To 13:37, so far.

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Not perfect.  Up later, but through finally shopping as needed.  And an appointment, or so I thought.  But, this is the latest I have been awake, in a while, without outside things pushing.  All good.  I am crashing.  Trying to hold on.

Would like to do a boss, or try.  But... not... now.  Maybe not ever.  It is the most difficult boss in the game.  It's a cheat boss.  Most people really can't beat it.  Further, I would guess those who can have a cheat code, or are playing on a modded version of the game.  I don't think those who beat the boss are legit.

Something forgotten.

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A food type I had initially started eating, on keto, if for reasons that really weren't true.  Chia seed.  Add hot water, or in my case now hot tea... or, really, add the seeds to the water or tea, possibly coffee if that seems sacrilege to me?  Or so.

I had, initially, been consuming it, in part, to obtain more omega 3s.  But... that isn't what chia is about.  It has the precursors to omega 3s, but very little actual omega 3, and very small portions of those precursors turn into omega 3s.  So, I backed away from it.

Freezing.

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I am dressed warmly.  Very warmly.  Still, okay.  So I turned the heat up a bit.  Still freezing.  So I turned it up some more.  Nope, still freezing.  It isn't the house, it's me.  I'll make coffee.  Have been doing tea every other day.  Coffee, a fatted one, today.  I love the fatted coffee days, I must admit.  But... it's... not for every day, for now.

I have meat I could cook, salad makings in the crisper, fresh.  Lots of things.  Other snack type meals.  But, for now, just coffee.  Though, soon, cabbage and beef, with a root vegetable.  Hmm, yeah.  I do love the meals I have learned to make.  And they do help me warm, a bit, for a while.

Rough.

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Down around 18:15, give or take a dime.  Up at midnight thirty.  Sassy fed first thing, well... second thing.  The whole race horse business must needs attending immediately.

Everything that was sore when I woke yesterday is doubly so today.  My toe is screaming.  Is it stubbed, or is it water buildup pushing the joint between the big toe and the foot out of place?  Walking here and there, yesterday, exacerbated the issue, whatever it might be.

An appointment, not?

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The heart doctor.  But... the VA payment stopped... a few months ago?  So, no.  But, it did get me going, got me showered, dressed, and to town.  So I finally did some shopping.  Sirloin, lettuce, root veggies, cabbage, sauerkraut.  And, at costco, I found some things to put carnivore back into the limelight.

I found cheese and salami, with zero carbs... or two or three for one of them.  As well, I found breakfast sausages and brats that were well within my range of allowances.  So, did well.  Made a pretty good haul.

Ever lose something?

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Ever lose everything?  Wallet, keys, a particular (just type, but still) shirt, my ass and elbow too, I think.  Plus, my bum toe is giving me fits while trying to hurry, scurry, search.  On the good side, after an hour, I found everything needed.  It's been a while since I have thought about getting out.

No, not necessarily going anywhere.  But, when I can, I... wanted things in order.  Wow.  It has been a long time since I have gone out and about.  I just... things got scattered between then and now.  Found, sorted, ready.  Probably.

So cold?

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Ah, the furnace.  So, I turned it up, a bit.  Still?  So very cold.  I turned it up more.  And it... is still cold.  I checked several thermometers, here and there.  No, the furnace is working.  I am just cold.  It's one of those things.  It's a health issue.

I had soup earlier.  Though I don't think that will work.  I added anchovy powder.  Too much.  A bit of that might be okay.  Too much is too much.  I can't consume the rest of that.  Rough.  Umami is good, to a point.  Will be working on miso soup, shortly.  That, too, is a bit tight with umami.  Will have to work on acquiring the taste, as well as finding ways to mitigate the bite of it.  At least until I can attain a taste for it.  It's rather fierce.

Down at 13:00.

