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In order to do this, sometimes I have to do that.  Because I do that, I don't always get to do this other thing.  Sometimes I can squeeze through.  The last few nights and days I have literally been burning the candle at both ends.  Going to bed late and getting up early.  Actually I did that again.  But this morning I could quite pull off as much of a coup as I have been getting away with.  Down by 3:00, or so, and up at 9:30.  Powerful dreams lately.  They were good ones, this time, last night.  They were power-play dreams, that is all I can remember.  As well, when I woke, I was just a wee on the wickedly tempered side.  Well, my version of it.  I have learned I can never, ever, just let go.  The most I can do is... be obstinately opposed to things.  Shaking my head no, solidly, one extra time, is about all I can get away with, as to being a big baby, in some areas.  Much more and the world can literally begin falling apart and things die.  If I am a gentle giant, it is because, as frustrating as it is, I like my Father's world and trust in His plan.  I would splinter this world otherwise. It is quite fragile for some of us. 

Today?  I am probably just going to struggle through until noon, hit the nap button, take that nap, then figure things out after that.  I have been pushing, hard, long, deep into enemy territory.  I have been getting things done.  I have been setting things up to be done.  I have been tinkering, thinking, doing, and challenging body and mind.  I need to take a day or two of light duty, get my sleep back to an earlier time, and go easy for a bit.  I am hoping to knock out the last of the dishes, finish cleaning the kitchen, coasting on easy eats for a few days while vacuuming and steam vacuuming the carpets, then set up for a well cooked home meal in a few days.  I need to back off just a bit, for a few days, and make sure my medicine sets are re-stocked, my sleep is refreshed and reset, and take care of the little things.  I have been pushing a bit too hard.  I need to... take a breath and reset.

I expect a negative.  But it isn't my question to answer.  I merely have to be ready for whatever answer is given.

Later.