Not quite.

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About a quarter of the waffles were spot on.  Even the artificial maple syrup was rather tasty.  If I spent a small fortune on it.  I have another one to try.  I assumed the stuff was a tablespoon serving.  It wasn't enough, if these were rather large waffles.  More and more until I must have had a quarter cup!  But... that did it.  I checked.  No, yep... a serving size is... a quarter cup.  All good.

What wasn't spot on varied from better, to worse, on to scrambled eggs.  It wasn't horrible, it just wasn't waffle.  Still, I ate much of it, and was happy with the beginning of a start into more keto type foods.  There are quite a few recipes out there.  And this was a bastardized one.  So...  I won't quit.  I'd like to try one with coconut and almond flower, perhaps one with carbquik.  The other flours which tend to be keto friendly are more filler, not full use flours.

The dishes from cooking are soaking.  I hope, yet, to finish those, or give them all a good beat down with the wash rag and scrub brush, then get a shower.  It would be awesome to finish those dishes, clean off the counter, and get stock out before bedtime.  It is possible.  It is very late, but... yea.  It is what it is and I am getting things done.  Oh, fill the waterers too, if I haven't already.  Litter?  And any final trash out.  Bleh.  I will be the first to know!

Again with the...  Gosh, you've really got some nice toys here.

The waffle maker warms.

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I also got the dishes to wash.  Well, I will have to add a bowl and a few utensils after I finish.  I... mixed and matched recipes.  Mostly just one, only adding xanthan gum.  I do believe that will work out well.  Guar gum, that, phylum husk, and a few others work nearly interchangeably, as long as there is enough moisture.  I had to add water, the mix was far too thick,  It may still be too thick.  Letting it set for ten minutes, while the griddle heats, will let me know.  Fine... just more waffles!  Too many?  A few in the fridge, as buns for burgers or else.  A few in the freezer, for quick meals in the near future.  Ah... the addition of the gum, that would, may yet, require more water.  Cream won't do it.  I doubt if milk will.  Water.

I won't do the soufflés tonight.  I'll put those eggs back in the reefer.  Only out for a few hours, should be good.  Tomorrow.  Onion, cheese, and maybe peperoni?  Who knows, might as well have fun with it.  I should be dead.  Not only will I walk on my grave, I am going to dance, and have a merry time doing so.  Oh, yes, I am enjoying my little, "short", escape from the grave.

Well, there is the timer.  Later.

I am almost sure.

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Well, it's just an AI, playing.  But... I enjoy.

Bits, pieces... a crawl.

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Doing my best, if that isn't much.  I finally got the last dishes, which had been washed and rinsed, dried and set to air finish.  Before that I put up most of the four ounce jars recently purchased.  I kept six out for pate.  I washed all forty, and their lids, dried them, and that was the bottle-neck for the last day or two... on dishes.  As well, I began deciding what to have for sup-runch?  Whatever.

Oh, I got the ducks in, a fresh pail of water, the waterers in, and have that ready to mess with... whenever.  I was feeling weak.  I couldn't figure it out.  Ah... but I did.  Food.  I had kefir for lun-eakfast.  But that simply didn't have enough energy in it, and my body... needed more.  I tried another, but, yea, no.  A couple ounces of mixed nuts?  I am hoping it will work.

I don't want to ruin a real meal by eating too much.  I am hoping to try waffles and that soufflé recipe.  I do have keto syrup.  It is rather old, but it has been unopened, and in the fridge.  That could be good or bad.  The soufflés will be savory, so there is that.  I will try just a bit, on a tiny piece, before possibly ruining the whole breakfast waffle though.  I am sure, if that fails, I can come up with something.  Perhaps a few drops of my favorite sweetener, some berries, and... cream cheese plus milk to give it some flow?  Or just use butter, and have extra tea.

I plan to bag the trash cans, reset litter, take a shower, perhaps shave... today or tomorrow... as works aside.  As well, I would like to get the dishes finished so as to dig out chicken hindquarters, for the pressure cooker, and thaw chicken stock for chicken soup this week.  Winter isn't over, and there is spring, but I best enjoy hot soup while I can handle it.