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Up at one.  Okay.  A bit longer of a sleep.  And I stubbed my toe in there somehow?  I don't think that is the first time ever, but it isn't unique.  Though it has been some number of years since I did that last.  Though, I have been collecting fluid.  My feet to lower legs are very swollen.  I am back to trying to expel it.  It may just be from pushing fluid out of places that is causing pain.  Or... I kicked in a dream, if so one I don't remember.  They say your body is paralyzed while dreaming.  For the most part that is true, but I have caught myself functioning from a dream.  So that isn't... absolutely true.

I need to find a new calendar app.  The one I have absolutely sucks.  It has failed to alert me of any appointment.  I changed some things.  It still fails.  My old calendar would bug me and bug me and bug me, not only at the alarm time, whether a week before or an hour before, until I acknowledged it.  This one doesn't even show an alert.  I think it beeps.  But it isn't very audible, it doesn't repeat, it leaves no alert on the phone, and just goes away.  New calendar.

Noon and almost an hour.

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Okay, a minute short.  I'll get there, via writing this post.  But not much more.  My eyes burn.  My body hurts in very strange ways.  It is definitely bedtime.  Beyond.

Drats!  I have to make the bed up before going to bed.  Double drats.

Soup, again.

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This time, instead of chicken of the sea, I went with real chicken.  Or chicken of the land?  I really don't like canned chicken.  Alone.  But, how many foods are good on their own?  Anyway.  With it being cooler, as winter arrives, having something warm to drink and eat is a good thing, a great thing.

Stewed tomato, with jalapeno and habanero, and a blend of various veggies.  As well, either keto friendly beef and mushroom stock, or regular beef or chicken stock.  I am absolutely amazed at how good this food is.  As the goodies are eaten, to stretch, add more water, and some hot spices.

The stories they tell.

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Sometimes... I almost suspect they do more than listen and regurgitate.

I hope not, in once sense.  Hope so, in another?  Stories, you know how they go.

Past noon.

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Nearing 13:00.  But I am crashing fast and hard.  Don't think I'll make it much longer.  All good.  I honestly, at nine, didn't think I'd last an hour.  Take what you can get.  When it becomes excruciating, fight if you can.  Sleep if that's it.  I think this is it.  Good night.

Congratulations, President Trump.  Do something with this one.  You have the house and senate, too, right?  First thing?  Get every anti-American out of government, every foreigner too.  Fix this.

Something different.

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I didn't want to fry anything.  I'm just not able.  Not able to clean up the place in order to do so.  Not able to stand long enough to cook.  I don't want to cook inside, but will... when I get to it.  So... canned veggies.  Again.

This time I added some of the older canned tuna.  I wasn't sure that would do well.  Afraid it would melt into the stew.  But, no.  I had plenty of reasonable chunks of tuna.  It was better.  The tuna did have a bit of aftertaste.  Tuna does though, but canned sometimes that is more pronounced.  Older cans boost that as well.  Still, it wasn't bad.  Not exactly fantastic, but for getting by, it's getting by a bit better.

I keep expecting the steal.

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Just because some places are calling it, doesn't mean it is done.  I think it was, really, called for Trump last time.  Wish him luck, either way.  Just the best option, if not a great one.  A 70's dem, really.  Not sure why they were so against him.  Don't care.  And, assuming he lives long enough to do... anything?

As to the senate and house, didn't he get both of those too, last time?  And what good did it do him.  He still had to do most things through writs, not legislation.  Which means it was all undone the day he left office.  Republicans aren't on our side either.  They are just less likely to be so forward about it.  They won't get easy pickings if they don't play the game.  And, probably will be left alone by the CIA and FBI, and worse, if they play along.

Not to midnight.

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I could only make it to 21:30, give or take a quarter to half hour?  Or... something.  I was a bit dissatisfied.  I tried my best to go back to sleep.  But, when that just won't work, getting up and going is the only real choice.  I don't know about you, but I can't stay in bed, unless I am absolutely physically exhausted, hurting, too hot, or such.  Even then it is difficult.

