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I commented at Vox's several times in memory, regarding classic books and writings, from "The Art of War" to Socrates and many other such things. For my part, I do not see the draw. None of these writings may in any way apply to real life. As entertainment, they are rather simple, perhaps even silly. What I see is that they have been used as a basis for cultural and educational currency, but little else. Which, in it's time, was sufficient for my judgmentalism. But given that Western Civilization has surrendered it's collective classic liberal education having any worth, these basics are no longer of use (barring, perhaps, the military academies and such). Their value is gone, save for a future where they might once again be a basis for a more civilized and (classically) liberal based West (or wherever such a society may again appear, if it ever will). I suppose, dear reader, I am asking you to judge my thoughts. Harsh or kind. I will reply, I will try to be tender since I am, well, just asking for it.
On another topic, there are many guns I would love to have. I think the one gun (though I would prefer a set) that tops my list is the MP-5 chambered in the .45 caliber. The numbers may change for that particular chamber, I cannot remember, but that is the gist of it. Since I will probably never have one, let alone a pair, and assuming I have all other guns on my list (I have 2 rifles, 3 pistols, a shotgun, and some other equipment first), I would get a pair of these. I guess I am just not interested in fancy or too pretty. I like things that reflect myself (or at least how I see myself). Simple, utilitarian, in some ways a little over the top (14+1... whoop!), and yet subdued and quiet. If you could draw a pistol in a crowded area and not be noticed, these would be the ones to do it with (not as in, going on a spree, more as in, drawing without the bank robber, shootist, or other clients or citizens noticing until the bandit goes down).
I have a dark streak, but it is not and never was aimed at the sheeple. I am a wolf in sheep's clothing hunter by nature. I do not actively participate in two-legged-wolf hunting currently. That is due to two reasons. First, I have no authority, technically speaking. I know there is a higher authority, but I find no call from that authority to do that work either. Second, I have chosen to distance myself from the evil that exists. For me to hunt, I would need to engage and to some degree, partake. I have washed my life, my mind, my soul, and perhaps even my memories to the degree possible. Evil would have to come to me for me to be willing to deal with it, at this point. I still cannot quite rid myself of my nature, but I think I will remain a two-legged-wolf-in-sheep's-clothing-hunter in my mind only... for the time being. The bloodlust is potently strong still, but like a junkie who made a clean break and has stayed clean for long enough, it is mostly at bay.
Well, I had really ought to go get some rack time. My sleeping is in disarray, sleeping odd hours, sleeping and walking in short shifts, and having night and day flipped for the most part. But it is what I have. At least I can, for a while, sleep. And, I can, from time to time, be awake and productive. Take what you have and run with it, I have learned. It might not get better.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzz *hush... the wabbit is sleeping*
Doom,
ReplyDeleteI'se readin' backwards here at Whispers.
Iffin' ya doan mind, can ya say what yore illness is? or what symptoms ya have? I mean, I can clearly see ya sure ain't afflicted wif' autism.
Did ya move yet? Find an apartment?
On the general topic of the de-volution of our country, of Western Civ and the question of how Christians should respond, remember that St. Augustine wrote City of God while the Roman Empire was crumbling all around him.
On the struggles inside the Church--ah, well, now....ya knows full well that Satan knows his enemy--so of course the Church is always attacked, even from within.
We could git us a real long long jaw goin' on the current list of spineless bishops --but I always take courage from what
Pope Pius IX said when Napoleon arrived at Vatican City and threatened t destroy the Church. Pius IX drew all 4"10" of hisself up tall and said:
"Don't be ridiculous, my little Emperor, if I and all my bishops have not destroyed the Church in 1800 years, YOU surely cannot."
See? Doom, God is a big God--the Church is His--and though she (Church is the Bride of Christ) may have scary moments in history, she will survive until the final days of history.
Most of the dissidents in the Church are older now--the fruit of the 1960s wackiness. They are dying out. Strong and capable bishops are growing in number--Chaput, Burke, Bruskewitz
...Meanwhile the voluminous and very precise writings of both JP II and Pope Benedict XVI will carry future generations forward in the right direction. These two popes back to back were an enormous gift to modern times.
Jesus gave us the right mindset: "Be of good cheer for I have overcome the world."
Go out an' do yore part in the small patch of territory whar' God has set ya down--find yoreself some faithful folks an' make new friends in faith. Doan expect perfection--we all has a wart or two. But keep in mind that the work the Apostles did was ttally and utterly against the prevalin' times and gubmint. Thang is--they KNEW how the story would end--mebbe not in their lifetime, but at the end of time, we Christians know how the story ends--all we gotta do is sit up an' run our plays--may git dirty, may git a thunk on the haid, but run yore plays. We do our part. When the final score flashes, we's part of the winnin' team...ya see?
Be of good cheer, Doom. For this day is the Day that the Lord has made.
Aunty,
ReplyDeleteTechnically, I am diagnosed a bipolar. Well, that may be but it really doesn't fit the symptoms. When they applied for disability, however, it was what was on the chart so that is what they went with. I have been told they won't change it for fear of getting my income sorted around (since I am 100% permanent and total service connected, I could only ever get less). My symptoms are varied, the big one is that I am nearly perpetually exhausted (not depressed, just tired). Stress can certainly make it worse. I think I initially exhibited some strange things, but that was because I was in the service and couldn't sleep like my body was demanding me to do. I was getting 4 to 6 hours sleep or less and needed 12 to 14 hours or more (really). I was dreaming on my feet. Add in some serious stress situations in the service. And perhaps some repetitive flu like symptoms which increase with stress, and you get the picture.
About the Church; what Pope Pius the IX said... Bwahahaha! Don't we all wonder at that at times? And, beyond, you are right about a lot of things. How many kings and queens, emperors, and dictators have threatened the Church? And more, how many poor students of Christ have threatened it? I guess I just hate seeing Her so beset. I guess Woman have a way with dealing with the harsh realities of life in ways men cannot, that is why the Church is a Bride and Christ the Groom. Each plays their part in the grand scheme. And, being party to the Bride, I suppose we all sputter and spit, fidget and fuss, from time to time. Something about living in an imperfect world while knowing there really is such a thing as perfection and just dying to be in it while knowing we cannot abandon the gift of life to be consummated into perfection. Life is a tough school, though it is required, for our part, to be become right.
Just understand that I am like rolling thunder at times. When certain conditions are right, I peel powerfully and loudly. Perhaps that is one of my gifts, perhaps it my illness, perhaps it is just a typical natural response. It does garner attention to something, hopefully not so much to me, but more to my concerns.
As I said, prayer and contemplation have allowed me to deal with some of my worries. But it is always good to receive the gift of healing words from family, such as yourself. It is amazing what we receive when in need. I have never understood that. The miracles in life have been what has kept me, for the most part, strongly Christian if it was an actual call that brought me Home.
Forty ounces! And that's before the fifteen rounds of ammo is added. Dang. I'd need industrial strength suspenders just to haul that tank around.
ReplyDeleteMy XD .45 is at least that, I think. It tucks in fine for me. But what I really want is a good double draw shoulder holster. I don't really notice weight anyway. But... I understand...
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