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I am not sure what happened, but not only am I tired, I am absolutely exhausted. I had been sure I was just about to do better. Beyond that, my arms, legs, and torso are sore. I have been in enough fights to know that it feels as if I have been in a fist fight, minus facial bruises. The exhaustion is not mental, this time. It is purely physical. Still, I got the sink drain out, went to the store and found replacements, and got some food earlier. I have set the new sink trap pieces to go back in, but have not done that yet. I really had to sleep. I had thought my exhaustion was mostly psychic in nature, but I realize today, that is not always the case.
I may need more time to move. I have not been able to get things done, time is drawing too short too fast, and I am so tight on money. I need sleep. Perhaps the stress of the move is doing this, perhaps I am just going through something, but I am not on the top of my game, perhaps not even in the game. Drats. I am stuck and I really do not have a way out quickly. Still, I am going to try and get it done anyway. I will just have to see how things are as the month comes to a close.
My sleeping is really messed up too. I cannot sleep at night and I cannot wake up early. Worse, I cannot seem to sleep in longer stretches. My sleep is now segmented in 2 to 4, or 8 to 12 hour stretches. Even if I was tired the last few weeks, I was sleeping regularly. I know there is some connection, but past attempts at using sleeping medication to ameliorate the situation has been thoroughly found to be lacking. Every time I tried, I ended up sleeping far more than is good, even when given something to balance that. Doctors and their use of meds to allow the use of meds to allow the use of… you get the point. Rather than fixing the problem, it seems they would rather skirt the main issues and just offer me a dozen meds that only nibble at a few symptoms that they want tended. Aiming for other than the bull’s eye will never allow a win.
I went to bed at 21:30 or 22:30, but could not stay asleep. I may put the drain back together, sip some more water, and then try again. I am already, at 3:00, becoming exhausted again. Though, I do not think I was quite able to wake up.
Have a good morning. And, never worry. I will figure things out. Besides, it is all in God's hands anyway.
Hey, Doom, I just stopped by, which I generally don't do as often as I like, but I'm up early thanks to Baby and only have two littles up so far.
ReplyDeleteI noticed in one of your posts further down the page that you talked about being tired and forgetting when things were that you wanted to do. I have that problem--though for different causes, certainly! I have a calender program on my computer with alarms in it that, if I have remembered (big if) to tell when I need to go do something, will tell me in advance that it is nearing time to go.
I don't know if something like that would help you but I figured it couldn't hurt to mention, right?
I will look into it. And, whatever the cause, yeah, a reminder is good. It won't always help me, since concentration and memory are only part of my problem. The energy to function is another, being able to be awake at a given time is another. But in longer term things, like paying a bill, a heads up could be really useful.
ReplyDeleteWell, good luck with the half height deck apes. From memory of the full size ones, I must guess you have your hands full and then some. But then, idle hands are tools of the devil, or some such, thus not a problem for you? And, what a great way to use your "hands". :P
Good luck with it ey, hang in there, hope you get your things done.
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