Something is just off, rough.

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I turned the ac off, as I went to bed.  Upstairs and down.  Even the fans were turned off most places, except upstairs.  It was 75 when I woke up, upstairs, and down.  If 77 up front here.  Still, that is comfortable enough.  I turned the ac on upstairs.  And may, in time, turn the ac on down here.

Feeling just a bit ill, and still tired.  Even so, I wanted to wake up for a while.  To post a blog, see who else has posted whatever it is they might.  See about the few news sites I offer some very limited credence.  None of them are good with details, but sometimes they can put out the more simple, basic, idea of what is happening here or there.

So very tired again already.

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Why?  I can't say.  I have had coffee.  Though that sometimes can cause exhaustion itself?  Seems to, though not always?  I don't understand, not fully.

I shut the ac off, downstairs.  Upstairs was turned back on as I left.  If I go back to sleep, I will probably just leave that on.  Fans are off, too.  Reasonably cool this morning, 57 or 60 the last time I looked.

Quite a few tunes...

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This first one just caught my eye.  Most like it, presented in this way, are pure garbage.  I toss them after a very short attempt at a listen.  This one... was pretty good.  It presents as I sometimes prefer.  Sounds pretty good.  So, yes, I'll share out this one.  It's a... niche taste.  I understand.

When to bed?

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I can't be absolutely certain.  Not even roughly so?  My final post was at 20:28, but that is when I started it.  It... took a bit to get it written, edited to the point I do that, vids chosen, curated, and placed.  And, I... usually can't go right to sleep.  An idea expose sort of... invigorates.  I have to come down from them.  Usually.  So, perhaps, 21:30 at the latest?

Ah, fireworks had started going off, and probably sounded off for an half hour before going up?  Which means sundown.  We have a special state-like 4th of July, but coming up.  And, fireworks are allowed a few days before and after.  That is why the fireworks.  Quite the thing.  If you like fireworks, to a degree, this is one of the better places to live.

What... dreams?

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But... I have the sense they are not mine.

Who, out there, was touching my mind?  Do they know what they did?

10:30

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I just couldn't sleep.  Too warm?  And cold.  Odd.  Upstairs, under the covers, I was freezing?  No, I had turned the ac off.  I left the fan on is all.  I hadn't opened up.  It didn't matter.  Very strange.

Down here it has been 75, mostly.  Outside it got down to 57 or so, this morning, the lowest I saw it.  It stayed 70 upstairs, even with the ac off for hours, remained that until I quite trying to sleep after four hours?  Ugh.  Felt like the cold of death, which is part of the reason I had food.  Not so much out of hunger, just a... sense of something wrong?  Off?

I am hoping to get to bed shortly.  A strange night for music, and else.  What is about to happen?  Darkness wishes to consume.  I'm not sure from whence that comes, or which side it attacks from?  Which sides.  The forms it takes are not as they would seem.  The truth is, many who would seem allies aren't, and the enemies are working with many who present as "us".  Believe nothing you see, don't just take what you are told, either by "friends" or enemies.  They are far too often the same.

I'm not feeling well.  Not sure why.  I may have to change a few things up.  Though, there may be nothing to do for it.  Something is very strange.  Here, there, everywhere.  Even in my home.  Later, or more likely goodnight... or as close to that as I get.  Have a great day.

Why?

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A bit of rest.  Not much, not long.  No sleep, I think?

Hungry.  So, I got up and ate.  Polish sausages, and 'better' bread.  Bread with a carb to fiber ratio of 3:1, with no added sugar (if the labels can be trusted, believed).  As well, a fatted coffee.  I may eat more.  Fry burger, add carolina reaper, salt, pepper, cayenne, and regular hot pepper flecks.  Putting that on lettuce, perhaps with sour cream.

Hungry?

