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I have not decided yet, but I am considering a break. I am seriously considering leaving everything behind when I move. Not just blogging, but family and friends. I have too much baggage with them. Wherever I go, if they visit or make friends in the area, I tend to end up losing out. Whether it is because of what they say or what they do, I tend to end up in disfavor. While left to my own devices, I tend to lead a respectable small life. Blogging, I think, might have a way of doing a similar thing.
As well, were I had been moving has changed. Though I will still be moving to the mountains, I have chosen another place altogether. Any contacts I now have I will probably surrender. It is difficult to know who is friend and who is foe in these times. Not that the situation is new, only that the risks are greater now. It may be time to simply retire and rest, leaving the world to the horrors about to unfold. There are few ideas, principles, or people I would willing die to keep. Even the Church has become a frighteningly secular space, in some areas.
Should I find myself in good company, perhaps I would fight for that company, push come to shove. Though honestly, I am not in any condition to do more than drive or cook or such. And, as I have said, fighting would only work as a stall in the hopes some group, such as the military or military and police came to their collective senses. A land war would be terrible between civilians and the military and police. It would be an outright slaughter. It would not be covered by the media, or if it was, it would be so slanted as to be totally negative.
Yes, I think I am going to find a nice quiet place to hide. I am not sure of it, but it seems like the right time. I will think and pray until my time comes to move. I feel completely surrounded by evil, and really willful evil. There is not even such a thing as retreat, it is everywhere I have looked. Drugs, socialism, decay, and death. I guess I do not mind dying, I just do not want to be tortured to death at the hands of the very government I once fought for. I am not sure.
Thinking...
You're going to cut ties with everyone...? Everyone?
ReplyDeleteI am considering it. I may visit certain blogs from time to time, but if I do this, it will be, other than some of the blogs I comment on, a complete cut. We will see.
ReplyDelete*sigh* I hope I stay on your good list.
ReplyDeleteJean,
ReplyDeleteOf course. I am a bit frustrated with the move on top of politics and family. I have such terrible dreams at my mother's house, and fear for her soul, almost every time I visit. And with the move, I have so little time left and so much to do. And, having an insecure computer to work with is no fun to top it off, while I cannot seem to even buy a functional secure computer at any price.
I'll figure it out. Maybe a micro computer, they are cheap, getting this move completed, and I will be in a much better place (of mind and body). Never worry, if I have access to the internet, I will still visit you and those others where I regularly, if brokenly, comment.
Plus, how could I not be around for your grand opening (or, get there when I get somewhat settled anyway)! I'll have to check out your wares and send you at least a little business. Silly. :P
"There is not even such a thing as retreat, it is everywhere I have looked."
ReplyDeleteI began having this unnerving impression about 2004 to 2006. I finally realized that my way out was up, and that nothing I did on this earth would bring me a firm measure of true security. So I go through the motions hoping to delay the day, knowing that in the end they may prove inadequate, because the tentacles of the enemy are deep and pervasive.
"I will look to the hills. From whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord" Psalm 121
Perhaps it is merely that we have truly made our attempts to be men of God, D.C. In that alone, perhaps, are we finally able to see the snakes so well that others seem to think of is cute, harmless, or fun. Perhaps, this is maturity.
ReplyDeleteEither that or we are indeed, well and truly, bonkers. :p Might as well have a little chuckle to loosen things. I am assured in God, so I suppose I can laugh once in a while too.