Ugh.  So odd.  But, I'll keep doing what I can.  Later.

A few things, slowly.

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I am catching up.  Dishes, from spaghetti, are rinsing.  As well, the jars, for kefir, are rinsing.  Further, I had a pot of soup that went bad.  I have been deciding how best to get rid of it.  Trash?  But so much liquid.  Flush?  Bones, and else.  I even did a search or three in various places.  The soup wasn't horrible, quite yet.  But it was pretty awful.

Without anything to guide, I finally had had enough.  I strained the goo through a big colander, into the toilet, then put the remnants into a doubled trash bag.  I tied that up immediately, and took it out.  Then I flushed the toilet, and put just a tiny bit of bleach into the fresh water.  As soon as I finish the rinsing dishes, I will put the instapot pot and the colander into a very hot soapy wash.  It didn't stick, or make much mess.  It just smells rather off still.  That stuff is potent.

I am hoping tomorrow is warm enough that I can open up.  It did get to 45 F out there today, but it just didn't feel like it.  Still, one major ongoing headache handled.  And trash is out as well.  I really need to bag the smaller house bins, and probably get recycling going.  I don't think tomorrow is recycling, but... I still want it out.  Then I can clean more counters.  A never ending job.

As well, I think I will make a few of those egg and cream cheese soufflés.  I will add cheddar, just a bit.  Really, a little cheese does much better than too much.  And too much always seems like just enough.  Fifteen wisps and that is that.  If I had an apple, I'd pare three dime thick pieces into each.  Hmm... I do have frozen fruit?  Cheese and fruit really go well together.

Sam is begging for something.  But she has fresh water, has been fed and treated often, her litter is good, and she has been up all day.  Not sure what that is about?  I'll... baby her a bit.  She doesn't have a long time to live.  Then again... they have been thinking that about me for decades.  Still do.  *wink*  Besides... I do love the bitty.  Or... just treat her, do some dishes, and make something to eat?  

Oh, hey.  Have you ever wanted to make something with chopped boiled eggs, but didn't want to bother with boiling, peeling, chopping, and else?  This... may be your lucky day.  I haven't tried it yet, but plan to soon.  If nothing else, a bit of egg salad would be good from time to time, though with more keto ingredients.  This looks great.  I have never tried boiling eggs in the instapot, didn't trust that.  This though?  Yeah, I could try this.

I keep wondering.

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Now, I know sourdough isn't good for diabetics.  Check.  But, that is using certain, often white, flour.  Unbleached makes little difference.  Whole wheat does, but... it is a bit heavy on it's own.  Flax, coconut, almond, and a few other flours might work?  Imagine, say, a coconut flour bread, leavened with einkorn sourdough.  Get it?  Why no experiments in that area.

A weird last few mornings.

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No pain, if no energy.  No focus, weak memory, and odd fogginess.  A will to work, but that gets completely swamped with a lack of anything else that has to accompany it to create success.  I do very little bits, then find myself sitting, reading small bits or trifles, looking at yt for anything new... or old.  I am worn.  I did a good bit of work this last week.  Toward the last of the week I started to founder.

I am still doing small bits.  I put the dishes in from yesterday.  And redid them this "morning".  Milk had arrived, so I reset kefir, mostly.  I used a clean jar, and took two jars out of circulation... putting them to a soapy soak.  After which, if the hot soapy water doesn't clean them well enough (as it often doesn't), I will use some of that beer and wine makers jar cleaner.  That does miracles for stuck on stuff, at least with glass.

I am still waiting for the waterers to heat up, but I did let the ducks out, and went ahead and fed the rabbits.  Not so much because they are all that hungry, usually, first thing.  But this morning they actually were.  Though they did have their waterers out overnight, and they were still flowing this morning, so... it's... not too bad for them.  If they ran out, it was just shortly ago.  As well, I opened the tarps up, so they can enjoy the day.  I will continue to close them up at night, until the winds stop coming through.  I don't want them to freeze.

Little things.  I want to find more of my cooking tools, and get those cleaning.  As well, clean the bathroom, get a shower, and do the last of the laundry... if now I might have a small load of other laundry.  Once the bathroom is clean, then back to the kitchen.  Though getting down to the table, and finding ingredients in there, can be an ongoing project.  Plus, collecting and breaking down boxes generally would be a good thing.