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Yes and no?  I don't feel hunger pangs, as such.  It is more as if my body is telling me food would be acceptable.  Not required, just... passing a note suggesting food would be acceptable.  Initially, as I learned to fast, I would just take the "note".  Leaving it there.  At this time, I sort of infer, back to my body, that we won't be eating today, or tomorrow.

Can I really talk to my body?  Not, verbally?  But I think I can inform it, in some way.  I do make the attempt.  Does it matter?  I can't say, exactly.  One might think the body would just know.  But I don't think it does.  It is me, right?  Well, yes, and no.  It is a part of me.  But not a mindful part of me.  That is the brain, and the heart (if that is separate from the brain, in truth).

A very long nap.

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No real idea when I went down?  I thought, maybe, around 15:30.  But that would have been the absolute latest.  Had been thinking of just a nap.  No coffee today, and... else.  I may not have done much lately.  But I have had several appointments and engagements, which I have been keeping up on.  Up here at about 19:30.

It is down to 73 outside?  Already?  A storm moved in.  Or... is... teasing.  Cloud cover, if lighter of nature.  Could still gather to a rain, or not.  A bit early in the year for that, but this is a cooler year, so given the category of the year, not completely out of character for it.

I did get up before noon!

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Oh, I heard the eight alarm.  Was almost sure I had this one.  Then... kept hitting the snooze.  The only thing I could get to move was the arm.  Then I was sure, though, when the ten went off, I'd have that.  Nope.  Sleep clobbered me so that I only ever heard one or two of the alarms.  Must have slept right through snoozing the hour away.  Still, eleven thirty beats fifteen thirty!

It is 84 out there today, but 72 upstairs, 74 downstairs pretty much everywhere.  I had everything open, shutting it all down when I got down here.  Well, shutting some things down.  Oddly, keeping some windows open really does help keep the place cooler.  I don't fully understand, but I'll take it.  Doors, and a certain window, have to be shut or heat pours in.

So late.

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Had meant to be to bed by 22:30 or so.  Here it is, 02:01, as I sit and right.  Ah, it's still 77 up front.  If in part because I am still here, the computer is on, and the router is pumping out heat.  Oh, it's not uncomfortable.  It's pleasant, really.  And about as warm as it has been since... noon?  Or... whenever I woke up anyway, give or take.  Maybe not immediately, but... before long.

Steak, fatted coffees, and water.  But... it doesn't seem to be working.  So I went looking for a meal tracker.  I found one I am going to try.  They tried to force me to sign up.  Which I wasn't going to do.  At $40 a year?  For an app that really doesn't do that much, other than spy?  Something I could do with pen and paper?  No.

Awake for a while now.

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I woke up around 15:00 to 15:30?  More middling in there, I think.  Meant to check the temp out there, but never did.  Still haven't.  Probably won't.  Just don't want to, at this point.  Nearing 19:00, I have just been drifting.

My mother called.  I had a lot to tell her, about things going on.  I asked about family and friends from back there.  Everyone seems to be still kicking, and doing as well as they can.  She is doing well, a few concerns.  I'll add them to my prayer list.  One of our fellows was in an accident.  I continue prayers for him, his friend, the others involved, and family.  Always other concerns, specific and general.

Still awake.

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Why?  I have been thinking about that.  I suspect because life is... too comfortable.  With the ac's running, and fans just so, and such?  I am too comfortable to exhaust myself.  And, yet, still too worn from recent efforts to quite be able to push through, do more, and cause myself to trip into weariness.

I will get to sleep before long.  And rest well.  If, too, I may have to go a bit off schedule.  Days will become nights, and food will be off, as with medicine.  Everything is about to do summersaults because... things went from becoming far too hot to becoming extremely pleasant in a period of two days.  My system will have to adjust.

I made it!

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Had a men's meeting tonight.  I had... forgotten.  Woke a bit late.  Not too late.  My phone, this time, hadn't lost the schedule.  So let me know the meeting was tonight, and when.  I had to shower, and skip on, pretty quickly.  I like to be slightly earlier, but not always is that possible.  Still, I was an quarter hour early.

