Okay, I am pushing things.

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I need to learn how, and when, to begin backing down for the day.  While I can run a good, and hot, 18 hour day, maybe more, I will not stop.  I have no breaks on my "machine".  After decades of pushing every chance I got because that was the only way to even get a bit of this and that done, now that the world is opening up, I don't have breaks.  I never needed them!  I usually do enough that I could possibly be worn out by it, especially on swim days.  But that isn't enough.  There has to be a 'work shoulder', some period of time where work, and thinking (other than maybe reading or a mild post), and passion must be set aside.  I don't like the notion of television, I don't like where the crafters of such lead people's minds.  I'll figure something out.  My guess is somewhere between 17:00 and 19:00 I have to knock things off.

While I didn't stay up until 4:00 or later, I did stay up later, again.  That isn't necessarily a problem, but with the sort of long day and heavy output it was this time.  I woke late too, again.  I couldn't sleep well.  Tossing and rolling and trying every trick I could remember.  Sleep simply would not arrive.  As I said, I need a soft, then softening, landing of body and mind to ease me into that.  I may need a bit more physical, as well, during the day.  To be honest, house cleaning and my pet projects might be enough, physically, on my non-exercise days.  Just an hour or two of this, then a few hours of that, two or three sessions a day, but regularly.  It is a matter of getting in the habit.  I am still not sure how much I can honestly handle.  I am so used to, pretty much, living in a deep freeze where everything could be exhausting so I had to push when a window was available.

In other words, I didn't get to housecleaning this morning, barely making it out of bed in time to see the morning.  I will be working on the snow blower shortly, in any case.  And I do hope to get back in, after, take a break, then hit my home a bit.  The laundry will be gathered, taken back, and then sorted.  At least one load will probably make it through, maybe two.  Dishes need to be sorted, and I'll wash at least one load, soaking the rest.  And a lot of picking up and straightening needs to occur.  If I can just pick up trash and empty waste bins, that will be a start.  Oh, and I ended up tinkering last night.  I was a little high on my various successes.  But the swim yesterday was beautiful, and that did surprise me.  So, I never did get to trying the dvd player, let alone uploading my music.  That can be what I do during my breaks.

Ah, well, I'm... still rather pleased with what is going forward.  But today, I need to try and tire myself, then begin learning to relax for sleep.  How do you even hit the break?  Is their a psychic button, is it a mental lever, or is it supposed to be automatic?  I... honestly don't know!

Later.