I generally shop at amazon, if their prices are right, because I simply can't get out as often as I would like.  And, some stores, especially national chains, sometimes try to force masks... even though they aren't supposed to do so.  Even though... they are... depends on which level of government one depends upon.  Anyway...  rather than fuss, I go to amazon.  All I suggest, if you do that for whatever reason, make sure you check prices.  They sometimes gouge extremely badly.  Though, if it can be found nowhere else, like canning jars?  It's... a sellers market.  How badly do you want or need the item(s)?

As well, amazon is the only place I can find certain foods, and source from America.  Oh, my store may carry coconut flour, say?  But it's from China, Bangladesh, or Vietnam.  No thank you.  I have become rather particular.  I don't want organic, that is a fools lie.  I don't want whatever is new or popular, but will try keto variances (of one ingredient).  I avoid anything that is labeled as keto but is fried in soy oil?  Really?  Or has ten ingredients of chemical which seem to have nothing to do with food.  Or even uses solid keto ingredients but in ways they really aren't meant to be used.  Fillers?

So, yes, part of my grocery shopping has gone online, because I can't trust my local store to provide true keto foods, purer ingredient options, and such.  Nothing personal.  Most sheep just buy "keto" stuff without having a clue what they are really getting.  Be with the herd, when possible.  Use it to help lower prices, but... don't follow it.  Women who buy "organic", or "keto", or "paleo", because of sticker... paying a premium for an obvious fraud, are not helping.  Vote with your dollars.  Better food.  Though, mostly,  better food is fresh, single ingredient.  But that isn't absolutely and always possible.  I get that too.  Just... don't spend money on "organic" products you can clearly see are unhealthy.  Just buy junk if you are going to buy junk.  It is absolutely plentiful and generally very cheap.  Save your money for the gym.  :p

Anyway... so, yea, boxes.  Boxes and boxes of boxes.  I really need to get on those.  And I need to start sorting.  I've been pushing toward that this whole week, but had so many other things to do... still do to a lessor degree.  But, soon, maybe this week?  Boxes, and upkeep, and cooking, and showering, and bills, and shopping, and sorting, and chores, and... it's... a lot.  A one man band with a single armed star or somesuch.  Later.

Nothing more.

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And it is well past bedtime.  The wind has picked back up.  But the temperature hasn't dropped below 35 since I last checked.  Odd, but... good.  The rabbits are covered, ducks in.  The waterers are out, more because I am too tired to get them.  If it doesn't freeze, or hard, they will have water early... or shortly after it begins to warm.

No food, no this, no that.  And it's bedtime.  There is tomorrow.  Good night.

Rabbits, ducks, and cats, oh my.

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Every "one" is tended.  I will get litter, again, probably as I am working on getting refuse together, bagged, and out.  All seem in good spirits.  Theseus, my youngest drake, had been in sour... more sad... spirits for quite some time.  This last week he has been in a slightly better mood.  No, not slightly.  I'd say he has been rather, almost, giddy.

I found out why.  It seems he has figured out how to get a hen to be with him from time to time.  Honestly, I think Henry, the indian runner drake, is helping.  How and why?  They why is to keep Theseus off Henry's hens.  The how is by picking a fight with Herc and doing a run and peck to get Herc's attention.  That gives Theseus just enough time to... do a round or two.  This morning, he was riding Penguin Girl quite vigorously.  Henry was doing his best, if I helped a bit myself.  Herc must have figured it out, so he was heading back.  I just stood at the hutch door and that was enough to dissuade Herc from breaking it up.  I do need a few more hens.  Enough that Herc isn't so bothered by a... second rider.  He wears out fairly well, even with three.  Three or four more, so to have a brooder I can get eggs in for.  Bleh.  I'd like to get meat birds going, these are the breeding stock... if they would stop eating their own eggs.  Gah!

I have been looking for the other kitchen implements.  I haven't found more.  Didn't look too awfully close.  I was beginning to crash, then did crash pretty quickly after that last post.  The only reason I didn't crash immediately was because I was stubbornly holding on to the hope that more work could yet be done.  No such luck.  I held on for, perhaps an hour, maybe too, drifting into insomnia.  I had to call it, or I would have drifted all night.