Went in, and on to things.  There is starting to be more folk showing up.  I think there were seven members, and two others.  Not sure if the two others are higher ups, joining, or doing a looksee.  Typical of meetings I have attended, with a new group leader.  Several things coming up, things on the agenda, business and plans for events.  Making money, spending money, though sometimes just doing/being/and else.

What a sleep!

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Some yesterday, a lot today.  Just waking at 14:30 or so.  Fed the furry girl, refreshed her water.  Brushed my teeth then set the alarm for an half hour, after which I will start water heating for coffee.  And check the litter box.  I think she left a few gifts.

Yes, when my teeth are this nice, it's easier to brush, and keep up on that.  It's still amazing that, after decades of heavy drinking of coca-cola, coffee, tea, and lots of sugar, plus high carbs, that the last cavity was in '93.  And, I did have the start of one or two?  They said those would not improve.  They are gone.  I... do what they say can't be done.  Oh, and I stopped brushing my teeth by then, and really... didn't brush until... four or five years ago, if even just occasionally then.  No, you really couldn't tell by looking.

Way late.

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I just got lost in the night.  I set the ozone machine going.  Then... dithered about whether to go on to bed, or wait for it to do it's job.  I ended up staying up.  Then resetting it for another run.  Hmm...  Okay.  I'll check it in a bit.  One thing I'm not sure about is if this is a problem for gas furnaces?  Well, my furnace isn't running, but the pilot light is always lit.

While I was giving the second run a go, I decided to make the 'keto pancakes'.  I set the eggs out, in warm water to get them warmed.  As well, putting in a block of cream cheese so that it would be easy to blend.  Not... sure where the blender parts are.  So I used a mixer bowl that came with the blender.  A mini-food processor.  Worked well enough.

Things.

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I started out by setting up the ozone machine, in the suv.  It is on a timer, set for three hours.  Will see how it works.  The windows are mostly closed.  It is in the garage.  The garage door is open slightly, at the bottom (of course?).  Hoping it helps both the vehicle and the garage.  Will see.

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It was down to 74, last time I checked.  Outdoors.  It is 72 in the main room, was 82 in this front room.  Which is partially shut off, though there is a barrier of sorts in any case.  Air doesn't flow from the main to here, or vise versa, easily.  I decided to open the front door, see if that would help.  It's down to 80.  In the last half hour?  Hoping for more, but... maybe not.  Upstairs is probably remaining in the 73/75 zone.  While I won't turn off the ac up there, I will turn off a second fan.  That seems to help in the day.

I have tried to shut it off.  But, remember, and was reminded, that doesn't work.  It just takes far too long to cool the zone up there.  So that I end up sleeping warmer than I would like.  No, I'll... just... keep that going.  If the nights cool off to even fifty, I'll open things up, shut things down, and use fans.  Otherwise, no.  I'll... just keep it cooler.

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I did get the steak cooked.  And had another fatted coffee.  Wonderful.  Blood sugar is 135?  Stupid.  I am doing everything right, even skipping fast food temptations.  Very annoying, when I'm doing everything correctly.  Oh well.  I'll keep at it.  May have to quit the sweeteners.  Even cut down on fatted coffee too?

Half of a thick cut ribeye is about ~702 calories.  A cup of whole cream is about ~809 calories, with the goal being 1,800 to 2K calories...  That leaves three hundred to five hundred calories for another fatted coffee.  No, I am doing things right.  I... just had to redo the calcs.  Hmm...  I am not losing weight.  I may have to cut out that last three to five hundred calories.  Or measure things exactly?  Annoying.

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Speaking with the dental hygienist, she suggested an electric toothbrush.  I had some qualms, and asked several questions.  Her answers got me to considering, reconsidering, the matter.  The brands she suggested have a limiter, so that I wouldn't overdo.  She said.

