Good morning.

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I must admit, I have not been watching the news. The information I receive is from bloggers and a few other people and sources. As a matter of fact, and beyond that, I generally ignore anything to do with the news from those places, even so. I did hear about the Tea Parties held around the nation, and the notion that that and people like me are considered terrorist threats by the DHS, now. I do think, if they came in large groups in the dead of night, they could round a lot of us up (killing a good portion of us at the same time, just by the nature of that work, while losing some fair numbers of people as well), I think that any other attack on us will be easily rebuffed. Though they are poisoning the judiciary more than it is, though they are legislating or attempting to legislate our rights away, and though they work to undercut the Constitution from articles or amendments, they have not quite gotten there. I believe there goal is the ‘long haul’ approach. Over time, and a law, judicial action, or such at a time, they will have their way. So, whether they try to use the python or venom option, the snakes in the grass mean to have their way. I think the short run method is out of the question, functionally. Though, this group of reactionaries may be stupid enough to try it, it will not work. The real threat is the long haul method. Remember, they have many of your children in their schools. Powers of past have indicated, give us their children and the outcome is secure.

Then again, they had me. Because of what they have tried to do, I have ended up completely rejecting every aspect of their teachings. I was a self learner, to some extent, however. Maybe many are, maybe only a few, I do not really have a way to gauge that. I do note that a large percentage of people are fairly comfortable going along for the ride. A fair number have actually become cheerleaders for their own destruction, though I think many of them would have more than a small regret when they realized, while losing friends and family or themselves being executed, that they did not pay a little closer attention to what “Change and Hope” really meant. I do not have a great faith in a nation that offered Obama and McCain as the choices for president, and in which only 53% believe capitalism is better than socialism. As I have said before, without that hope there is little reason to engage in politics or debate. I have not left the country because this was it. This was the last sane nation. Europe is busy rebuilding Hitler’s dream of a pan-Europe fascist state, Asia is pretty much fixed in various evil governances modeling after or affected by China (sorry, but Japan is just another socialism about to fail, one of our other Euro style failed socialist government reconstructions, which, in any case, would fall to China without our support), and the rest of the world is feudal, socialist, or communist third world economies, not likely to ever improve.

No, this is it. This was as close as we got to being free men rather than serfs or outright slaves of the state. I only stay somewhat curious to see if the state fails completely or the few that can will try to lead us away from that precipice the populace seems so interested in teetering over. There is a chance. The American Iron Curtain has not yet quite fallen, or at least, has not quite slammed shut. Some of this is reflected in the blogs I read. And, occasionally, methods and possibilities are outlined in those blogs. Something missing is anything about organizing. That, of course, is risky. If we are considered terrorists for disagreeing with Obama, the federal governments pull, and such, we would be doubly so condemned for organizing. Which means, to me, that it is required to organize. What was it one of the revolutionaries (ours, the real ones) said? Something about hanging together or hanging separately?

Even in the church, I do not think there is a clear understanding. People do not understand that supporting a despot does not get ones name cleared from the church roster. If your name is on that list, you will be put to the sword no less. The church is one organization which, as of the early part of the last century, communists and socialists have learned to target absolutely first. Hitler was busy with the Jews, but had Catholics next. The Russian and the Mexican revolution, the French revolution, and most others directly, and often firstly, strip the church of land and wealth, then attack the clergy and participants. The Russians killed at least 200,000 Catholics in a few weeks after taking power, not bothering with paperwork, trials, anything other than mass graves, or even whether any of them had been helping the revolution. Darkness from the past does not remain there, sometimes even if it is remembered, but much less so if it is not. How hard is it to find even a modified history book, and then begin digging a bit more to the non-politically correct truths? If 52% of the church is for Obama, a lot of people are in trouble. Thank you, Kennedys, for your leadership (straight to hell). Anyway…

That is what I am seeing, and saying. Back to the regular programming.

Sleep was good last night. Even with the furniture remaining in the room, it is starting to feel empty somehow. A piece, box, shirt, and trinket at a time, I am devolving the room into sorted reason. I think what adds to the time is that I am walking through my own history. Each piece has a memory, maybe even people I knew, attached to it. Though I try to focus on the task, and do so for the most part, some memories are too strong to completely set aside. They are all from a time before I decided to heed God’s call and come to him, so in some ways it feels alien. Sometimes I sort out in my mind my past from my present. Sometimes it brings up regrets, but also, it can bring up times when I was at my best and did the right things for the right reasons. Such is any life, I think. Even in my new path I will someday look back and see my mistakes more clearly. I suppose that we can look at ourselves and see our faults means that we believe there is a difference between good and bad. And, in God, we have some means of giving our faults up, humbly, to Christ who died for them. Father picked an interesting way of allowing the wheat to separate itself from the chaff though. If Christ, somehow, will advise, it is we who will choose which we are by how we live and what we accomplish in works. I wonder what wheat would do? Would it all want to be fruitful and nourishing, or would some of it prefer to be waste as well?

I think I want to talk to my people before deciding on the apartment. I spoke with my neighbor yesterday, a bit. Though he is “only” a neighbor, I seek his advice when able. He has a solid head on his shoulders, follows his faith well, and is a family man. His wife offers good thoughts as well. She is not just a wife and mother, she IS a wife and mother, a thing I find far superior to any professional woman. She has a future that extends far beyond her life, and with a little work, beyond life itself. Her ‘career’ does not end when she can no longer ‘work’. I would also like to speak with my mother and my lady friend. Now, understand, no one has direct control. Each offers something, like those old computer input punch cards. When I stack them, look for commonality and difference, and look at what I want and need as I see things, I can play with the numbers and come to several different sets of conclusion which offer a better overall design than what I could produce singularly. The more punch cards, though used my way, the broader the consideration.

Something I have noticed. I seem to make people angry, all the time. I do not necessarily try to do so, but there are toes everywhere I step. I seem to speak rather freely, and write no less but the same. First, if the shoe fits and you put it in the isle, expect a toe to get stepped on. Second, if I am considered wrong, fine, no need to get upset there. But if what I say hurts because you believe it to be true, is that not your problem? I cannot help there, and I will not. If you are in pain from your mistakes, I can offer some comfort. I shoot myself in the foot often enough that I know that pain. Poor choices in the past have lead me to where I am now. I am not sure they were the wrong way, in that they have lead me to a place where I can, in honesty, look for a good home, seek a woman rightly, and find peace with the skeletons in my closet which ended up in me being in a place where I can start fresh and rightly. When I seem to poke a stick in your eye, understand, quite often, it is actually my eye that I am poking. If your eye is like mine, and your sentiment allows you to feel my pain, then think about it before you get too sore at your nerves’ sympathy pains with my nerves. It is not my fault that we both hurt, look to yourself for answers, not to me for resolution or an apology. Anyway, I wanted to clear that air.

Back to work I think. I still need to wake up a bit more. But this day looks to be another fruitful one. No pains at all this morning. The sleep was restful, as restful as it gets, and the job is looking more done. I still cannot believe I initially thought I could clear that place (rightly) in a few days. I so overshoot practicality sometimes, especially since I work like a really really fast slow turtle.

Have a great day!