Hoping for more tool finding and cleaning, and a bit more today.  Those tools really help.  It's just a matter of keeping them clean.  The best bet is to clean them immediately.  Ugh.  I am getting tired again.  I may take a nap shortly, if I can't get to work in a few hours.  Later.

Clear and clean as a whistle.

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At 45 F, or so, and clear, it is a very good afternoon.  No snow arrived, I don't think wind picked up... no debris to be seen.  Or it just stayed light.  Still, that is cooler than it has been.  Even so, for at least this weekend, I am keeping the rabbits under raps, just in case a weird rain or snow, with frigid temps, blows through.  I... don't trust it.  I wonder if Colorado is being hit?

The ducks have been released, their feed put out and watered.  The rabbits have at least been opened up to the sun and fun.  Oh, I best turn up the furnace.  Not as warm, anymore.  I'm thinking 70 should be enough?  Meh, I'll do 72 until it warms again.  If it gets to the 60's, I'll keep the furnace at 66 just in case, and won't heat the waterers anymore.  Once it hits 70, I won't bother with the furnace, of course.

I am beginning to look for the biggest ac unit which runs on 120.  I'm hoping to put that in the spare bedroom window, and have a fan pushing or pulling it out.  Plus the two ac's upstairs, but with the overhead shady branch gone, I am hoping that will... do.  If I win ssd back, I'll begin planning a new furnace and house ac... with humidifier (though hopefully one I can turn on and off).  Plus, a new electrical, with subpanels in the garage and maybe a small one in the nearest outbuilding.  I'd like one in each outbuilding, but those will be for another year.  It's a big if, one I don't count on.  Still...

Oh?  I finally used the bullet blender to make a kefir and fruit mix.  The kefir isn't very chunky, so... it was good enough.  I really like the fruit mashed in.  I think, if t he kefir is thicker and chunkier, I may blend the fruit with just a bit of the kefir... or blend the bulk of the kefir very slightly after truly mashing the fruit... will have to work that out.  But I think I am onto something.  Oh, I like the kefir natural flavor.  I tried it with a touch of vanilla last night.  That almost removed the raw kefir/yogurt style taste I have really learned to lover.  I will not add vanilla.  But if you don't like kefir/yogurt raw flavor?  Vanilla, or other extracts etcetera might be for you.

Today?  I... don't know.  A shower, more dishes, the rest of the laundry.  Maybe some work outside?  Perhaps... some other things.  I just... I don't know.  I was wearing down yesterday.  And it is rather cool today.  Trash set up?  So many things to do, but the list is shrinking... or at the easy, or already considered so plotted and planned, lists.  Tearing down boxes, sorting things out and beginning to consolidate and store boxes?  Cleaning the storage area for better food storage downstairs?  So many options, but they end up being huge jobs.  Still... yes... thinking.  Probably just the easy, and a beginning on one of those bigger, over-time, jobs.  I... I am thinking I am back.  Later.

The wind is up, things are... possibly happening.

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It was at 30 F, when I put the ducks in and brought in waterers, while fetching water.  I decided, however, with the wind, and recently warmer weather, to cover the rabbits.  I don't want them going into shock, getting sick, or even dying.  The one advantage of having at least two to a cage is, when it gets cold, they can huddle... and do.  I may, in the winter, bundle them in colder weather.  Small groups, but, yeah.  With enough room, they may do well enough together?

I did dream of two to three feet.  If it looks like, should that happen, it will be in Colorado.  Time will tell.  While I think we could use precip, I'm not sure two to three feet, at once, only to thaw almost immediately, would be fun.  Then again, maybe they could manage it.  I'm not sure what their limits are out here.  I just know everybody has them.

I am looking for other tools with which to more easily produce keto foods, batters, and drinks.  I found a bullet type blender.  I should have a mini processor somewhere, and a larger if mid-quality food processor.  I have a stick blender, and actually another with more parts to it.  All need cleaned and reset.  Finding a home for each, and a good place to use them, is going to be a trick.  Still, I may get to that yet tonight.

