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My heart is racing a bit too much, all my stats are high and have been for a while. I am not sure if the flu will do that. I do know I will have to back away from caffeine a goodly bit. I think that is the one thing I can do to positively affect these things. Then again, it may just be nearing my time. I am already an anomaly. I have beaten death and had experiences most people will never see or do. In a way it is incredible. In another way, it leads me to... wonder. Not always in a good way. Still, if I can beat this one too, somehow, I will. Breathing is a bit labored as well. The breathing might be causing the continuous elevation of stats. It is sometimes difficult to be sure what is causing what. I just know it has been running too rich for too long and I need to find out how to slow it down a bit.
I best call and make sure my appointment is Monday. It might be next month. Life gets a little funky around the gills when I am in a rut as I have been for a bit now. Just... trust but verify. Either way, I need to remember the urine test. The instructions are odd, so I best find those. I think I start tonight if I am going to do it for tomorrow... Never mind, if that is how they want it done, that is how I will do it. A quick review suggests not, so... Tomorrow I will finally complete that.
Good night. Sleep well. Dream the perfect dream, then live it. Start from where you are and there you go. And I do mean that. Or go pout, shout, jump, or run. None of that will improve your life, living your dream will. You can do it if I can, and I certainly am, even bound by the chains of my failing flesh. :p
Relax.
ReplyDeleteCoffee is not bad or evil - a cup or two a day.
Moderate. Food. Coffee/pop/drink - more water! Feelings. Choices.
You can do it :)
PS. Did a 21.18km Hypothermic Run in -32 Celsius today; did I want to, not really with weather like that. Did I need to. Indeed, I made the commitment to better health a long time ago. No turning back now ~ I am madly in love with me ~ I deserve no less!
See, YOU CAN do it!!!
I hope it's just the flu. For sure can make the heart beat faster and everything else seem like a huge effort.
ReplyDeleteLord knows there are a plethora of germs running rings around my household. Had two kids down with the fever today. Our colds have run so close together that one can't tell where the last one leaves off and the next one begins.
One bonus is that feverish little boys love to be cuddled by mom. I got lots of cuddles today. Nice warm ones.
WW,
ReplyDeleteNo, a cup or even three isn't bad. However, a half dozen or more probably isn't all that good. It's a drug, like others. I was overdoing by a lot. I am working toward a more realistic diet, which includes drinks of various sorts. I am not quite to natural yet (and may never be, as with many ideals). But I like the notion. Oh, and good for you! Cheers! I do lots of things I don't feel like doing. My threshold, however, is not quite that steep.
Opus #6,
I am starting to think it is/was the flu. It is passing and my breathing and such is improving. It helps, in one sense, being alone. However, should I get ill, there I am. Further, I would rather be ill a bit more frequently and in good company than not. So, only some empathy toward you and yours. :p
Yeah. Cuddles. I must say that having died a few times, I know as a man what Moms mean, deep down inside us. She was all I wanted. I didn't necessarily think she could save me, I just wanted her near. Take cuddles where you can, but know that deep in them is something very special that is just yours. Even, maybe especially, on those days when you become cootie central and are avoided. It is still there and always will be.