Feeling better.

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A few aspirin have helped.  I washed a few dishes then took a shower.  Just in time.  I had visitors, inviting me to a father/son event, though open to men in the community, in a couple of weeks.  I went last year but didn't stay over.  This time I might stay the night.  I have what I need.  A short time later supper arrived, so I got that down, and needed it.  I am hoping to get to unloading at least the roof rack pack tonight, though maybe more.  I need to find my phone charger and see if I put the camera computer connection cord in there somewhere.

I will take the aspirin as needed, but I do believe I am ready to begin digging in.  Further I have decided to try to rip through the man-cave and get it into tip-top shape.  I don't know, but after the burn out there I feel like I am willing to really take a risk and push a little farther, a little harder, sooner or later, and get my ship back into shape.  I probably can't sprint, or often, like I had to do to get going on this trip.  And it may all fall apart fairly quickly.  But until it does I am going to keep coasting.  Perhaps I am well enough that I can do more, more often.

So much to try to put in order though.  And I am just a bit out of sorts.  One thing at a time.  Having some cool again has helped.  But having things back in order will help even more.

If I have seemed offensive, be at ease.  The desert does things to you.  Beyond seeing the past, darknesses from that, and scrambling to survive, the heat stays with you.  I can't really describe it.  Wilderness living, if you have experienced that, would be a hint.  But add in that it is only (to me anyway) cool for a few hours, through in that heat rips me up, and you begin to understand.  The dry part was my friend, the alkali was neutral, the sand wasn't so bad this year.  Temptations were more easily dismissed than what I thought.  And I was, mostly, coherent and sociable when I could be.  I don't think I even got grumpy, save regarding when to leave, at the end of the week.  I still have a bit of that fire, a bit of the mind trip the heat takes one on, and that bite gets passed through my writing... if quite inadvertently. 

Hmm, yeah, another few aspirin, a bit to let that work, then on to the Xt'er, while it is dark... cool.  Later, unless I get into work and then do that until bedtime.