I did do a trim, of whiskers.  I have cleaned all the dishes and then some which were ready.  Most are still air drying.  I would like to get a shower as well.  Plus, I plan on making a cheese cake tonight... double that recipe, giver or take.  She used 140 grams, but the packages arrive in 225 grams, or something... so not quite double.  And I will bake it, if I'm not sure how long?  I would guess eight to fifteen minutes at 350.  I have an idea of what "done" looks and acts like, so... there is a chance.  I'll just start checking at the low end, then every two minutes.  I'll add frozen berries.  If it's too rich, I'll just eat half.

I've also been thinking, a cheese cake doesn't always have to be sweet.  Add, say, tuna, mackerel, or canned salmon... perhaps a few capers and gherkins and or other sich.  Dill would be a great herb, perhaps thyme, rosemary, sage, or a few others.  Not too many, one or two of those.  I'd think chilled would be best, the flavors would be more muted.  At least for a try.  Still, if that went well, in colder weather, that warm would make a wonderful potential light meal or side dish.  Yea, it's... how I think.  *wink*  With my stomach.  Always.  Gratefully, I rarely actually get to fill it.  And, now, on keto, I'm not... even interested, in fact... only of curiosity... or of the mind.

Well, I am warming the eggs a bit.  The cream cheese is in the bullet blender.  I should get to it.  Oh, and while at it, I'll blend some kefir.  Make it smooth rather than chunky.  I thought about adding berries to it, but only one berry dish per day, really... mostly.  Later.  Or good night if I fall and fail.  Sleep well, dream well, wake well, then get to it. 

Slow.

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I did get all of the dishes, finally, finished.  Well, some is put up, some is air drying.  Plus, I sanitized then washed my waffle maker.  I purchased it shortly before I found keto, give or take.  And, while I haven't, exactly, puritanically, been living keto, I have been doing my best.  Plus, I never quite got into making waffles.  Besides cats not being kind to it, it sat for a long time.

Trust?

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You?  Me?  Each other?  I don't trust my own, whichever that may be.  I don't trust others.  It's just the way it is.  My faith is in God, not even in myself.  And, yet, I have to start somewhere.  So?  So I trust you at face value until you prove that isn't possible.  Even then, I won't hate you.  I just won't trust you.  Your failure isn't mine.  Even if you steal me blind, you have truly only hurt yourself.

Finally!

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I have been calling ssa every few days this week.  Either I got canceled, or ran out of time on my end, and just... backed off.  Finally, today, I contacted a very helpful employee.  I discussed my problems, and he offered some advice.  Too late today, to act, but he assured me I have a legitimate case and should fight for it.  Just to keep trying.

He said lawyers shouldn't need the paperwork, but he is sending it... trying to send it.  They put requests in to office workers who are hit and miss about sending out the paperwork.  So, Monday, I'll get right at it.  So tired, just from... getting through, and... seeing a possibility of hope.  I may have to take a nap just from that.  I don't know.  I don't want to nap though!

I did another quarter of the batch of dishes from last night.  I'll get the rest soon, unless I crash.  A trim before that.  A shower as soon after those as possible.  And, then the final load of laundry.  Oh, I have to get to chores!  I've... lost track.  The stress, just leading to it.  But the... relief of hope after, were exceedingly potent.  I... I couldn't think.  I am just glad I was able to make the call.

Ugh.  Later.

A sort of good sleep.

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A very slightly rough morning.  More from work yesterday, I think.  Well, and stretching the day.  It isn't a matter, necessarily, of the hours.  But hours and work, and over days.  It all adds up.  My body can't work consistently, without a price, and even then only for a short time.  Then I wind down, my body begins to ache, and I run out of steam.

So many things, if smaller things, were done yesterday, and through the week.  Dishes, laundry, picking up, cooking, chores, the girls, showering...  It all adds up.  Now I am a tired mess.  Even so, I am hoping to finish the dishes which remain, get a shower in, then finish the last load of laundry.  Of course, that means the start of the next load of laundry, with my clothes to be changed, but I can live with that.

Other than chores, that will pretty much be it today.  And, tomorrow, it will be a light load.

