Waking up is a tough chore this morning.

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I slept well, relatively speaking. Erotic dreams filled my mind, and occasional prayers when I awoke. Women have been on my mind, for some odd reason, and strongly the last few days. In spite of sore ribs and plenty of work to be done, the mind seems easily distracted. And though chastity has not been taken on as an oath but more as a means of purification before death or marriage, I hold it well. It is amazing what a prayer for strength and conviction can do. Even with dreams and thoughts of the more beautiful of the sexes, my command has held firm. No pun intended.

My neighbor lady has been stopping by in the mornings, late mornings thankfully, to make coffee. She had been buying Starbucks, and I had suggested she make her own. She tried it on her own, and failed. She bought Starbucks coffee and their syrup. Now, I cannot swear to it, but I would guess Starbucks does not use their own coffee. If people could get the exact taste at home, they would not be making so much money in their stores. My guess is what they sell of the shelf is at least one or two off. So, I showed her where to shop and what to buy, and to her amazement, not only is it far cheaper, it is superior. As well, that it can be made at home, it saves time in running around. Who knows though, when I leave she might just go right back to Starbucks. She likes to spend, she believes in designer goods and services, and she is used to being a kept woman. She no longer has the money she did but that does not really affect her lifestyle until she runs out of everything, then she cries and hopes someone will help her. I have not and will not. I saw that trap far in the distance. I do drive her places, and help her in small ways, but I will not spend on her beyond that or have much more to do with her. I will never know if she goes back to Starbucks or not, and I will not worry about it.

I have not been able to contact my neighbor. I am hoping to do so today. I think I am going to try and just catch up to him to make final plans for loading. Rather than ABF, a moving system which offers various numbers of loading containers something like Pod's but less expensive, I will just get rent a truck and use a platform on the back to haul the Xterra. That is, if the truck company's trailer can handle that size of a vehicle. This will give me a great deal more flexibility when to load, where I can unload, and I think it will be cheaper in the end as well, all told. I only worry about needing to back up. Though I think I can do that, I do not want to be tested. As well, I am not quite sure about all the details involved with when to install the trailer, and how to do so, which will have to be done after packing the truck, I would guess, and so on. There is only one way to find out.

I suppose I ought to get started for the day. Time is short, and even though everything is coming together, I still have much to do. Decisions are the most difficult, as they can bottle neck an opperation when they come up in the physical work. I think most decisions are finalized at this point. Now it is just a matter of getting the work completed. I will be so very happy when this leg of my journey is completed.

I still do not know if I am going there to die or if I am going there to live. I will only know once I get there. To be honest, neither prospect is all that bad. I am siding for finding more to life and finding more life to live there. But, as I have been most solidly told by reality, such huge choices are not really in my hands. Not at all. I am open to God's will, and that is the end of that.

Have a great day.