... even had to go back up to get her treats, if I needed my phone too.  Water being reset.  Litter cleared.  Flour made and stored, if with... an improvisation.  Another hour, after just now, and I can get to a meal.

I'll wait for the meal to be done, then until it digests, then get to the repair downstairs.  The laundry after, or after a break.  Hmm, could set it up, so all I have to do is turn it on, the next time I take a bathroom or other run?  Yea.  Two loads, but I can get one ready.  Probably the synthetics first, lighter so faster.

Well... on to... waking up more.  Hopefully.  It was 52 out, or so, last time I looked.  Staying a bit cooler?  All good.  It's sunny.  I'll enjoy that.  I am hoping it stays in that range this next week.  I'd like to get out and rake.  Probably not the whole thing at once, just quarters at a time.  Then get to mowing.