While I love sleeping, the bed is a bit like the grave.  Something to be avoided?

Nice.

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14:30, or so.  Still awake.  Trying to get my days back.  Proving difficult.  As fall deepens, winter arrives, I crash.  I turned up the furnace, and am eating.  If it's just peas, corn, and butter?  Okay.  If it's meat?  That's fine.  I need food, in order to fight my way through.  Just the reality of it, for me, and now.

I want to do a bit more in the game, take a shower, and... some other things?  It's... not going to happen.  It is time to sleep.  So tired.  I will turn the furnace down, and turn it back up when I wake up.  Sleep as long as I can, to midnight if the lower end of the aim, though if I snap awake, that is that sometimes.  Especially twice in a row.  I can fight one of those off, not two.

Awake for a while now.

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Just never posted.  Sassy was fed.  Her litter boxes sorted, one fully refreshed.  A fatted coffee made.  Gaming.  And a bite to eat.

I still had bread, of a more keto nature.  So I toasted that, and added a tuna packet, and butter.  Not great, but it was something.

Food!

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The griddle has been idle.  I haven't been cooking or eating as well as I should, certainly not carnivore.  Payday means I can get back on that track, mostly.

Now, first thing, the griddle needed some serious attention.  Between cooking on it heavily, for a while, and little attention.  Then time, weather, and who knows?  It needed cleared and cleaned.  I scraped it, but... no.  So, to it.  I got it going, all the burners on medium, for five to ten.  Then on hot, for five to ten.  Then splashed it with a lot of water.  Scraped.  Another lot of water.  Then scraped again.

Up very late.

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This time on purpose.  Trying to get days and nights back in order.  I've hit some solid walls, bounced, gotten back up, then fallen back down.  Will see if I can sort it out sooner rather than later.  Will... keep trying.

Gaming is brutal.  I beat my first boss in the dlc.  Got it the first shot.  But I did a lot of prep, here and there.  I must have played, say, ten hours... fifteen... before doing any fighting in the dlc.  I had heard it was difficult, even the lowly mobs.  And, while it can be, they hyped the difficulty.  Not that hard.  Bosses... can be difficult.  Some more than others.

I got meats out and thawed or thawing.  Putting them in the fridge as they thaw.  I also found a whole chicken in the drop-in freezer.  Pretty sure I had another one.  Not thawing the chicken, this time.  Next time, though, that I thaw meat, I'll thaw chicken too.  The pot I cook it in is clean, and ready.  Over cabbage, I think.

The snow looks to mostly be gone, but did stick around some time after dawn.

Well, I think it's time to shut up shop, and get on to bed.  I didn't shower.  Hopefully when I wake up.  I kept thinking it was Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday. I'd sort it out, then... forget again.  Is it always illegal to kill a mind?

Well, it's bedtime, past it really.  Have a great night, or day, sleeping or doing

Snacking.

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It's been so long since I had peanut butter and crackers...  Became temporarily addicted.  Polished off a jar.  Even with the keto crackers, blood sugar took a hit, up to 144 last I checked, could go higher, a lot higher.  But I am finished with that.  Didn't think I had other foods.  No easy foods, no thawed meat, sure.  But... I really should get salad mixes and simply shredded romaine back in stock.  Just salads opens the way for tuna, sardines, and other very easy meals, with and without protein.

Hungry, again, though.  Wasn't there something easy I realized was available a bit ago?  I just... can't remember.  I could have a fatted coffee, but no.  Today is a tea day, without cream.  Why do I do that?  Just... seeing something.  I think cream was keeping blood sugar slightly elevated.  Not hugely, but more in the 120's.  Not always, though.  Sometimes I think their separator doesn't work as it should.  Or they allow some milk in, in order to stretch it?  Adjustments or limitations in the tech?  Don't know.  Do know that a bit of milk in there will increase blood sugar.  Milk is a sort of sugar, just as fruit, dextrose, and some other things are.