So, tonight, after things were managed, and time was more open, I decided to review the brands she recommended.  Found one that would work.  Found some with apps.  No.  NO!  Get those f'ing things out of my ao.  Apps are notoriously insecure, both inside and outside of the company.  They steal, and use, your data however they like.  Clear your personals?  Want to bet?  Go get another jab, joker.  *sigh*  No.  NO!

I did find one that didn't require an app, and didn't have one installed, or possible.  Not that... the device can truly be considered secure, these days.  Whether it listens to you, and sends... collects general data... or else.  The nice thing about a stone house is it... isn't friendly to almost any transmissions.  Nice...  Though... even this isn't perfectly safe, just... a bit better.

I was having trouble finding replacement heads.  Won't buy if those aren't available.  Finally found those, and so ordered a few.  Hoping the main unit will last two to four years, so bought enough for between those periods.  As well, ordered the base.  Will see if it works as they say.

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I asked about whitening processes.  I expected $600 or even much higher.  The last time I checked, that was bogus expensive.  A different city and state, but still.  They must have decided two a year, or forty a year, thin choices.  It seems not so much.  I have... expenses, right now.  So can't get in too soon.  But, at that price, I may try to store up and get that going in the next two to four months?  Or so.

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Ugh.  I think it is about bedtime.  I am deciding how to set things up, through the night.  Will set the alarms for a bit earlier.  Am still hungry, so may have some yogurt and fruit, even if it will blast my blood sugar.  It's being a sh*t anyway.  So... might as well have something I like.  Bah!

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Oh, I also did get to the store, if I didn't mention it.  Now, with cream cheese, lemon, raw cream, and sour cream, I should be able to mix up a batch of cheesecake, and those, what I call, keto (or even carnivore) pancakes?  Oh, yes.  I think so.  Best get on it, before anything goes bad.  Oh... really looking forward to that.  Might even make a whipped cream topping!

Goodnight.

Wow.

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Far more done than anticipated.  On the good side, it didn't get as warm today.  It is down to 84, but at 19:03 that isn't exactly fancy.  Though that it only got up to 92, as the highest I saw it, was a... more moderate day.  Really, 92 to 95 is... high summer temperature normals.  A 108 day is rare, an 82 degree days is about as rare.  The rest varies.  Still, it was hotter there for a few days, and expected to remain above average for a week or three.  Surprise!

The first problem was dental.  Not a problem, but the first thing.  It looks like my brushing regimen is better.  I had been indenting my teeth, by brushing too hard.  After the last two visits, we worked up a method for me to try.  No real grip, more like cupping the tooth brush in my hand.  And, that has worked.  As well, the usual problems they see, plaque and bleeding gums?  The plague was light, down from heavy.  And not gum bleeding.  And the indents weren't worse.  So... very good.

Pretty good.

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I am in recovery from pushing the heat a bit far before finally turning the ac's on.  Not as bad as I have done some years, but enough that it is still a recovery phase.  That was the main problem, or half of the problem, with the roof?  Though it was steeper than... anticipated.  I really thought I could do that.  Though being burned out from the heat was an extra saddlestone.

It was between 75 and 76 near where I was sleeping last night.  Doesn't sound all that much cooler, but with the fans and ac going up there, it was cool enough that I needed blankets.  If I have to keep it cool enough to need blankets, or too hot to wear clothes, I'll take the blankets.  The main part of the room is staying near 73.  The sun bakes my side of the house, and the house holds it.  So... that is just how it goes.

Awake, if for a bit?

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When did I wake up?  Around 2:30?  It is 3:44 as write.  Just... looking around the web, feeding Sassy, resetting a couple of jugs of reverse osmosis water.  When I woke, I checked the temp outside.  It was only down to 68, but was raining?  Very strange.  That it would be that warm still, that it would be raining at all, and that both would happen at once as a doubling down on both of those others?  Or such.

A double dose of electrolytes.  Not that it is terribly needed, strangely.  Keeping up, as I haven't been consuming as much as I feel I should have been, especially in this heat of late.