Not a thing done, but...

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I didn't crash.  I'm not sure that was a goal, at all.  Actually, with me being as tired as I was and am, I had hoped to take a nap.  I was simply attempting to get to a couple of tasks before I went in for a rest.  Each task ended up presenting minor to major obstacles and I couldn't work or think my way around them.  Unusual, but I am very tired today for no good reason.  Each task I would go to do, I would check and find beyond my means, go sit and think, then hit upon another plan.  Each failed before I could get going, then I would be lost for a bit.  I don't understand this thing that happens.  Though, in one sense, I am quite pleased.  Even with the fog, and failure, that I was able to keep looking for another task...  well... it is important.  It means I didn't simply drift into 'nowhere'.  It is where I am, but I continued to attempt to be in the physical world.  A failure can be a huge success if you understand that even trying is nearly impossible.  I didn't lose focus when I ghosted.  Perhaps you have had to have been there.

I will wait up for supper.  But there is little else I will or can do yet today.  I feel both crushed by exhaustion, free of flesh, and as the Pink Floyd song implies when he suggested that his hands felt just like balloons, meaning numb.  I'm in a very odd place.  What amazes me is that for as often as I used to be there, almost perpetually, and even when I am there now, that I can focus to write.  It won't always translate, or make sense, to most others.  Not fully.  But I have worked very hard to simplify my language and slow down my thinking and thought processes enough so that there is some coherence in these writings.  Too many, myself included if I am not careful, thought associate so quickly that much is missed.  I can go back and read my own stuff and, even when I have forgotten, it usually makes sense.

Anyway, that is that for today.  Two trips in two days, ongoing packing and sorting, and a few other things, quickly after a fall.  I suppose I have accidentally overdone.  But I got a number of things done.  I am still planning to get to things tomorrow.  A trip to town, as early as possible, to do the last bits of shopping.  Then, when I have a complete system, to actually install the drip line.  If I get to that, I might fire up the grill and season the grate.  I should have the extra grill plate as well, if I won't be using it.  Yeah, I'll keep going.

Later.  Perhaps good night.  I don't know if I will be able to make it back to blog again.  Drifting too... oddly.