Howdy, neighbor.

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I couldn't get to sleep before midnight, again.  I set the alarm for 7:00 again anyway.  I heard the alarm going off, though for how long I can't be certain.  Time is tricky as I wake.  Sometimes what seems like a few minutes can have been hours, sometimes while it seemed like the alarm had been sounding for hours it had only been sounding for a few minutes.  I mean that literally, I never know until I am awake, for real, in real life.  In this case all the hubbub seemed to have been about 17 minutes.  I wanted to sleep more, so I got up and reset the alarm for 8:00 then went back to bed.  I tossed.  I rolled.  Sleep was not going to happen, so I simply got up about ten minutes later.  I am very pleased with this morning.

My elbows and forearms are killing me, for some reason.  I've probably been sitting in the chair too often, leaning on the arm rests?  But... I always do a great deal of that.  I never can figure out why I become tender or vulnerable at times.  Things just don't always add up.  I wonder if, and this would still be true, my heart has to give blood here, but not there, then over there but not here, and so on, so that I always have parts of my body that are not getting enough, and sometimes for too long?  I am honestly amazed my organs haven't seized, as hard as these things can be, literally painful... even without resting on things as my arms do.  Organs can just hurt in there.

I have decided to, before my next V.A. visit, email the swimming coach and ask what her expectations are as a coach (how often she expects to train me, say, per month), explain my particulars and see how that could or would fit (she wants people she is training to swim three times a week, which may not be possible for me, at least immediately, among other things), and clarify a few other details.  While it is beyond my means, I am wondering if the V.A. might help.  But if I don't have some clarity for them, they won't have enough information on which to base an answer as to funding.  The answer, most likely, is no.  But I would rather have a clean 'no' than a, 'we don't know, what is involved' delaying no.  I really could end up hurting my shoulders though, I can see that even now.  It'll take a while, but a while isn't... all that long.

A bit of this and that this morning, as I prepare to head off to watch the super bowl.  Nothing big, just maybe a little bit of straightening... or not.  I hate housework sometimes.  Gah!  At least I am awake, and going.  Two days in a row.  Now to make it three days plus a swim, and throw in Mass for good measure.  Later.