You've heard the expression... "stop your clock"?

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I realized something very odd today.  Remember when I said my watch had somehow been changed?  That happened right about the time I wrote about the cup, the day I started going through some serious issues.  Well, that is fine, watches get worked, sometimes, right?  Well, no.  My watch, the part of it that had switched, the analog part... doesn't go backwards.  The only way to manually set it almost an hour back is for you to hit the "set" button, and run it through an eleven hours and twenty minute 'reset'.  Which, actually, takes a very long time to do.  It couldn't have happened by accident.  The only other option... is for the analog watch to have simply stopped for forty minutes, then restarted and have been and be running normally again, to this point.  I suppose it could have tripped.  But right when I was having troubles?

When I was younger, and freshly disabled, I had a lot more... trouble than I do now.  I just did.  I also had troubles with analog watches.  I killed them.  I had Timex to... several watches in the $600 range, in the early 90's.  I killed them all within a few months.  I sent the pricey ones in, to be fixed, and usually just got a new one, then another, then my money back.  Timex watches I just tossed.  I couldn't keep a watch on my arm, running, so eventually went digital.  I do wonder, now, if... something about what I go through messes watches up?  Just... the thought sort of came to me when going back over some of what I wrote on the beer night.

I can't read the one post, but the Epica vid... and something about time, halfway through (3:08 on the clock or so).  Yes, "Time is just a concept, and always the first thing to fade".  I don't know if death has something to do with it, but time is just different for me.  I feel like I have been here for so very long.  But how I interact with time is odd, too.  I honestly don't think time means to you what it means to me.  My days can be longer than your weeks, even when I am busy.  Touching outside of time, perhaps... lingers.  I don't know... the watch just... bugged me... then reminded me of the past with them.  But... why didn't I kill this watch?  I just don't know... anything.

Good night.