Dreams are intensifying.

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I can't remember much of my past. Bits and pieces, things here and there. Perhaps it is common, more common than I know. Here is some music that puts it into words powerfully enough that all can understand. But there is much darkness back then. I used to look for my destruction. Through thought and action, from what I had seen, I simply wanted to not be anymore. All around me seemed to figure out how to escape, doing the same things. It simply wasn't to be for me. So here I remain. At least God's call finally came through.

My dreams of war can be seen in the following. They are based on some aspect of fact. It wasn't always my opponents who cried. In my freshman year, after knocking down a junior and about to face one of his friends, I broke down because I was tired of hurting people. I explained to my coach that I didn't cry for fear being beaten, I was soul tired of crushing those who faced me. But have no doubt, I have made opponents cry uncontrollably. I can take a man apart like a car at a chop shop. They should have known as I always tried to get the fight to happen where there was just them and me.


My hunger for battle is seen here. Addicted as I am, I have, mostly, freed myself. It would take a steady decisive strongly intended warrior to bring me to battle. Be of great care what you call forth, make sure what you think you want is really what you need. If I have escaped it, I still lust for it. Funny though, for years, and even now, I sometimes deny my hunger, thirst, craving. Yeah, it is me who is so far away.


This was almost exactly the dream I just wrote about recently. Where I was fighting and couldn't seem to find a way out. At least in feel.

This is what happens should someone figure out how to break my bonds and neglect to slay me.


I just... felt the need to share my dreams. Oh, and I have never seen these videos before. I seem to... just find what fits at times. To share in a way you can see. This isn't the worst of my dreams, just... normal fight fair. Enjoy!