Ghosting.

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When my day finds me neither here in flesh nor there in spirit, or lost in times that may or may not have been, but somewhere in between those various places, I call it ghosting. Today has definitely been a transitional day. My will is good but it is not enough to deal with oddities presented through my flesh. Which is all fine by me, as free-floating is a bit like that feeling after a couple of glasses of smooth rich relaxing wine, save that I am not getting to things as quickly or directly or surely as I would like.

While I have been doing little things, seemingly silly things that come to me while trying to do something else usually, I have been moving forward a bit. I finally found one of my toenail clippers by which to clip my fingernails, then did just that. Big fingers, I have no choice. Even with the big clippers, it takes four to six cuts to get my fingernails trimmed properly, per finger. One of my goals was to find a recipe for flour tortillas and perhaps some Mexican type sauces. I did find a recipe for the tortillas, one I believe I can trust, if I won't roll them as thin as the author. I like a bit of bite in my tortilla. I also wanted to find a sauce recipe. I haven't found that last. Never mind, I will make one up. No, I'm not completely novice, if I have never been a saucier I have watched many of them.

I have a couple of packets of dried peppers. These I will steep in hot water until they soften while I make tortillas. Then I will mash or grind or chop them into a rough paste (I am heating the water as we speak). Next, I will heat my cast iron skillet, in preparation for a typical roux. I will add the chile 'soup' (mostly diced/mashed peppers with a bit of the 'juice' from the steeping) to the mix. Well, that's the plan. The trick it to make the sauce the right consistency without it being bland or too spicy. My hope is to make homemade tortillas, the sauce, and combine it with the beans, rice, and freshly grated cheese, for a decent (if vegetarian) dinner. Hmm, wait, I think I have some hamburger thawed. That would work quite nicely in the spiced roux! Yep, that would do. Question though. Can I do all that, and eat, and clean up, in a reasonable time? We might find out yet tonight. Wish me luck?

I keep thinking about that new blog I would like to produce. The thing is, I will either need to use another email address, from whatever source or create even another e-address (as most of my current e-addresses scare people, they really do oddly), or something. And it will not, in any way, be connected to this one. It seems someone has hacked into this one, or is in some other way making it nearly impossible for me to comment on your blogs. D.C., Jean, and MK are the only ones who seem to find and put my comments up. I can only guess the others are too busy or believe my comments don't belong on their blogs. So this persona is pretty much dead to the outside world, save a few friends. If I thought the reverse were true, that might even be pleasant. If nothing else, the hacker is involved. In any case, I keep thinking of that. But until I have a secure connection (new computer), I do believe I will hold off. Liberals, once they get in, never quit. Like gremlins they simply continue to gorge on troubling people they don't like. Too bad they can't be cast out. Once the demon is under the skin, the skin can actually be dangerous. And if the demon is a "guest", it cannot be cast out. Skin and all must go, in time. A depressing thought on many fronts, but keep looking to God and praying for fools and the possessed, and for righteousness even through it all. It's sometimes all we have.

Anyway, on to cooking.