Trying to figure things out.

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While I am doing this and that, I'm not getting to the meat of problems.  And those things are stacking up again.  I just can't quite swing over to the better side right now.  I'm... thinking on it.  It's like being raised getting in the saddle on the right and being forced by situations to sit the saddle from the 'wrong' side.  Something is just going against the grain.  I'm... working on it.  Is it the heat?  Maybe.  Something about high environmental heat, or cold, and the body just... slows down.  It isn't a bad thing, it's a natural inclination, like most will run from fires and gunshots.  Training allows some men to go in when others leave.  I once had that.  Some of which was a vestige of youth that frays in any case.  Still, I've got my eye on the ball.  I merely hope reflexes prevent a black eye, or two?  :p

I feel great, just not that active.  Sleep is a little messy as the heat rages.  It takes so long for me to cool.  At least with the ac going I cool fine.  At Burning Man there will be the nights.  Shorts and a wet down in the night air will work if nothing else.  Once I recapture my cool sleep is easy.  The thing is, I then want to enjoy decent temps.  You all know the gig?  Still, I have actually been... enjoying the heat?  Well, actually, yes.  So long as I can cool off with the ac, while sleeping, to sustain sleep, and sometimes just an hour or two of runtime during the day.  I am amazed, really.  Then again, this isn't the humid heat that had added to the wet feel of my lungs in Iowa.  And I am healthier, all around.

Hmm, not sure what I am going to do today.  Woke rather late, just getting on my way now really.  Oh, forgot to water the other plants, outside.  I'll do that right away.  Gah, I prefer to do that at night but they probably really need it.  Oh, and... if I can, to the w.heater and toilet.  I really want that going and today might be the day.  It's my first clear path day to it, where I feel like I have a shot.  I think, at some point, I am going to try to figure out how to rope the old water heater in the basement up.  It will take a whole hell a lot of strength, and a strong rope, but I... think I'm up to it.  It always amazes me how much raw strength I have.  Oh, there are stronger, easily... but not in my health classification.  I may literally be a one of a kind.  My doctor is amazed, with my heart, that I can do his personal stress test.  He would be flabbergasted watching me pull that thing up.  Silly humanling.  *grins*

Oh, urhm, doing something for civil polity isn't doing something *cough* right.  It is just keeping up with the Jones', following the herd, a faux publicly demure signal, a fine feminine trait but not to be construed with... correctness in general.  It is definitely left.  Odd that the left would deny while espousing.  But that IS the left.  Right?

Later!