I have a plan for upstairs, and clothing.  I may begin packing clothes away.  Slowly, as they are being washed in small batches in the future, I will be folding some and putting them aside.  Cutting my active wardrobe down to a manageable size.  The rest folded, sorted, and stored.  If I need more, that's easy enough.  If I need special, better, clothes, that shouldn't be a problem.

Then again, for my better clothes, I believe I will put them on hangers, then in sealed hanging garment bags.  As well, my better and winter coats.  The rest will be put in those large ziploc type bags, or other such.  Technically I could use some of the larger industrial garbage bags, as they don't have pesticides.  But I think the plastic would eventually create it's own odors.  Then again, will the ziplocs?  Maybe not, different plastic, meant for longer term storage.  

Who knows, at some point, I may get rid of some smaller or larger chunk of my wardrobe.  I have way too much... I buy new when needed, but almost never toss.  I'll keep out mostly the more worn, if beginning to toss the heavily warn... or create a rag bag.  I... hate to lose clothes... mostly comfy old t-shirts.  And, really, I rarely wear clothes down.  My oldest functioning jeans look better than the torn stuff off some shelves... or even the mechanically worn.  Heck, the worst my clothes generally have is some fading... though... perhaps spotting on shirt.

I can't get rid of old spots.  I have been doing a lot to get spots out, immediately, these days.  But the old spots are there to stay.  Tried my heart out, they just won't go.  That may be a way to pare down.

Ugh, so tired!  Still, waterers are warming.  Chores, then some sort of lunch, a reset of dishes... unless I need a nap.  A few other things... or a nap.  Argh!  Can't stop yawning!  Later.

I have done what I could.

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The dishes set up were done, dried, set to air dry.  then another two small groups were put to soak.  I had really hoped to finish those, so as to get a shower in, and then finish... or start... the last load of laundry.  Too weary.  Perhaps even too tired.  Even so, it was a good night.  I did a quarter of those last dishes.  And I have been cleaning and clearing in very small areas and short periods of work.

It is well past time to get to bed, as there is nothing else to be done tonight.  I would like a bit to eat though.  I am simply not sure what.  I am almost too tired to think it through, but I would like to figure something out.  I have been working at eating a bit every three to five hours.  Currently, it isn't absolutely out of a pure animal hunger.  It is more trying to keep my macros... fats, protein, and carbs, on some sort of even keel.

Well, and, I do need to eat.  No doubt.  Further, another part of trying to eat regularly and well, is to begin aiming at intermittent fasting.  Why?  Well... if I eat enough, even to boredom, which happens quickly on keto, then it is easier to begin intermittent fasting.  It's a bit of a trick.  Strange that the hard way is the easy way, if you do it correctly.  The only problem with the whole schtick?  It... gets terribly boring.

I still think boredom is the root of as much sin as is the greed for gold.  Very odd that way, but I think true.  Gluttony is a sin, if the truth is, without a woman to run the home... even sometimes with one especially in these modern times, gluttony is how things end.  Even, technically, not working (my disability, to a degree, IS my work... it's what I do, or what causes me to not be able to be employed), I have a great deal of difficulty sorting out food.

It really takes a professional, conscientious, housewife.  Men cannot do these things.  It's... just the truth.  I am beginning to get better at it, but I will never be able to shop, clean, cook, manage the fridge, pantry, other stocks, and else.  It's beyond me.  Especially a healthy, which for me is keto, diet.  I... can do well, mostly, usually.  But... so much slippage, mistakes, waste.

Anyway.  I will figure something out.  Even a can of sardines, kefir, and tea?  If that's what is there.

Good night.

A devil, they say?

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But not the devil they know?

Or...

A very strange accusation.

Worth a grin.  Oh, I think I know who.  You would never guess it.  Though, it might be more than one?

So strange.  Music at yt has been tied up, dried out, and dead for quite some time.  Recently, patterns galore.

Patterns to be sure.

The problem is, I see too.

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More was already programmed, for later.  Still is.  More has arrived.  I am... trying to keep up.

Someone not only sees, but knows how to make contact.  While I can see, I have... limits.

A bit more, and now even more.

