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I made my appointments today, but the only way to do that was to stay up all night. My days and nights are still mixed up. I did make it, I suppose that is what counts. The first visit saw to the fitting for a new pair of glasses. They have some decent glasses frames there to choose from. After letting the lady do her work, I asked if my eyes really had improved. They have, for the second time in 10 years, with high blood pressure, then with h.b.p. and diabetes.
Then I needed to visit the optometrist, the other clinic. These had tools the first optometry clinic did not. I went through about 5 tests. The good news is that what the other optometrist had seen was there, but it was not a big deal, at all. After I suggested I had been in many fights, they believe it is a minor interior blemish from that. The better news was that on some of the tests I performed faster and better than my doctor had ever heard of or administered. After two tests, he called in two other doctors for the last three tests. And they all took turns looking. When I saw that they were gathering, I asked if it was a conspiracy and the two new ones said, "Yes". My paranoia is right again. Ha! Oh, and my doctor had thought he would see significant problems in my eyes because of the diabetes. He saw little to none. And, no, they did not understand.
Next, a drive to the Ogden clinic and a check of things. I told the lady that my blood sugar had dropped to 159, that I have been trying to change my diet (to proteins and vegetables). She was pleased. I told her about the fasting, and she thought that was a good idea (I did explain that I had been monitoring my blood sugar throughout though). Then we took my blood pressure. I think the first one was 158/95, the second was 146/96. That sure beats 207/120, and is nearing the goal of 135ish/85ish (which I will never reach, but at 140/90, I have been told I will get Ritalin again). So, I told her I would stay on the medicine, and that I would take the water pill if they sent it. She asked if I would take the niacin (niaspan) or metformin. I told her that I am still quite tired and weak, and that I wanted to go slow. But I said I would take the water pill if she would send it, as well as the Lisinopril. She was good with that, for now. So, as soon as I get that, I will begin taking it too. She asked about exercise and I said that is not terribly available in the shape I am in. I did not tell her that I am going to try to do more, but I am.
For as bad of shape as I am in, I am in pretty good shape so far. I would like to keep it that way. Just a few things, as I can. I am really hoping that a little more time, the water pill, the change in diet, and exercise if I can get to it will bring that b.p. down just a tad more.
I have advanced a bit more through the O.T., but not much with the driving, testing, and all. I am pretty sure the numbers involved with Moses' census, the number of troops, and some other things may be exaggerated. Study will prove or disprove my theory, in time. Perhaps 600,000 plus just meant 'a lot of people'. Sometimes the bible is literal, sometimes it is not.
I may have slit my own blogging throat. I will see what happens this coming week. I might make this a private blog, for me only. Then I can write what I REALLY feel, who I am, and what I do. *laughs* (I write what I think, what I know, and who I am rather truthfully, you know all that can be known ABOUT me now.) I will not have to worry about people running into the hills screaming, "That queer!", or "That conservative!", or "That (fill in the blank)!". Then again, maybe no one is reading this. I will read it later, perhaps. Well, maybe not. I do not care for my writing all that much. Hey, maybe I could print it so when the kids I do not have grow up, they can read it! Not. Ha!
Well, have a great day.
how do you think you have slit your own throat blogging? did something happen?
ReplyDeleteyou know i have written as K9 exactly what i have thought about a lot of things. i dont know if you ever read some of the epic battles that went down in my yard. but thats why its calling "sparringk9"
anywhoo -aunty says whatever she wants too. and she has readers that have said horrible things to her.
i would be very interested in reading your real blog. but i understand about a private blog to -just the virtual equivalent of the journal...still - i think in this sort of anonymous format you can say whatever the hell you want.
ive met a lot of the bloggers in the real...and turned foes into friends. ive been at it since 2006 and i bust onto the scene on a hyper lobs blog and tore the place up. oh the uproar! if you go back to my earliest posts (in a fit of spectacular boredom i suppose) you'll see.
dont go private, man! gah!
hyper libs...yikes i gotta stop i cant type tonight
ReplyDeleteJust a cautionary note on that water pill--in hot weather it is sucking out much needed reserve fluids from your system. Come next summer you might want to watch whether it negatively affects your ability to cope in the heat.
ReplyDeleteRe your revelations, have you been receiving negative feedback other than what shows up in comments here? I wouldn't worry overmuch about it if not. You are who you are. This information just fills in some blanks.
Frankly I was somewhat relieved. I thought perhaps your deep dark secret was that you were a serial killer or something. Confession time: I've always thought you give off a bit of a Nice Pete vibe. Turns out you're more like Roast Beef. (reference: online comic Achewood characters).
And if I may add, learning that you have struggled with this issue--you, a conservative and brother in Christ--leads me to a bit more compassion and understanding than I may previously have had for gender dysphasia.
ReplyDeleteI have a tendency to disbelieve that you would just be shitting me, looking for justification for deviant behavior. You have faced this, struggled with it, and made a decision to turn your back on it. My inclination is sympathy and admiration.
If you are worrying about my reaction, well there it is.
K9,
ReplyDeleteNo, I don't have a private blog, this is it. But I have said things which, to some, have come as a shock. I never worry about being conservative, or having gone through my struggles with sex identity, or any of that. But sometimes, after writing, one feels naked and alone. You have to know that!
And, I will have to take you up on your offer! Not in boredom though, a bored mind is one that doesn't have the internet. Ha! In the struggles, between life and death, between truth and lies, between all great things, is one of the very essential things humans live on. Though it is not all of what is referred to when Christ says (and a reference to the Old Testament) "Man does not live upon bread alone.", I think it is part of that, though mostly they are talking about the word, and since Him, the Word, thus God. But there are many things people need which are not eaten.
Friends from foes, you say. Yes, and I may know a few. Oddly, I get a sense of things. I quite wonder about Enemy. There might be others, but she pops into my mind like no other. As Yoda might have said, "Sisters, are we now? Hmmmm". I might be off, and I am sure there are still troubles, but what sisters and brothers do not have these?
D.C.,
ReplyDeleteYes, that does actually help. You cannot know how many have simply turned there back on me for this, to include my brother (and he has ALWAYS known). But in the depths of my concern, he deserted me, to include not even shaking my hand when I traveled there and sought him out, even after I decided against going ahead.
And, I mean to seem... obscure or light. What I have seen in my life, if put out like meats, cheeses, vegetables, and breads on a sandwich line would be far too much for most people. If you think the tranny thing was tough, you haven't seen much.
Being strong in body, God has seen fit to make me strong in other ways. To that end, I have been subjected to many tests. As I am as gentle physically, with both people and things, for a real fear of breaking them (yes, even in fights, but too in loving and handling women if that bothers some of them), I am gentle with things of the mind. I went Zen as a child, before I knew the practice, for what I have been through. That is probably why it was so easy to change to it as an adult, for a while, as a religion. I have known pain and shock and how to endure, and still do. So, I present as a question, all things. I like to present mildly, mostly. Sometimes you see the darker side, but that I try to keep at bay, both here and in personal presentation.
Ah, the water pill thing. Yes, I had wondered about that. I may be taking that at night, too, so it's affects may be less than that, and I will be careful. Taking an extra measure of water should I brave the heat next summer. Even in the winters, it is so dry, that I will be cautious. But the heat, definitely!
As for reactions, there simply weren't any reactions for the most part. And then, for quite a while, few comments at all. In the old days, one punishment was the turning of the back (and, for sinners who refuse to repent, I agree with it). That is what I wondered about.
My follow up to that post regarded some of that. But, I too, will turn away from those who continue in that or other veins, to a degree. It depends on how they choose to handle the rest of the situations as they arise... If they attempt to live within moral (Christian) constraints (to what is reasonably possible), and to understand sin unambiguously and try to stay with God, I will embrace them. But if they choose Sodom, as many do, I will leave and not return. But, I will never advise more than turning the back, for this or (almost) any serious sinner (I do, as you must know, believe in self defense, which requires no back-turning!), never violence and not hate. Hate, as I see it, is a sin too, and sometimes a worse one. I try to give hate to God, and like fasting, it has cleared me up for better things and a greater focus on His good(s). (to the extent I am able, though socialism and other like it ideas (not people, mostly), these I can detest).
Oh, and I bet you know a bit about riling up conservatives AND liberals, by simply being a survivalist. I saw hints of that the other day when someone tried to mock you regarding "going green". In some ways, in this regard, we aren't on a particular side, we are potentially considered the fences themselves, simply because of who we are or what we see right to do. By the way, I love that project. I have nicknamed it the Eden Project.