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Work, that is.  Dishes were reset.  I will probably go, rinse them in hot water, then dry them... all of them, if I'll rinse in batches.  A trim before doin that.  A shower after.  Then more dishes in for a wash.  As well, I hope to get trash sorted, and recycling.  I mostly just need to get bags in the barrels.  Oh, I might as well... wait... I won't wash laundry, as whites are the next, and I will be putting the towel I use for the shower in.  Then, I think, everything will be washed.

I had a meal.  An odd one, but it worked.  An ounce and an half of mixed nuts, four slices of munster cheese, and three cups of kefir.  A... admittedly... strange meal.  But it worked really well.  I suppose, though, after dinner, I'll have some of the burger crumble, spiced a bit warmer with the carolina reaper and a potpourri of else, with cheddar and... I think I am out of sour cream.  I'll have to check the salsa and guac.  It should be quite good.

It is nearing time to put the birds up.  But they won't go if they aren't feeling it.  I'm pretty sure the waterers are still flowing, so I will let those alone until later.  I refreshed the girls' water twice today, so that won't be bothered about.  Hmm... always little things to be done between here and there.  I think the food is helping get me to a place where work is more likely.  So far behind, in so many places and areas, but it starts where it does.  Goes as long and well as it can.

Someone has been digging, looking, viewing, and thinking.  They have found things from very far back.  It's like they are trying to put something together, a collage, of me, for me?  Or... for someone else?  But I am seeing it.  It isn't showing up in all ways.  But there are clues, here, and there.  I do see.  But it is beyond what my eyes see.  I sense it.  I don't always like it, or approve.  I'm not always ready to face... what was back there.  But... so be it.

I am not absolutely sure how they are hiding their more direct tracks.  I would guess they have a copy, offline, perhaps including the music?  Or... some of it.  I'm not a techy.  I'm not even sure that is possible (or I might consider doing it).  That is... just... what my mind says... or suspects... and suggests to me is happening.  Someone showing someone else, or several others, around.

Yes, I... see you, in a way.  Fourth wall?  Be careful with the fifth wall.  That is me seeing you look me over through your eyes.  I... already do some of that.  Later.

A bit of everything.

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Chores, to laundry, dishes to feeding the cats, little bits of extra here and there.  Not fast, not a lot at once, but... something now and then.  And a few things arrived.

Getting into keto takes a bit of practice, money, experience, data, and trial and error.  I ordered a few items, in order to cook or snack better.  I do have a plentitude of various nuts, but those aren't a daily thing.  And the volume is limited.  Still, those are a start, for when I get hangry in a hurry.  Otherwise I stupid eat.  Anything easy and ugly, as long as it is fast, and sometimes warm.  This time, kalamata olives.  A big jar of them, actually from Greece.

I am sampling a first go at them.  Yes, I chose well.  I haven't, yet, portioned out a serving by mass.  I need to do that, as with nuts.  Perhaps get an eyeball on general volume too.  I try to measure things out, to know a serving size.  Which... I then sample for a while.  I know, however, that "serving size" is... or last I heard... was based on the modern "dietary" needs of a 53 year old, 120 pound, post-menopausal woman.  Which... means... it has absolutely nothing to do with a middle aged man at 6'5" plus at 280 pounds.  Hmm...

Anyway, it is a starting place.  I then consider calories, my diet wants and needs, my preferences, and come up with a portion that is more realistic.  Then I begin scaling that and getting an eye spot for that portion, then... after a bit... I just eyeball it.  Sometimes higher, sometimes lower, depending on perceived needs.  Though, I think, from now on, if I seem sated?  I'll either put the remnants up for later, put them back (like for nuts), or toss them.  I need to stop that grazing instinct.  I'm not a sheep or bull.

On to a bit more work.  I really think I might end up with dishes (those loaded) done, laundry through to being dried, the vacuum upstairs and maybe a bit of that cleared, and a few other things.  So much to do.  It has, again, started being done.  Perhaps tearing down boxes tonight, and getting some ready to go just as is.  And, again, looking for bailing wire.  I hate to buy more, being sure there is a lot of it around somewhere.  Still, if I can't find it by the time I am out next time, I will have to buy some.  Later.